the negative feeling of working at the counter is getting stronger and stronger.
i dunno why.

there is roster issue again.
i thought after that bitch left, we wont have such problems,
but i was wrong.
though this time is not a conflict thing,
somehow i just hate this type of situation.
yes there is unfairness.
but i dont think it is something which we counter girls can resolve by ourselves.
i know all the changes to the roster doesnt affect me,
i just dont like the feeling of being caught in the middle.
they're all our friends and colleagues but how many can we help?
if we help one, what about the rest?
what about those who need to sacrifice in order to help others?
say i'm selfish or whatever.
not that i dont pity or wanna help those who only get to work a couple of days this month,
but how many times can we help them?
it's not up to us.
they can always find wendy and fight for their rights.
i just dont understand why wendy needs so many part timers.
anyway if i never remember wrongly,
that time when joann and felicia join in,
they say they'll only work one or two months?
but this is already their...
i know everybody wanna work more to earn more money,
who doesnt want?
so shall i quit and let the rest take my place?
haiz.

now i'm wondering why didnt i change jobs a few months ago.
say i get an office job, 9am-6pm, monday-friday,
at night i can give tuition, weekends can work other part time jobs,
maybe i could have earn much more.
but it's too late now, left with 2 more months.
i dont feel like changing jobs now,
neither do i feel like working at the counter.

am i just feeling tired?
or am i just having mood swing?
somehow i just feel terrible.
and all these are adding on to my headaches......