so i finally get to know that i'm REJECTED by NUS through the online status.
NUS is so damn slow can, took SO LONG! till now no letter from them!
whatever. i'm still rejected.
super duper sad now :(
i dunno why am i so sad too.
i thought i'm already prepared for this outcome.
but still, the disappointment is there......

thanks to all those who tried to console me.
i'm trying to calm myself down already.

so i've no choice but to accept NTU's offer of chinese major.
received letter that they accepted me a few days after the interview which i thought i screwed it up badly.
cuz i was too nervous, even more nervous than the NIE one.
i keep avoiding their questions when they tried to ask me about ancient literature and history.
i told them frankly that my ancient literature is quite lousy and i prefer modern literature.
so they asked me more current issues like music, movies and politics which i think i answered quite well.
but chinese major is still mainly on ancient literature!
i guess they needed students badly so i was accepted ba.

but chinese!
i dont have confidence at all!
i flunked my 2years of higher chinese in JC,
and this is the most badly done subject for my A level.
now ask me to study another 4years of it,
can i make it?
i wonder.

i wanted to get into NUS FASS so badly cuz at least it has communication & media studies.
but i'm TOTALLY REJECTED from the school.
i guess my result is really lousy.
now i dont even have the mood to think if i should appeal.
haiz.

yes i know i've to accept the fact and i'm trying my best to.
so i'm looking and researching for information on NTU and the courses there.
like what others said, at least i got into a local university......