only managed to fall asleep at 3am this morning.
then have to wake up early to go OCBC bank to take up tuition loan for university.
waited for 1 whole hour la.
arrgh.

preparing for university is so troublesome can.
especially the money issue.
everything needs MONEY.
even going for the orientation camps have to pay quite a lot.
haiz.
and dad keeps on calculating, nagging and grumbling away.
he gimme a feeling that i'm giving my family a lot of trouble and adding burden to them by going into university.
then i dont further my studies la!
then in future i cant earn much to feed him!
ARRGH!
pissed me off.
seems like i'm not in good mood these few days.
vexed over the preparation for university!

accidentally poked ais's hand with a sharp ink pen during work.
I'M SO SO SO SORRY MY DEAREST LES PARTNER!
i really dont mean it.
i know it hurts cuz it caused a hole and bleed a bit.
:(
my heartache la.
*kiss kiss* for speedy recovery!

karwei and felicia dropped by paragon at 9plus.
i wanted to take a ride with them so they waited for me to end work.
karwei drove his family car out!
so yea they sent me home.
it was the 1st time i sit in a car driven by my friend of my age!
so cool to be able to drive!
but i got no money and time to learn :(
oh well i reached home safe and sound.
i guess karwei's driving skill is better now cuz felicia got so freaked out when she 1st sat on his car.
THANKS for the ride! :)

changed shift with eleanor on wednesday so that i can work mid shift and end work earlier to meet the faithians.
cuz yinchi just came back to singapore from chigaco and leehau also juzt returned from her hometown.
but i thought it was just a gathering between the clit girls.
didnt know it was sort of a class gathering so some elit girls were there too.
oh well they didnt wait for me to have dinner.
by the time i met them they already finish eating.
we ended up at youth park watching some drumers had their rehearsal,
and i had to 打包 a packet of bee hoon and stood and eat.
they were having their fun camera whoring session as usual, especially the elit girls.
i wasnt very interested.
didnt have much chance to talk to them.
we all went our spilt ways after 30mins.
damn, so waste of my time.
i rather it's just a gathering between the clit girls.
at least we can talk more i guess.
i suppose different cliques still cant click.
felt so disappointed.
arrgh.

some of the very few pictures that those who bothered to send me:

i guess i forgot to blog about this.
my family is really damn 'sway' this year.
it's like one bad thing happended after another,
haiz.

dad had a little car accident last friday morning.
his car got hit by another car from the back.
but it wasnt his fault cuz he stopped to let a car turned out,
it just so 'sway' that the car behind him couldnt stop in time.
oh well it's an old woman who havent drive for quite some time.
i guess it's quite a big crash cuz the 'butt' of dad's car was quite badly damaged.
so his mood was kind of bad over the weekend.
his car is his 2nd wife ma, haiz...
it happened that the woman's husband is the boss of some car repair company so they offered to repair dad's car.
of cuz la, it's her fault! they ought to compensate us!
dad also didnt want to blow up the matter so left his car for them to repair.
then they gave him 1 of their cars to drive for the time being.
but the car has faulty brake!
what the hell can, they want my dad to get into real big accident is it!
haiyo!

so dad didnt really dare to drive that car.
he took mrt and bus to work these 2 days.
and guess what, it's his 1st time taking bus in the past 10years!
so he dunno how to take a bus, haha.
he knows it's similar like the mrt, must tap the ez link card after boarding the bus.
but he doesnt know where to tap!!!
so he asked the bus driver, "uncle, where to tap huh?"
the uncle laughed la, then pointed to the machine which is right in front of my dad.
lol.
if i'm the bus driver, i confirm will be thinking: this guy is from outer space is it. dont even know how to take bus!
wahaha.
and dad actually called mum to ask if he also have to tap when he alight the bus.
*faints*
YES DADDY YOU MUST!
haha.

i cant help but laughing like mad when i heard about it.
piggy and i kept teasing him about this, haha.
my dad is oh so...... cute.
LOL.

finally i get to have some rest and time for myself today and tomorrow!
cuz i dont have any plans and not intending to have any.
i'm already damn shagged from all the playing and meeting up with friends.
but my am shift days are my only chances to meet up with old friends.
so no matter how tired i'm, i'll still arrange for a meet up.


met up with sufyan after my work on last friday.
he was late again, quite late somemore.
he was late the previous time we meet up!
hmmm.
one advise, guys shouldnt be late when they meet up with girls :p
anyway we went to the hawker centre beside meridian hotel to eat and chat.

thanks to this stupid guy, after chatting with him, i'm more confused about my future.
i spent so much time trying to convince myself that i'll be ok to study chinese.
but he was like saying chinese is not something which i want afterall, ask me to change course in year2.
easier to say than done.
and he made it sounds like study chinese can only be chinese teacher.
hey that's stereotyped thinking ok!
but he's quite true about chinese is not the thing i want in the 1st place,
i used to wish i dont get it.
the thing is i've no choice now!
i can only make the best out of what i'm given.
at least chinese is something which can lead me to the route i want, hopefully......

anyway, i got to hear more interesting NS stories.
hopefully all my friends in NS are doing well!
and ya, dont give up hope sufyan, you still have 1 more year to aplly for university.


met up with ying on saturday to watch 'Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End'.
cuz the movie was released for a month already so not many cinemas still showing it.
plus we've to find suitable time slots,
so we went all the way to vivocity to watch.
anyway it's my 1st time watching at vivo, but i dont like the seats! :x
oh i thought the the movie is not bad,
although most reviews and comments from people are that it isnt as nice as the previous two.
and elizabeth is so cool so 帅气!
but heard that she and william not acting in part4, sad :(
the only thing i dont like about long movies is that my bladder always feel like going to burst after the whole show! haha.
oh, i think ying doesnt look very good.
but we didnt have much chance to chat except during travelling on train to and back.
hmmm must have cousin talk soon!


met up with bekah on sunday.
finally our dinner date at our community centre's buddy hoagies cafe! :D
that's a special place for us cuz we used to study there for a few times.
ate and chat.
talk about a lot a lot of stuffs.
those days back in st nics...
we are not the typical girls school girls but yet we've the enthu-ness and craziness.
i miss the days!!!
and i realise this blur bekah dunno anything about her university,
never bother to find out or remember the important dates, haiyo!
by the way she smart ass la, got in SMU business!
congrats girl!
we chat for a few hours, all the way till the cafe closed, hee.
loves hanging out with this girl, 1 of my most treasured friend in st nics :)

was a bit sick on tuesday,
got running nose all of a sudden.
water dripping from nose like a spoilt water tap.
hate it, arrgh!

but thank goodness i was much better on wednesday so i can go for my 'chalet'!
haha.
oh well that was my lie to my parents.
cuz ais took 2days leave and i changed my off day from friday to thursday.
so on wednesday night, ais, fiona and i decided to go clubbing after my work and stay over at ais's place after that.
these 2 are clubbing queens who club every week for the past 3weeks (if i'm not wrong).
we went velvet dragon (their usual clubbing place).
i didnt know that now clubs open till 5am.
i thought usually they start clearing the dance floor by 4am.
eh i never club for 3months plus, haha.
and the dance floor only started to get crowded after 1am.
so we were drinking while waiting for the dance floor to be more filled up.
they gave 4 drink coupons each but the choices are damn limited.
anyway i drank 3.5 cups, not high at all, i think the drinks are quite diluted :x
but they play quite good music, alternate between rock&pop and techno (of cuz techno sucks).

we danced from 1plus all the way to 4plus.
shiok!
and ais taught me the correct way to dance.
she says i used too much of my upper body especially my shoulders,
should move more of my lower body like the waist and butt instead, haha.
thanks for the enlightenment!

i was quite happy dancing away with them cuz there was no 'flies' irritating me.
all the 'flies' flew to our pretty fiona, haha.
whenever the guys approached her, ais and i will leave her to 'die'.
LOL.
she really damn attractive can, like more than 5people came to her!
but they're all too 'buang' :p

went back ais's house to bathe and sleep.
eh i was the 1st one to fall asleep :p
cuz fiona was helping ais to play her dear's maple account.
but by the time i slept i can already see the sunlight, it's like 7am?! :x

so the 3 of us squeeze on 1 queen size bed.
apparently i took up the most space, so sorry! hee.
i only know that when i 1st opened my eyes, my hands almost hit fiona. oops.
the 2nd time i opened my eyes, it was already 12.30pm on thursday!
fiona was already preparing to leave cuz she still have to work pm shift.
ais wasnt in the room cuz she felt too squeezy and went over to sleep in her mum's room.

our initial plan was to play at sentosa but we were too tired and ais was having body ache.
i ended up setting up my asiasoft and maple account at her house, had lunch then we headed to TPY cuz ais wanna buy comics at 天地漫画.
after that we went town to play maple at cine e2max!
i never ever thought i'll do such a thing can! haha.
but i'm damn slow and dumb in playing online games.
oh well i'll learn slowly when i've the time. bleh.
anyway thanks ais for teaching the slow lousy me!

went back ais's place to pick up my stuff and headed home.
luckily parents never ask or say much.
i just kept saying more lies to cover up my lies :x
but who cares, cuz my 'chalet' was a successful one.
:p

oh yay i just done with the online application for hostel.
and yes my parents actually agreed to let me stay in hostel!
HAAAAAPPYYYYY!
:D
or rather i should say mum is the one who allowed so dad cant say anything.
all thanks to 舅舅, mum's colleague and her classmate.
they all told her that she should allow me to stay in hostel.
so she actually went to seek others' opinions even before she left for china.
i didnt even know la, haha.
thanks mum!

but the bad thing is,
i've to pay for my own hostel fee.
that's what i told parents.
cuz i know recently they've been very vexed over money issue.
our family really damn sway.
air-con spoiled last friday.
which needs about $2000 if we wanna fix it.
so dad was super pissed and threw temper at us.
in the end parents quarreled.
haiz.
i know they're worried about my university tuition fee too.
so i'm going to loan from bank.
but i dunno how and where to fork out the hostel money myself.
it's like almost $180 a month.
my savings can last me for how long......
money money money,
how i wish i've plenty of them.

anyway living in hostel means must take part heavily in a lot of activities.
though i can save a lot of travelling time,
must spend a lot of time on activities too.
and i'm thinking of continuing to work part-time at paragon.
plus my studies...
i wonder if i can cope.
but if i dont work,
where the extra money come from!?!?
haiz.
headache......
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had family movie outing just now (i meant yesterday; monday).
thanks ais for changing shift with me so i worked am.
went home and watched campus super star with piggy.
then dad drove us to amk hub for our movie!
the cathay there just opened over the weekend but can tell that a lot of things still not properly done yet.
anyway we watch 《鬼啊！鬼啊！》.
super lame and crap show.
i guess local production still have a long way to improve.
i do admit that it's a nice comedy whereby you can have a good laugh,
but i dont understand why must they have so much of the rubbish dialets and songs.
make the whole movie very low-class.
the show obviously has no story line, but some of the things they put in to 讽刺 certain issues is very good.
and i guess they're trying to portray the life of singaporeans and the society here.
i just didnt really like the way they put it.
overall, it's still quite a dumb movie.
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3rd thing that i'm going to blog about:
I GOT STALKED while i was on my way home on sunday night!
it's damn scary can!

i realised this ah beng looking guy kept staring at us when ais and i got in the train.
at 1st ais was standing between us.
when she left i've to move in so i stood right next to him.
and i could feel that he was looking at my every move!
from my action of taking out my ipod and using my handphone,
i could feel somebody staring at me......

i wanted to watch my show on ipod so i turn 180degrees to face the other direction and leaned on a railing,
and he turned 180degrees standing right behind me too!
ahhhhh!
i take it that he's interested in what i was watching.
but i'm quite freaked out already so i sms ais.
she asked me to step on his feet 'accidentally'.
lol.
so i pretend pretend and took a step back with my right leg.
but he moved back 1step at the same time!
he's like observing my every move can!
then i decided to turn 180degrees back since the train is reaching khatib.
and he turned with me again!
*faints*
when he walked towards the door before it opened at khatib,
i was like "shit, dont tell me he's alighting here too!"
and yes he did -.-"

he left the train 1st so he was in front,
i purposely walked damn slow to keep a distance behind him.
but he actually turned back to see where i was!
twice somemore! once before he got on the escalator and another while we were on escalator!
it's like when someone is in front of you and he turned back to see you, so obvious can!
then when he went out the gate 1st, he wont know which direction i'll be going cuz i'm behind.
so i supposed he purposely walked towards the top up machines and turned to see which direction i went.
AHHHAHHHAHHH!!!!!

i quickly called piggy to come and save me.
and she really 'flew' out.
she ran out damn fast from our house and i ran damn fast all the way across the over-head bridge.
but she said she didnt see any guy with a white shirt behind me.
*phew*
thanks my little hero for coming to my rescue, hee.
but mum and her both think that i'm oversensitive, say maybe it's someone i know,
perhaps my primary school mate or something.
eh sorry, i dont remember having an ah beng school mate.
arrgh.
oh ya dad ran out too, but he ran the wrong way and he was a bit too late cuz he still have to put on his shirt and his running shoes, lol.
anyway thanks.
i just hope that guy really wasnt a stalker and no more of such thing please.
i've a weak heart.
haha.

my OFF day!
had a whole day outing with ah lao sheng!
a planned date since quite some time ago, finally got time out...

anyway shan is still very blur today.
rushed back to yj in the morning, wanted to collect my School Graduation Certificate.
at the security booth then realised i forgot to bring my IC out,
and i lent my ez-link card to fiona's friend for clubbing.
the indian security guard is nice enough to let me enter the school but the office clerks almost refused to let me take my SGC.
haiz, why am i so blur.
end up i've to take out all my cards like library card, whatever membership cards etc,
lucky my debit card has my name on it.
they even asked for any photo so i showed them the one i took with piggy which is inside my wallet.
1clerk found my name familiar, she looked at me then said "oh i think i know her."
*phew*
so i didnt waste my trip and got my nice SGC.
i better stop being so blur anymore!

anyway had Klunch with sheng at amk plaza.
with him then i get to sing a lot of male singers' songs.
if not girls usually sing female singers' songs.
so we had a nice 'yelling' session.
and he danced for me to see!
he learned from watching the music videos.
smart!
and it's like almost exactly the same, just that he's a bit slower.
oh yay my ah lao is pro! hee.

after that went Junction8 to get our free movie tickets (this lucky guy always win things! *envy*) but it was still very early so we stood outside poh kim and watched 'just follow law'.
a pity that i didnt have the time to watch it at the cinema that time.
went to look for xingling to chat and tried clinique's products before going for our movie.
watched 'legend of the sea'.
2nd animation by singapore.
sheng wanna watch it cuz the main character's voice is by JJ.
and he always support local production cuz it's his dream to do it one day.
eh but the show is...... so-so la.
if i've to pay for it, i'll think it's not worth.
since i dont have to pay for it then i shouldnt comment so much, haha.

and sheng brought me to eat prata at casuarina curry!
but we took train back to yishun then changed to bus169 to pierce reservoir.
a bit dumb la but we dunno how to go there from bishan.
now then i know casuarina curry is at pierce reservoir there, i actually pass by it before!
sheng's blog entries are so tempting so i insisted that he must bring me there.
and indeed they've nice prata!
had another wonderful but sinful meal, haha.

though i didnt get to rest again on my off day,
i enjoyed myself.
at least i did a lot of things, feels very fulfilling!
and i guess now sheng is the only guy that i feel comfortable going out with.
cuz i know he has no other motives or intentions beside just going out to do the things that we both like.
thank you sheng for the nice day out! :)

7days straight of pm shift from tomorrow onwards.
it's gonna be damn boring, especially when i'm alone for the last 2hours.
so people beware! cuz i'll start calling people to chat! haha.
but i guess i wont have time to meet up with people unless it's early in the morning before my work starts.

and it'll be the start of my dieting period!
at least for the next 1week i must be discipline!
eat lesser and do exercise!
i dont care!
shan must loss same weight!
:p

WEDNESDAY, JUNE 13, 2007

worked in the office since early in the morning.
did all the shit jobs ('sai gang') again.
went around the mall with damon and assisted him in changing of the paragon junior posters.
then helped grace with admin stuff.
all the typing, calculation and tabulation.
arrgh, it really sucks.
i'm not that type of office kind of people.
cuz i dont really know how to use microsoft office!
very basic simple typing of cuz i know, but anything else more than that then...
go ahead and laugh at me like what grace did.
cuz i think i'm really idiot at it too.
haiz.
i should go for courses!!!
and i'm really a slow worker with office things.
couldnt finish all the assigned work.
so sorry grace :(
i'm like more of a trouble than help la, cuz a lot of things i dunno.
arrgh.
shan's so stupid!

and shan's very blur too!
i dunno what the hell am i thinking while i was waiting for bus to go thomson to meet yanni & jing.
i know bus162 and 167 go there.
bus167 is TIBS one.
i supposed i wasnt paying much attention cuz when bus171 came, i actually boarded it cuz it's also TIBS bus!
and i happily listen to my ipod, not even realising i got on the wrong bus until i passed by hwa chong JC.
i was like "eh why am i at HCJC and NJC here?"
then i remembered it was bus171 that i boarded!
i got freaked out la, plus my handphone battery was running low.
damn sway.
so i got off the bus at dunno where, very panicked as it was hard to get cab at that time.
and the bloody cab fare cost me $8.20!
i can eat 2meals with that! :(

anyway had dinner at this hongkong cafe near thomson prata house with yanni & jing.
the food there is cheap and nice!
a very good recommendation if you want go on budget :)
we chat and update each other.
and we're all very pissed with tianyi's irresponsible acts.
my blood boils whenever i think about it so shall not say.
by the way jing & i are studying the same course in NTU! :)
at least i'll see familiar faces, and chenghui too!
though i know quite a number of yjcians are going NTU.
but chinese course, i doubt so...

i missed yanni & jing!
so glad to be able to meet them finally.
though it's really tiring to still stay out after a day of working,
i really enjoy catching up with old friends.
hopefully i get more of am shifts so i can arrange to meet up with more old friends!
next up is char & per and bekah!
and of cuz i still owe people dates, like ying, zhihao, ......
ah shan's a busy woman.
oops.
hee.
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MONDAY, JUNE 11, 2007

met up with jeanie dear after work!
sort of a post celebration for her birthday.
had a wonderful and filling dinner at spageddies!
my treat to her, hope she likes it!
had our usual chatting and photo taking sessions!
loves you my jeanie dear! happy belated birthday too!
:D



we went heeren to shop for a while after that.
but it was already 9plus so a lot of shops started closing.
both of us bought things from basic beauty, hee.

took train to marina bay and bounced back.
and it's just so 'qiao' that i saw bekah on the same train!
i feel bad enough to cancel on our date the next day (supposed to meet her on tuesday night for dinner) due to the sudden change in my working roster cuz vouchers fully redeemed means promotion is over so wendy says back to 3people 3shifts a day.
so i'm very happy to meet bekah on train!
but sorry to jeanie cuz i knew she confirm felt a bit awkward.
anyway both bekah and i got off at khatib and chat for a while before we part for home.
i promise i'll make up for our date!

another tired but fulfilling day :)

SUNDAY, JUNE 10, 2007

i thought finally i can have some time and peace for myself to rest.
cuz vouchers are all fully redeemed at 6pm today which means our promotion is over, much earlier than expected though.
didnt plan to meet anybody after work cuz i wanted to REST, already damn TIRED.

but it seems like i'm not fated to get some rest.
cuz my whole house had MAJOR electricity failure.
it just tripped and everything went out.
we tried to do something to both the electric box inside and outside the house but still no use.
called some numbers from yellow pages but every company keep pushing us to another company.
arrgh.
2men from MEC came up but they said our whole electric box inside our house is spoilt.
we must get our own contractor to fix it.
*faints*
it was already 9plus at night!
so we had to try calling a few other numbers to get people to come.
waited for damn long.
3hours without electricity, it was pitch dark and so warm!
had to use torch light and shine for dad to see when he tried to check the box.
and he was venting his anger at us.
haiz.
the repair work cost 100plus bucks.
our family damn sway this year.
so many things spoiled.
sofa, fan, water heater, kettle, PC, washing machine, vacuum cleaner...
all must change new ones,
which means a lot of money gone.
haiz.

i wonder if mum will still let me stay in hostel.
my dream seems to be getting further......
unless i think of ways to fork up the money myself.
money please fall from the sky!!!
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SATURDAY, JUNE 09, 2007

mum is back to singapore early in the morning.
so for the 1st time, the whole family is awake at 7plus.
received gifts from her, but her taste is still too different from mine :x
but amazingly the gifts she got for sis & dad (they got the same things) are nice!
seems like her taste for guys things are better, haha.
but anyway thanks mum and glad that you're back (to take back your 'position' at home)! :)

my plans after work turned out all screwed up.
1st plan was to meet up with zhihao cuz i actually saved the day for him to give him his treat and post celebrate his birthday.
but he meeting up with his secondary school friends and invited me along.
i dont wanna be extra so rejected but thanks for asking.
2nd plan was to celebrate jihan's birthday cuz zairong called me last week and informed me but until yesterday there was no news about it so i thought it was canceled.
3rd plan was to join piggy's friend's BBQ birthday party but i guess i'll be extra there too.
so i proceed to 4th plan which is to ask yanni & jing out since we wanna meet up.
but jing wanna spend time with her boyfriend so only yanni is free.

happily planned everything then zai suddenly called at noon to say jihan's celebration still on.
*faints*
so i've to cancel my date with yanni.
i know yanni was unhappy cuz i was the one who asked her out.
so sorry yanni :(

and ended up i was the one who messaged the rest when zai is supposed to be the 'organiser' but he booked out very late so he was very tired.
fahizul came to look for me after work cuz his date pangseh him.
i asked him to join us since he's free.
but we've 2hours to rot before the meeting time with the rest so we actually walked all the way down to raffles city from paragon!
did window shopping before meeting jihan, taiwei & zairong.

went to marina square, met sean there and he tagged along.
ate at swensens and johnson only came to join us after we finished our main courses.
anyway only half of us ate. had desserts too.
but i was really pissed about the billing part.
we're supposed to pay for our own share and forked out money for jihan's share.
like hello, she's the birthday girl!
but end up she and i had to pay the most cuz most of the guys only paid for their own share.
arrgh.
and ya, they were just happily chatting among themselves about their NS things.
yes i do understand that they've a lot to talk about NS but isnt the birthday girl the main character?
haiz.
i'm glad that at least i went so jihan and i just talked among ourselves too.
but i feel sorry for her too...
sorry missyG......
and sorry to fahizul.
everytime i asked him along for something, he always keeps quiet.
he cant join in the guys conversation cuz he's under civil defence.
i just hope he doesnt feel left out...

my conclusion is: guys are very bad organisers.
no offence, not pin-pointing at anybody.
personally i just felt that this gathering wasnt great......

FRIDAY, JUNE 08, 2007

treat dad & piggy to sushi tei after work.
have to do it when mum's not around cuz she doesnt like japanese food and this is just between me, dad & sis.
cuz that time on A level result release day, dad treated us to jack's place so i promised to give him a treat too.
anyway we had a wonderful and super filling meal.
our stomachs can burst anytime!
haha :D
but there goes my diet plan :x
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THURSDAY, JUNE 07, 2007

my OFF day!!!
went tanning with piggy at sentosa.
like FINALLY i get to tan myself after half a year of 'hiding' in paragon!
i dont wanna be 白斩鸡!
so now i'm like 10% darker.
much more to go.
more tanning sessions please!!!
and ya i wore my bikini for the 2nd time.
since mum isnt in singapore so she wont find out, wahaha.
if not she'll screwed me up like last year. traditional thinking woman.

dont understand why piggy gets darker than me when i applied tanning oil and she stayed in the shelter most of the time!
she's afraid of getting roasted so we placed half the mat in shade and the other half in sunlight.
and of cuz i'm the one under the sun.
we played 2rounds of UNO (i won both) and 2rounds of number probability game (she won both).
oh well we're so lame :p





bathed and went to vivocity, had LJS for lunch and walked around.
took bus855 to queensway cuz piggy wanna get new shoes.
walked the whole of level1 and 2.
and for the 1st time she said that i'm pretty cuz she wanna make use of me to bargain for lower price with the shop keeper.
what the......
anyway cant believe i was actually so thick skin to keep slashing the price with the shop keepers -.-"
so piggy got her nike air zoom shoes at $94.
thanks me please! :p

long journey back home on bus855.
chat with her about our studies and future.
helped her to analyse her subjects and results.
had deeper understanding between us.
love this 妹妹 of mine to bits!
*muack*

DEAD TIRED after the long day...... zZzZZzZzz......

Life without MUM:

mum has been away for 4 days.
cant really feel much of the difference since i'm usually not at home.
but now i've 2 more responsibilities.

1) be my sis's 'mum'
not a hard chore since i'm always the one who know every single thing about her life.
but now that mum is not at home,
i've to call home every few hours during work to make sure that pig isnt sleeping and nag her to do her revision.

2) be my dad's 'wife'
definitely not a nice chore.
cuz i've to chase him to sleep every night like what my mum does.
if not he'll just happily do his own nonsense stuff and refuses to go to bed.
but my scoldings dont seem to work cuz he still slept at 2am, haiz.
i guess he's only scared of my mum, haha.
have to make sure that he wakes up in time in the morning to go for work,
and make sure he doesnt go other places to play or fool around, wahaha.
but as i say, he's not afraid of me so when i scolded him, we ended up quarreling.
i dont like this job!
mum is still the best person for this position.

a very 肉麻 sms conversation between my parents which almost made piggy & i puke:
mum: 老公，我好想你噢！
dad: (asked my sis to reply for him) i miss you too! cant sleep properly without you.
mum: 今晚我不打电话回来了，你好好照顾两个女儿。给你一个吻！

OH MY GOD!
*pukes all over the floor*
my hair all stand can! haha.
but this shows that their 感情很好 which is good.
somemore this is the 1st time they're separated.
oh well, just counting down to the day mum will be back!
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I'm determined to go on diet and tan myself darker!
because of the negative comments i get from people these few days.

1st it was quincy wifey.
he walked past the counter on monday night but he just stared and frowned at me without saying hi so i sms him saying that he was 'dao'.
but his replies to me was all very hurtful, or maybe i should say he's very straightforward.

quoted from our sms conversation, these are some of the things he said:
1) you grown fat and white... the kind good to make soup... 白斩鸡...
2) your hair lah, what did you do to your hair! make you look so fat. PIGGY FAT!
3) by the way i couldnt recognise you just now, thought you were some malay minah...
4) a lot of malay girls like to be fair now, go observe and figure out yourself...

WHAT THE HELL!!! *faints totally*
i was so hurt can, and i feel insulted!
especially the part about malay minah.
i know i do look like ah lian when i've long straight hair,
but now when i've short fringe and much more layered hair,
i look like malay ah lian?!
isnt that worse?!
oh my tian.
damn damn damn SAD :( :( :( :( :(
so my attempt of looking younger, acting cute and sweet with my new hair style failed terribly.

and today when cass dropped by the counter to say hi,
she also say i've grown fatter.
and she was happily playing with the fats under my arms, saying that i dont have them last time.

FINE.
SHAN IS A FAT PIG NOW!
let me enjoy for another week more and finish giving treats to all those people i owe,
I'LL GO ON DIET FOR 1 WHOLE MONTH!
AND GO FOR TANNING SESSIONS!
arrgh.
shan is very pissed with herself.
i want the sunshine sporty shan back!

TODAY

finally get to meet up with isaac!
i miss this study buddy of mine hell lots!
he like MIA for dunno how long.
hmph.
haha.
but at least he squeeze time out to meet up for breakfast, thanks!
it's really hard for me to meet up with guys friends in NS cuz i've to work on weekends :(
since i working pm shift today so can only meet up for breakfast at khatib mac.
chatting session!
it's good to hear from him again,
that he has walked out of his sad period and made plans for his future after NS.
GOOD!
wish him all the best! :)
oh ya i made him tell me ghost stories from tekong!
i'm still such a busybody about NS life, haha.
anyway he went home to change while i waited at mac
(but he took super fast, 20mins only! cuz now no need to style hair, no hair to style! :p)
then we took train together.
i went town for work and he went army market to get his stuff.

lalala.
shan is very happy today cuz firstly she got to meet up with an old friend.
and secondly, she had shopping spree!
but she's damn broke now, haha.
cant wait for my next pay to come!

finally bought the la senza pyjamas i wanted!
2sets somemore! cuz they having 50% discount, hee.
and naughty me actually started work at counter later cuz i went to shop 1st after punching in :p
then during break, ais and i went cine to shop and we both bought a lot of things in less than an hour!
we got the same pair of big shades, thanks to ais who kept 'sai-ko-ing' me to buy.
but now i like it a lot, weeeee.
she bought another 2tops.
i bought a bubble top with buttons & pockets and a pair of shorts from pandora's box.
now even my dress sense is changing!
i used to dress more matured, those 'cool' feminine type.
but now i like to act cute and sweet (dont ask me why cuz i've no idea myself!) especially after i cut my fringe to bangs!
*faints*
i still remember the girls said before that i'm not those cute cute sweet sweet type...
i hope i dont look disgusting now :x

anyway took alot of photos today!
:D

(during work) the CSO in shades:



(after work) another of the les partners crazy photo session:

YESTERDAY

THANKS mrG for dropping by the counter to pass me spider-man2 vcd.
just watched the part1 a few days ago, borrowed it from ais.
i'm starting to feel the change in me... hmmm...
i'm never into those super heros kind of stuff,
but look at the list of movies i wanna watch!
guess i'm indulging myself in the 'unreal' world......

and a SUPER DUPER BIG THANK YOU to JEANIE DEAR for popping by!
she gave me this balloon with "I LOVE YOU" on it.
i was so shocked and surprised can!
thanks dear you're so sweet!
loves! <3
i'll squeeze time out to meet up with you! ;)

couldnt sleep last night.
head keep spinning.
so confused, so vexed.
haiz.
lucky today is my off day,
if not i'll be a zombie at work.

sorry to freddy, junyi and his girlfriend sharon (she really dont look 7years older than him, hee) cuz i was super late.
met up with them to go PC show at suntec.
but junyi and sharon are sick and didnt look very well.
poor them still have to squeeze with the crowd.
i hope it's not my fault that they've to come!
anyway piggy joined us after 1hour cuz she still have holiday lessons in school.
we just walked around and collect flyers of laptops from different brands.
i cant wait to get my own laptop when school starts!

A BIG THANK YOU to junyi and sharon who still came although they're sick.
get well soon!
A SUPER BIG THANK YOU to freddy for letting me know more information about laptops.
and of cuz, for lending me more shows to watch! :D

went to window shop with piggy at marina square while waiting for parents to join us.
ah there is sale everywhere!
the shopping urge is back!!!
i wanna shop and i need money to shop! :(

we had dinner at 店小二.
so rare that 4 of us are all free to have dinner together!
and today's one is a very good and 'peaceful' (no quarrels at all!) one.
very glad that i'm free to have dinner with them.
(just that i'm damn broke now cuz it's my treat and it cost 100bucks! :x)
it's a early celebration for fathers' day as well as farewell for mum cuz she's flying off to beijing for her exchange programme tomorrow.
(just in case anybody dunno, my studious mum is doing part-time masters in chinese studies)
but i've to work so cant send her off :(
anyway, all the best for her trip!
this is her 1st time going overseas on her own, i bet she's nervous, haha.

hmmm the relationship between my mum and i seems to be better these days.
she sort of can understand how i feel, especially on university stuff.
i knew she'll be very happy if i'm going to study chinese.
but 1week ago when i told her that even if i'm going NTU i'll appeal to study maths,
she didnt even object and said she dont think i should study chinese too cuz my foundation is weak.
instead dad was the one who keep nagging me to accept NTU immediately cuz he thinks that no other courses will want me.
kind of grateful that mum actually supports what i like.
and to my surprise,
now she said that if NTU is really too far and if there's the need, i can stay in hostel!
so OMG can!
i never thought that she'll allow!
but wait for more details to be out then decide ba.
thanks mum :)

anyway i feel much better after a night of thinking through.
dont think i'll appeal to anywhere le.
i'm kind of lazy to do such thing.
just stick with NTU chinese ba.
maybe it's all fated.
and i found out that if my result for year1 is very very good,
i can actually do double major in year2!
chinese major together with mass com!
provided that i'm really hardworking enough to produce super good results.
if not i can also do minor in mass com.
so i guess now i've a goal to work towards to?
all the way shan!
:)

by the way NUS rejection letter finally came today.
haiz haiz.
but i received NIE acceptance letter!
i'm selected for the bachelor of arts in education programme in which i can teach chinese language in primary school after i graduate from the course.
and i'll be paid $1000 a month for my 1st 2years of studies and school fees will be paid by MOE.
sounds so good right, haha.
but there's bond to sign and i can only be a teacher after i graduate.
NO WAY!
still very happy that i got selected though i'm not interested.
cuz it means i didnt really screw up the interview, haha.
satisfied enough.

now should prepare myself for the new university life!
school starting in august.
shall start reading some chinese stuff, hee.
珊，加油！
:p

so i finally get to know that i'm REJECTED by NUS through the online status.
NUS is so damn slow can, took SO LONG! till now no letter from them!
whatever. i'm still rejected.
super duper sad now :(
i dunno why am i so sad too.
i thought i'm already prepared for this outcome.
but still, the disappointment is there......

thanks to all those who tried to console me.
i'm trying to calm myself down already.

so i've no choice but to accept NTU's offer of chinese major.
received letter that they accepted me a few days after the interview which i thought i screwed it up badly.
cuz i was too nervous, even more nervous than the NIE one.
i keep avoiding their questions when they tried to ask me about ancient literature and history.
i told them frankly that my ancient literature is quite lousy and i prefer modern literature.
so they asked me more current issues like music, movies and politics which i think i answered quite well.
but chinese major is still mainly on ancient literature!
i guess they needed students badly so i was accepted ba.

but chinese!
i dont have confidence at all!
i flunked my 2years of higher chinese in JC,
and this is the most badly done subject for my A level.
now ask me to study another 4years of it,
can i make it?
i wonder.

i wanted to get into NUS FASS so badly cuz at least it has communication & media studies.
but i'm TOTALLY REJECTED from the school.
i guess my result is really lousy.
now i dont even have the mood to think if i should appeal.
haiz.

yes i know i've to accept the fact and i'm trying my best to.
so i'm looking and researching for information on NTU and the courses there.
like what others said, at least i got into a local university......