arrgh.
everything just seem to go wrong recently.
even my blog template's images are gone.
stupid photobucket.

dont think i'll be blogging again so soon.
wait till i've the mood and time to redo the template.

feeling damn bad and terrible lately.
too much things happened.
i need to put down, let out and re-think everything.
i dont know what had i been doing.
did i even do the right thing?
i'm feeling weird.
i dont know where i'm heading to.
am i in the correct direction?
everything just seem wrong.

i'm sorry...

how i wish i can cry out,
perhaps i'll feel better.

no tears,
but the heart hurts.

the actors and actresses :)

look at what that idiot is trying to do!

informal with wei laoshi dozing off!

informal; siying & i are simply so cute! lol.

the cast; formal class photo of CTG Y20!

part of yjc's Arts Fusion performance.

CHINESE DRAMA.
30th may, tuesday.
7.30pm at yj's auditorium.
tickets at $10 each.

please approach me if you are interested.

come and support!
cuz i'm acting in 1 of the shows :p

left with about 1week.
still have alot of things to be done.
we must press on!

but sale of tickets is bad.
31st night performance is cancel.
so sad and disappointing.
hopefully 3oth night the whole auditorium will be filled.

it may not be a professional drama but all of us put in alot of effort and hard work.
i really hope friends can come and support if they are free...

went to print out alot of posters and flyers today.
sticked them around the school.
we've no choice, must do major advertisment.
if not people think that chinese drama is only about "lin yi shun" but the fact is not!
we've a total new show, "wo men hai zi de"!
it's our very own production!
i'm very proud of it.

very glad that most of the girls and ah lao stayed back to help out with the advertising.
that's the spirit man!
everybody work as a whole team, we'll surely succeed! :D
when we go around the school pasting posters, remind me of last year's "yi ye chen ming".
it's something i'll never forget.
i hope this drama will be a memorable one too.

we shall jia you and never give up!
:)

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

something which i wanted to say to my mum but i didnt dare to.
it's just too weird for me to say that out to her.
but i do hope she'll be happy...

i drank to numb myself.

was sad that i couldnt join the odac camp.
no, i wasnt allow to join.
i wasnt given a choice.
they didnt even ask me whether i'm ok with not going cuz there's not enough place.
they were saying since i've pai ju in the day so might as well dont go.
oh well, what can i still say.
didnt even dare to tell anyone about my displeasure.

it's his 1st time camping la,
but i couldnt be there to be part of the fun.
haiz.

maybe it's a good thing also,
at least i dont have to see things which i may not wish to see.
feels that i'm drifting from odac.
perhaps i've been too busy with drama recently.
or maybe it is just my personal problem,
didnt want to get involve with odac stuff because i dont want to see...

i should learn from siying, everything also close one eye.
i know i'm thinking too much again.
i just cant help it.
although it's the past, it's still a fact that cant be changed or denied.

too bad the alcohol is not strong enough.

jealousyistheword.

all of us! :)

the clit group! i miss!

with the elit group.

yinchi!

liying and i. alcohol addicts :p

me xiaowen leehau

ok i must admit my jie is cute. :x

aunty peisee is trying to act cute!

with eileen!

saturday 130506
pai ju in the morning.
finally came up with scene6 though some people are missing today.
now just left with piecing everything up!
we must jia you!
counting down to 2 more weeks!

rushed home to change and went out in a hurry.
got to leave before dad comes back if not he will sure force me to go church again.
sorry i just detest going.
thanks mum for helping. she was the one who told me dad wasnt at home so i could rush back to change, hee.

went for yinchi's farewell BBQ!
met some of them at j8 to buy some food 1st but by the time i reached they already finish buying :x
we were very early so slacked at yinchi's place and play with her super cute brother.
early birds: peisee, leehau, liying and me!
well, as usual, we are the more 'on' people and all of us are from the clit group!
i really miss them.
still remember that our class is a mixture of people taking chinese literature and english literature.
so people got split up into different cliques, it's hard to gather everybody together.

yinchi will be leaving for US to study in june.
sad :(
it's like only she'll take the initiative to organise class gathering,
without her, i think it's even harder to gather the faithians.
this time round only a small group turned up la, much lesser than last year's BBQ.
haiz.
oh well, we cant do anything if people dont bother to turn up.
some rude ones dont even reply to sms or answer calls.
and you call them CLASSMATES, laughs.

we went down to start preparing and set up the fire.
eil and mer were the next to reach but meryl left almost immediately cuz she has family gathering.
after that xiaowen, mui, dor and huis came separately, with very big time gap between every of them , ha.
at least they bother to turn up after their activities before that.

poor liying and peisee are always the ones who set up the fire.
got their hands and faces all black, lol.
ha i didnt just stand and wait for food ok, i did cook the food!
cook and eat at the same time, wahaha ;p

it's really nice to gather the ex-classmates together once in a while.
catch up with each other, exchange stories etc.
the feeling is good.
everybody seem the same.
especially mui's laughter!
brought back alot of memories.
although i wasnt very happy with st nics life,
i'll always remember this group of friends.

oh, must thanks leehau peisee and her room mate whom i dont know :x
thanks for buying tickets from me!
at least now i know our drama will have some audience.
quite woried about the sale of tickets.
hopefully more people will come and support.

i drank quite alot during the BBQ.
yinchi brought down a bottle of almost finish vodka, 40% alcoholic!
and i'm the one who drank most of it but of course i dilute it with soft drinks.
treat liying to beer after i finshed the vodka.
the lousy mama shop only sell beer la.
dont know why suddenly have the urge to drink...

supposed to be a farewell party but it became more of a gathering and photo taking session.
i just hope yinchi will always remember us and we are her best memories of her stay in singapore these 5years.
all the best in US :)
we'll all miss you!

with gordon! :)

surprise plan successful! :D

'boi boi' and her friends.
i like their close friendship!

Spageddies tiramisu cake. nice!

blowing off the candle!
may your wishes come true!

'boi boi' with the lighted candle on the cake!
happy birthday!

the sisters at Spageddies!

1st of all,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dearest SISTER!

it's 'boi boi's 15th birthday today!
since it's vesak day public holiday so went out to celebrate with her.
carried out the surprise plan me and her friends got for her.
we had been planning it since last week.
her friends 'stole' my handphone mumber from her handphone and contact me to ask for my help.
they purposely made it like they dont really care about 'boi boi's birthday and told her they've no time to celebrate with her cuz it's their mid-year exam period now.
i still purposely asked them not to message her 'happy birthday' last night.
she was waiting for her handphone to ring after midnight.
can see that she was very disappointed that none of her friends sms her, lol.
she looked so sad when we were out.

we went to shop around at far east 1st before we headed for lunch at paragon's Spageddies.
food was damn nice!
hope 'boi boi' enjoyed it. pronised to bring her to eat since long time ago.
finally fulfill her wish on her birthday, ha.
got her a little cake and requested for a candle secretly.
but she didnt seem to appreciate it when she saw it, so bad.
then her friends appeared!
haha.
i supposed she was shocked and surprised.
though she already sensed something weird going on cuz she saw her friends' sms inside my handphone.
and i kept talking on phone when we were shopping.
she's smart la.
but she still looked touched, almost wanna cry out!
haha.
yeah! surprise plan successful!

then she left with her friends to celebrate while i went M1 to change my handphone plan.
hopefully with more free sms, my bill wont 'burst' again :p

met up with gordon kor after that!
wanted to watch 'poseidon' but cine's tickets sold out so we went to lido.
the queue was damn long la!
lucky it was quite fast.
anyway 'poseidon' is a VERY VERY VERY NICE MOVIE!
very worth to watch! i love exciting movie! :D

the previous time we met was half a year ago when he lent me his handphone.
so i returned his handphone to him today.
THANK YOU SO MUCH!
eh but his poor phone is tortured under my hands. sorry :x
anyway we went far east's ramenten for dinner.
ate and chat for quite long.
always love to hear his life in NS.
like listening to stories, ha.
it's nice to catch up with old friends once in a while :)

to 'boi boi': wow somebody 1 year older le! grow up and be more mature k ;p
may your wishes come true and hopefully you will be slimmer when you turn 16, please go on diet! i dont want to get crush to death if you roll over me when we sleep :p
happy sweet 15th birthday. hope you enjoyed the day with me and your friends :)

thursday 110506
injured my right foot during 'pai ju'!
was helping to move the props from auditorium to the outdoor canteen.
carrying 2 benches with sophie, she was walking backwards.
then she kicked something and fell.
the upper bench slided down and landed on her thigh. poor girl.
1 guy ran over to help. he carried the front of the bench up and i carried the back.
was holding 1 of the 'leg' of the bench.
didnt know the cylinder base of the 'leg' is detachable.
i supposed i only grabbed the cylinder base part so it detached from the 'leg' and landed on my right foot!
OUCH!
at least sophie got her thigh's flesh to support.
my foot only has bones!

i swear it was damn painful at that moment.
too pain until i was too mute to scream out.
i would be jumping in pain if i could.
my immediate reaction was sit on the floor and take off my shoe!
:'(
ah lao pushed me back to outdoor canteen using a trolley. haha.
so after that i continued to 'pai ju' with my injured foot.
became 'bai ka' la, walked very slow cuz i cant bend my foot.
must lift the whole foot straight up to walk.
boohoohoo.

was damn shocked when i was walking out of school with the rest after 'pai ju'.
from far can see a familiar stickman figure :p
and it really turned out to be him.
he went to play pool with his classmates but came all the way back cuz his friend told him i was injured.
ahhhh i'm damn touched la! :)
cuz i didnt expect him to know.
my handphone battery was totally flat.
i supposed he was worried when he couldnt contact me.
ah but i feel bad to make him come all the way back.
and i was supposed to accompany ah lao to repair his handphone cuz he cracked his handphone's screen earlier in the day.
felt bad to pang seh ah lao.
sorry!

so he sent me home.
beside THANK YOU, i really dont know how i can show my appreciation.
i guess there's nothing i can grumble or be unhappy about.
always thought he's very heck care,
but i suppose he's making improvements.
hee.

got dad to rub medicated oil for me.
this time i really scream, haha.
lucky it didnt really swell up, just a patch of blue-black.
hopefully will be ok after a few days!

i'm just too clumsy la, want to help,
in the end become 'yue bang yue mang'.
stupid me :(

wednesday 100506
appeared on tv this morning , 'zao ani ni hao'!
to promote arts fusion and advertise our chinese drama.
went with wang lu and yang laoshi.
i was damn nervous la.
somemore i was almost late.
the moment i reached mediacorp then we were brought to the recording studio.
within 5mins we were on air live already!
faints.
i was a bit 'shocked' till i dont know what to say.
guess my answers to the host's questions were quite nonsense.
alamak.
lucky the host didnt ask me alot of questions, wang lu answered more.
i think they knew i was nervous and my phrasing of chinese on the spot wasnt very good.
so 'throw face'!

mum managed to watch the show,
she said my face looked fat on tv :(
ah lao got record down, he said my hair was weird :x
boohoohoo, i must looked damn ugly.
some of mum's friends watched too.
they even called up to tell mum they saw me.
OMG.
'zao an ni hao' is an 'aunties' programme ma, no wonder all the aunties saw.
so i'm 'popular' among the aunties now, LOL.
i've yet to watch it myself.
my house's VCR broke down.
gonna get it in a CD from yang laoshi soon!
cant wait to see how disgusting i looked on tv, ha.

oh well, it's still an exciting experience i supposed.
havent been on tt for ages!
bleh.

part of the gals!

friday 050506
went school though i was still on MC.
but it was a 'half-day' cuz yj gonna be used as one of the polling station.
ended at 1.30pm then went town with some of the gals.
xingling felicia siying melissa jasmine

lunch at NYDC.
i must it was a great disappointment.
maybe i was expecting too much.
nvm, i'll still look forward to issac's treat.
i wonder when i can get it! :p

took neoprints and shopped around!
saw so many things that i wanna buy!
but i'm already damn broke after last sunday's shopping.
arrgh I WANT MONEY!
anyway i bought a top.
so my wallet has a very big hole now!
plus next week is 'boi boi's birthday and mothers' day.
oh my, please tell me where i can dig money out!

thursday 040506
on MC.
slept the whole morning.
was sick since tuesday.
terrible flu + sore throat + slight fever
beared with it till wednesday night.
thanks 'boi boi' for accompanying me to see the doctor again.

was sort of 'forced' to go back school for pai ju cuz it was a mini rehearsal.
i'm glad i went back.
the rehearsal was successful!
it was our 1st time running through scene1 to scene4 without stopping and with all the sound and light effects.
and our NG king daryl didnt make alot of mistakes! :p
i must say everybody made improvements!
but i didnt perform well cuz i was sick, and i was very nervous cuz some j1s came to watch!
the feeling of rehearsing with audience is reallt different.
go people, we must press on. less than 3weeks left!

was so super duper happy cuz he went home and came back just to sent me home and passed me some medicine
:DDD

wednesday 030506

i love the pufferfish :))) 

monday 010506
labour day public holiday and i'm out again.
with him!
finally a date out after 4weeks.
lucky this long awaited date was a very nice one :)

shopping.
movie.
neoprints.
phototaking.
pratahouse.

everything was great :D

except that the movie was quite sucky, so dont watch 'the wild'!
i guess i've enough of cartoons this year :x
i still prefer horror and romance movies, hee.
and i dirted my white top while eating durian puff! so ma-lu-ating la!
but A1 puffs and pratas are so nice!
i want more!!!

:)))

along town! 

dont seem to have any difference thou i really cut my hair :x