i'm seriously damn
VEXED and
STRESSED OUT over the preparation of university,
planning for camps, work, my schedule for the next 1month and stuff...
i wanted some peace, some space and some time to myself,
but i was not given!
things just have to happened non-stop,
getting from bad to worse and more and more complicated.
i dont even understand why must i be involved and like stuck in the middle.
damn.
i really hate all these shit.
and i dont understand why do i always get friends of the same kind.
and they happened to be my close friends and best pals.
there are thing about them that i'm unhappy with and cant stand about,
yet i can do nothing about it.
some people may say you should accept your friends for who they're,
some people may say you should ask them to change for their own good.
the most funny thing is,
my friends do know the bad points they are having,
they can admit that they're brats, inmature, stubborn and selfish,
they do know the consequences of being like that but they just wont change.
so what can i say?
sometimes i'm already very used to them for being who they're.
and because i dont wanna lose a friend, whether they're worth it or not,
so i'll choose to tolerate and wont a fight with them cuz i hate to quarrel with friends.
when i'm in good mood, i dont mind lending out my big pair of ears to listen to people's sorrows.
cuz i know friends should be there for each other so i TRY my best to.
but when i'm moody myself,
i really dont have the mood and energy to entertain anybody!
i just want to be left alone.
i dont usually go around telling people my sadness and stuff cuz i dont like to affect others or spread the emo-ness around.
and i want to learn to be independent and settle things myself.
i just hope my friends can be more considerate.
i always believe in having more friends, enlarge your social circle.
dont rely and trust only 1 friend.
you will never know what is going to happen the next minute.
even a best friend can turn out to be your enemy.
i hope i'm making some sense here.
right now,
i just want some peace and time to myself......
