arrgh.
i totally screwed up my NIE interview today.

i worked half day and took cab down to MOE headquarters.
lucky i was very early.
firstly, i went to the wrong counter which is damn ma-lu,
secondly, at my counter then i realise i overlook the letter.
i brought all my certificates and stuffs,
not knowing that i must photocopy them!
how blur can i get.
then must go down to the office to photocopy,
and i dont have enough loose coins...

the interview is like damn scary.
sitting so near to 3 interviewers!
2 spoke to me in english and 1 in chinese.
i dunno how to answer their questions la.
crapped my way through then keep repeating myself...
and the guy who spoke to me in chinese even asked me about chinese literature stuff!
OMG la, i almost forgot everything can!
so i just said everything which comes to my mind which was quite blank at that point of time.
and i honestly told them that NUS is my priority, followed by NTU then NIE.
they asked me what, so i just tell the truth lo.
and they commented that i can speak chinese very fluently but when comes to english,
i didnt speak clearly and my words seem to get stuck at my throat.
they say if i'm going to be a teacher, i must learn to speak with my stomach,
if not after 2years of teaching, my voice will be totally gone.
aiya whatever la.
and i didnt know know i'm suppose to take english proficiency test!
they say only B3 and above is exempted.
-.-"
the test is not very cheap can.
arrgh.
i dont like bothering about this course,
not as if i really wanted it...

and yes i got a call for interview from NTU chinese faculty this morning!
though it's chinese, at least it's something.
but i didnt receive the email which the person said she'll sent me...
please dont prank on me!
i shall go read up on my chinese notes in case they ask me about related stuffs again, haha.
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met up with zhihao at city hall after the interview.
ate at new york new york!
it's our 1st time there!
quite sua-ku la, haha.
their ribs are real nice! and it's super big portion!
the freeze drink is thick enough also.
but their calamari CMI la....
we ate until damn full,
and i actually ate much more than him, haha.
anyway it's his treat again cuz he lost the soccer bet.
but i feel a bit bad la, cuz it's not very cheap...
so i promise when i got accepted by any university course,
i'll give hima treat!

we were very full so hang out around esplanade area.
there is a lot of construction work going on, spoil the scenery...
went to the roof terrace then walked to merlion park.
i just keep staring into the space, into the sky...
so vexed and worried these days...
i hope i didnt grumble too much to zhihao unknowingly.
if i did, so sorry!

anyway, it's a nice night out.
at least i can 透透气.
i'm worried enough myself, at home my dad still keep rubbing in.
he really dunno how to 看风使舵,
if not must be he purposely want disturb me & piggy.
super irritating can!
arrgh.

KINDLY LEAVE ME ALONE for the next few days.
sorry.