well...
it's neither a very good nor very bad news.
guess i should be contented with it.
especially when i never really study hard right from the 1st day of my jc life...

maths - B
physics - C
hcl - D
GP - B4

it's kind of expected.
as in i expected that's the best result i can get.
and true enough, no miracle happen.
but i guess i must be glad that at least it's not worse.

i'm just pissed with my mum.
she was so nice the past whole week.
when i was worrying about my result,
my dad kept rubbing in by saying "you studied for 2years and you've no confidence?"
then mum will scold him and say "can you dont put more stress on her."
and she kept telling me not to get worried, even if i really cant make it to university,
there will always be a way out.
on result release day, in the morning before she left house,
she still assured me that no matter what my result is,
the family will still welcome me back and asked me not to do silly stuff.
i was so touched la.

but then,
when i called to tell her my result,
she asked what's the subject which i got D.
i told her higher chinese and she was pissed.
she was like "why you only get D for higher chinese? i'm not happy."
and she hang up the phone.

i was so angry until i cried.

perhaps i was disappointed too.
but i know it myself.
my chinese literature suck like shit.
i know that i did my best already, i really did...
even zhang laoshi said she was happy that i got D.
cuz i've flunk my 2years of hcl and this time i can pass with a D,
she's satisfied.
she said sorry because she actually expected me to get an E.
so i should be happy.
and i'm really grateful to her for giving me all those extra one-to-one coaching after school and on saturdays.
THANKS A LOT!

and i guess i must thank mrs guna too.
it's worth to spend so much money on buying all those GP notes.
cuz i actually got B4!!!
which i think it's very good cuz i know how lousy my written english is.
guess i'm really lucky too cuz some people who are usually very good in english didnt do that well...
i didnt even finish summary and AQ la,
maybe my essay was good...
if not then must be the marker mark wrongly, ha.
whatever the case, i'm most proud of my GP result!
:)

oh, must thanks dad too.
he brought me and sis to eat dinner at amk jack's place.
well it's not really his treat cuz we returned some money to him.
but considering that he's so poor...... haha.
when i was so pissed with mum,
i called him up and complained "i dont like your wife! she scolded me for my hcl result!"
then he was like "dont care her la. as long as can go university can already. i treat you to good food later ok?"
haha. ok he kept his promise.
and we didnt let mum know about our dinner!
bleh.

dinner at jack's place...




by the way the service at amk jack's place suck.
they let the customers wait at the door without attending to us when so many of them saw us standing.
it's not like they're super busy or what, and there are a few groups of customers standing and waiting!
somemore the waiters and even 1 of the managers' attitude is kind of bad.
should have written the customers feedback form!
and i realised, i dont really like steak.
jack's place isnt as nice as i thought :(

dunno why,
but i dont feel good after getting my result too.
i'm worried for myself, for my future.
with this type of result,
can i really enter university?
but what course can i take?
i dont have much choices.
and i dunno what i want.
mum scolded me saying i'm a failure,
grow so big yet i still dont have goals in my life...
true.
i agree to what she says...
i'm just a failure...

worried for my friends who didnt do that well too.
couldnt really sleep well the past 2 nights.
i wonder how are they now, hope they're feeling better already.
i know i cant help much, feel so helpless...
i know i'll just irritate or make them feel worse if i keep asking them if they're ok.
so i kept quiet.
just feel like telling them dont ever give up,
there will always be a way out.
hand on and strive for a better future...

somehow i just feel bad.
cuz i know some of them are actually more hardworking than me...
but certain things are just so unfair...
maybe things all happen for a reason.
nobody knows what is going to happen in the future.
so let's just work hard for the best!

P.S. : cheer up people! i'm still here for you and will support you no matter what!