as usual, GP lesson now, doing i&r.
i really hate this never ending PW.
arrgh!

i guess i wont be blogging so often.
maybe once a week?
STUDYING is more important now.
STUDYING is all my life.
haiz :(

oh by the way i just made new specs! like finally!
initially wanted those mental frame one.
turned out i chose one which is thick plastic frame.
quite AA but i think it's stylo?
perhaps it's not really my style but i kinda like it.
most important it's within my budget, haha.
wee i love my new specs!
:D

after a happy thing, here comes a sad one.
i fell down 1st thing in the morning after maths lecture!
:(
right in front of the entrepreneurship club.
i landed on my right knee and my whole body weight acts on it.
*ouch*
had some cuts on the skin but it didnt hurt.
it was my bone that was freaking pain!
so ma-lu can!

thanks regina, felicia and some guys (i can only remember wenyi and ah ben) who helped me and gave me plasters.
went toilet to wash up with the help of fel and regina.
anyhow wrapped up with tissue and plaster.
called xuan for help after that.
she's from st john! my saviour!
she brought me to sick bay to apply medicine and re-wrapped my wound.
YJ is really poor man, even the first-aid equipments are so pathetic.
anyway thanks xuan!

how unlucky can i get recently?
haiz :(
1st is gastric until had to go hospital.
and now fell down.
shan's always so clumsy :x

did alot of updating.
so busy (studying?) until i dont even have time to come online.
cuz i'm very guai now, wahaha :p
had been trying to study for the past week, but doesnt seem to be productive.
HAIZ.
i'm really worried for promos :(

yesterday

had severe stomach ache again, stupid gastric coming back.
dad sent me to hospital :(
all started out with the coffee and mooncake i took in the morning.
didnt want to fall asleep during lecture again so i took coffee to keep myself awake.
but coffee + mooncake = stomach upset
stomach wasnt feeling well the whole morning.
did a very 'big business' before hcl lesson, then my stomach became very empty after that.
thur is always the most tedious day with 4 & a half hr of lessons straight without any break.
so my stomach was empty for a very long time and it started to make alot of noise!
then the pain came.
i tried to take medicine to 'calm' it down but it got worse instead.
seldom had pain that i cant bear.
but this time i almost cried out.

called dad to pick me up and asked mdm shelia to apply early leave for me.
and so i went back to the oh so familiar hospital again, SGH, i'm getting to hate this place.
waited so long at the A&E.
was given a jab and some medicine then they put me under observation for a few hrs.
so i just slept there for a few hrs.
didnt want to get admitted again so told them i just want to rest at home.
now i got more medicine to eat, haiz.

dad said i was over stressed.
the 1st question the doctor asked was also "are u very stressed?"
-.-"
stressed? seriously, i dunno.
i guess i'm numb already, cant feel anything.
i just hope my stomach will listen to me and stop all the nonsense it's giving!
oh please my dear stomach, take it as i beg you, dont be naughty ok? -.-"

today

had MC today so rest at home.
slept most of the time.
just got back from mr ho's mock exam.
physics paper. i didnt study much.
but i wasnt at the bottom of the chart!
so happy cuz it's quite unexpected.
i'm actually at the middle range, lala.
but cant be too comtented.
more mock exam coming.
STUDY!!!

thanks to all those who had shown concern:
xuan, xingling, tianyi, soomei, jasmine, siying, yingsheng, wanglu, stephanie, mdm shelia, zhang lao shi & all those which i didnt mention.

i'm much better already, dont worry.
shan wont say die so easily!
:)

september 17, saturaday

damn tired after MFC but still had to go for stupid HSK exam.
rushed down to toa payoh early in the morning.
almost dozed off during the exam :x
went for lunch with xingling and xuan then watched them played pool after that.
didnt had mood for pool that day and i was really tired so i actually slept while they were pooling!

went to study at some mac with xuan in the afternoon!
that mac is somewhere between hougang, kovan and paya lebar.
sounds complicated huh.
but it's quite a nice place to study.
we sat outside (not the indoor and air-con area) and it wasnt noisy at all.
well at least we 'produced' something.
did some chatting too, got to know more about each other.
i'm loving my new laogong more and more! haha.
i'll and i'm going to treasure this friend alot.
let's study and mug hard for promos!
more study sessions!
hopefully we can promote together :)

2/3 of the emcees! :)

the MFC (not so-complete) committee :D

in the toilet before MFC.

september 16, friday

it was the night!!!
after much preparation, finally this day had arrived.
YJC's 2005 Mid-autumn Festival Celebration!
was so nervous as well as excited about it.
didnt have mood to study the whole day.
rushed home to bathe and packed my stuffs then went to north point to cut my hair at kimage.
my fringe is short now, kinda weird :(
a bit regret but i guess most people are very happy about it cuz i wont be pulling my 'curtains' anymore, haha.
rushed back to sch to start preparing.

well the emcees were considered the lucky ones cuz we got to sit in air-con place while the rest were busy with work outside at the stage.
i was happily sitting down and shaking my legs off while regina put make-up for me.
thanks regina!
your skill is good! at least i look prettier? haha.
oh my eyes did 'grew' a little bigger that night, wahaha.

the whole programme was sucessful i supposed.
except the part which somebody was unhappy with my attire and matrock's band.
well, she's too KLL to appreciate these.
hello i was just wearing a toga, not a tube.
too sexy? i dont think so.

overall it was a fun night.
though things were not all smooth, but we did our best to make it a great one.
i appologise to my fellow emcees partners for rising my voices at some times.
i'm always so tensed up. i know i must RELAX, haha.
the karaoke part was quite ok, but wasnt really close with the contestants so didnt feel anything at all.
seems like it was just another show.

cleared up our stuffs and we all went to eat at the coffeeshop nearby with 'xiao yang' ;p
he actually treated us drinks without saying anything!
at least he's not that petty after all.

we've all did a great job!
133 rocks!!!

september 14, wednesday

went innova junior college with stephanie, 2 other malay and 2 tamil students from the news writing team.
oh plus a tamil teacher who went with us.
it was prize gifting ceremony for the news writing competition.
innova jc is freaking far from the mrt station!
or maybe i'm not used to it.
we were walking under the hot sun and we counldnt find the main gate!
had to cross a big field and walked around the sch just to get to the stupid main gate!
and i dirtied my dunks which i just washed because of that!
IRRITATING!
i was complaining and grumbling like dunno what.
oops, sorry.

our tamil team won the 2nd prize! *applause*
well, as for the rest... just COP, haha.
but we did our best and we learned alot from it, yup.
such a pity that we didnt get to tour around the sch.
the whole sch was empty cuz everyone went for some excursion thing -.-"
nvm, sure will have chance to go innova again.
and the next time i go, i'll make sure i use the side gate which is so much nearer!

met admirer when i was about to leave woodlands!
was so excited to se her can!
actually she was the one who spotted me 1st.
i was only shocked that how come somebody is standing right in front of me and blocking my way.
when i looked up and saw her, i almost scream can!
our immediate reaction was hug each other!
right in front of LJS somemore. i bet the people eating inside must be thinking that we are nuts, haha.
1st time seeing her in her sch uniform, not bad huh!
pity that i had to rush back to sch if not we can chat more.
catch up some other time ok!
miss my admirer lots ;)

september 11, sunday

last day of september holiday.
went siying's house for BBQ!
her house is damn nice can!
3 storeys plus a roft top!
i want to exchange house with her!!! haha.
shall go over and ton after promos!

went over with some people in the afternoon.
supposed to copy those undone holiday homework but i was just slacking around while others were so 'hardworking' copying :x
it's our class gathering, but some didnt turn up as usual.
and we've 1 extra non-133 person which is joanne.
she lives very near siying.

helped to set up the stuffs in the evening.
well most of the things were done by the guys.
so was the cooking part.
my job was only to EAT!
ate alot of seafood!
CRABS!
oh so yummy yummy!
i kept eating non stop, my stomach was bloated like a pregnant lady.
so i joked around and said i'm carrying ah lao's baby.
damn funny.
it was a fun night.
i'm sure everybody had fun.
big thanks to siying for organising! :D

BBQ at siying's house on 110905 :))) 

us in the toilet! :)

us in the lift; my hands are shaking :x

us at KBox :D

me singing *laughs*

'boi boi' singing.

'boi boi' and i at khatib mrt station.

studied for the past 4 days.
declared holiday for myself today! :D
must relax a bit, dont wanna get too stressed up.

woke up at 7plus early in the morning and went gym with mummy.
haven been doing workout for so long!
but i still prefer running on the track than on the trackmill, haha.
workout for about an hr then went home to bathe and get prepared for KBox!

i actually went KBox with my beloved 'boi boi'!
poor she has to wait for me who took sooooo long to get prepared to leave the house.
i know she's quite pissed off.
i'm SO sorry!
we went for K lunch at paradiz centre.
had a nice time singing our lungs out!
weeeee :)))
this is the 1st time i actually hear my sista sing!
her singing is obviously not perfect......but damn cute!
and she's very shy!
she dont dare to sing with minus one unless i sing together with her.
when she realised that i'm not singing (cuz i like to stop singing suddenly and look at the way she sing ;p),
she'll stop singing and look at me too.
then she'll say "wei, sing leh! dont look at me like that."
wahaha she's actually paiseh!
damn CUTE!
i LOVE my sista!
oops sorry, hee.

but i really love my this mei mei alot.
though she's so BIG size and looks more like my brother,
i still love her no matter what.
as long as she dont crash me to death when we are sleeping (cuz we sleep on the same bed).
i love the short chats with her before we sleep.
i love her innocent cute bubbly face.
i love her little whinings at me.
i love her for who she is.
my beloved sista :)))

i guess we are in love with each other?
cuz my handphone message ringtone is her singing and her message ringtone is my singing.
damn funny. but i like it.
just want to let her know,
i'm always there for her and i'll never leave her.
sounds mushy huh, but it'll always be true =)

went shopping at PS, cine, heeren and taka after that.
just walked around, too broke to buy anything.
met xuan and her friend halfway.
met angie too and took a train back together.
shouldnt have came back together with her, totally regret!
my blood vessel almost burst!
i dont understand why she just like to say and suan me.
am i really so bad that you've so much to comment about me?
or you just feel great and nice to see me so pissed?
i know i'm falling into your trap when i get pissed.
so i guess i shall not talk to you next time, HMPH :p

oh met von at khatib when we reached back. so excited to see her!
shall catch up with her soon!

i love my day spent with my sista! :DDD

Had been a guai girl lately!
I'm studying ok!
listen up, ho peishan is actually studying!
wahaha, unbelievable right? ;p
except that I slacked my weekend away...

last Saturday

overslept for tuition so I freaking dun care & continue sleeping till noon.
how pig can I be.
by the way naughty me lied to mr ho that I got diarrhea so couldnt make it.
oops :p
went church with dad & 'boi boi' in the afternoon after about 2 months since I last went.
feels so weird.
I still dun like it there.
if I'm given another chance, I would rather be a free thinker.
ah why am I talking about this.
thanks daddy who fetched us to harbour front after that.
cuz I need to collect my islander card from sentosa.
thanks to 'boi boi' who accompany me throughout.
we went shopping at harbour front shopping centre after that!
:D

last sunday

slept till noon again.
went out for lunch then back to sleep again!
I'm really turning into a big fat pig soon, haha.
woke up and vacuum the whole house.
not bad huh, another form of exercise.
busy watching tv and reading magazine for the rest of the day.
there goes my weekend.

yesterday

tuition early in the morning.
went back to school to study after that.
cant believe I actually went back to school on a holiday!
I feel so guai! ;p
managed to complete 3 maths tutorials.
felt so satisfied.
this feeling is good.
the feeling of mugging hard is GOOD.
wahaha.
xuan's supposed to join me but she only came at 3plus without any notes for studying.
best lor.
well cant blame her cuz she just got back from some camp.
in the end she came to sleep while I continued doing my work.
but my progress is quite slow.
aiya I'm always a slow pok.
nice chat with xuan on the way back.
I love my new friend :)

today

tuition in the morning again.
went to the bank to settle some stuff before going to school.
drag fahizul to study with me since he's also alone.
today's progress is even slower cuz I was chatting on the phone while doing my work :x
and I left at 3plus cuz SOMEBODY asked me to go over her house to help her pack her stuffs.
huh since when I become a part-time maid?
well we din pack anything but end up watching vcd and NICE angie cooked pasta for me :)
to angie: your pasta is really nice. Thanks lots, for everything. Though I may not seem to appreciate but I really do. Sometimes some things need not be spelled out or written all over the face right? At least I'm not that type of person. Whatever it is, thanks. I'll reflect on what u said. Oh ya and I'll continue with being a loser. I know loser starts with 'L', no need to keep reminding me of that :p
went jogging with 'boi boi' at the stadium in the evening.
dad came to join us halfway.
I ran 6 rounds!
feels so good to perspire :)
watched tv the whole night again.
dunno why it seems like I cant settle down to study at night recently.
shall study harder during day time.

tuition tomorrow morning AGAIN!
lucky it's the last one for the week if not I sure die.
3 times this week cuz I've to make up for the one I overslept last week :x
thinking of tuition only 1 word comes to my mind.
SIANZ.
really feels that it's getting more and more useless.
and I hate to go every time.
mr ho's getting more and more busy.
the time he has for 1 student is getting lesser and lesser.
I feel so waste of time there.
but I've been there since sec2,
so weird to quit just like that all of a sudden.
ah whatever.
just gonna make sure I get promoted.
should be studying in school again tomorrow's afternoon.
hopefully I really STUDY!

guess i sound real emotional on my previous entry.
thanks to those who showed concern.
i'm feeling a little better now.
THANKS guys.
at least i know i've you people, right?
:D

wasnt very lonely these days.
cuz i've got xuan!
guess i've been disturbing her alot, hee sorry!
well i really hope we can stay so close for long.
i dun want those short period close friends which happened in the past.
i want real long lasting friendship!
or maybe i'm being too picky.
even friends i also want to choose.
i tried so hard to become close friends with some people but it just doesnt seem to work out.
while others may show concern for me but i either din realise or din want to ____.
whatever it is, big thanks to those who is or was there for me when i'm in need.
cheers :)))

Mood's damn bad lately.
especially after xuan's broke down on tue.
made me realise alot of things.
she's tired of life, so do i.
I dunno what and why I'm living for.
I dunno what I really want.
everything seems so empty.

went back to st nics and peiying on wed.
my whole mood got worse.
nobody seems to care about my presence wherever I go.
and I dun feel any sense of belonging to anywhere.
st nics isnt a happy place for me then left peiying for such a long time.
nothing just seem to be memorable.
and I realise that actually I dun have any true friends.
dun have any best friends in st nics.
sort of lost contact with friends from peiying, not as close anymore.

I'm so afraid this will happen in yj again.
everytime sees regina felicia jasmine randal that clique,
I feel so jealous.
can tell that they have this close bond but they never left out others.
but me, I'm just another wondering soul trying to fit myself in at somewhere.
maybe I'm an uninvited guest who goes round disturbing people.
people who take same combi as me just doesnt seem to open up, they keep everything to themselves.
perhaps we are just of different frequency.
or the problem lies in me?

I understand how xuan feels now.
some people may seem popular.
but friends around them are all hi-bye type.
when they need a real true friend to be there for them,
they find themselves so lonely.
I'm worse, I dun even have much hi-bye friends :(

glad that I've xuan now!
xuan's my new found lao gong! :D
shall be each others listening ears!
how I wish we're this close earlier.
but it's always late then never.
to xuan: I'll always be here for you! Smile :)

if only...
1 day...
I can find a true friend...