越想越觉得昨天发生的事很荒谬。

just when i was rushing down to meet the girls,
my handphone rang and i thought it was them calling to ask where was i.

but to my surprise,
it was 某一个人。

我当然会觉得高兴，
因为从来都没想过他会再主动找我，
还以为我走运了...

接了电话，
他的第一句话是：“你知道我是谁吗？”
我心里想：废话，我有caller ID 好不好，而且我的记忆力没那么差...
then he told me who he was, and said something which to me,
is not very pleasant to hear.

他说他和前女友patch up 了，
she saw the sms i sent him in the past and wasnt happy about it.
and he asked if he could delete them.

laughs.
isnt it a stupid question?
how am i suppose to react to it.
faints.

我当然不可能说：“NO!”
so i said “since you already patch up, just erase everything.” and put down the phone.

那一刹那，我差点哭出来。
但我想我的眼泪早就流干了...

真搞不懂他的用意。
is he trying to respect me by asking for my permission?
可笑！
我觉得很多余。
这样子不是更伤害我吗？
i know i always think too much.
but i guess maybe he was just trying to find a chance to tell me they already patch up...
i dont care cuz it’s his own choice.

i just thought it’s childish.
his girlfriend is childish, so is he.
as in 我不会要我以后的男朋友把他和前女友的有关东西扔掉或是不让他们联络。
这是幼稚和小气的举动。
it’s his past, he has the rights to keep it.
and if the guy knows how to think and have his own stand,
he should try to keep his own past.

the more shocking thing is,
从友人口中得知原来某一个人竟然是call了她a few times to get my number.
证明他连我的contact也delete了。
有这个必要吗？
所以现在连朋友也不要做了...

随便他吧。
我只知道男人的话根本不能相信。

一下子说爱你，
一下子说忘不了以前喜欢的女孩。
一下子要你跟他在一起，
一下子说不想连累你。

搞笑。

我已经不懂他们几时说的话可以信，
几时不能信。
whatever la.

我只知道我现在只能靠自己，
因为只有自己是最可靠的。
我相信我自己，
也相信有因果报应。

曾经最想见到某一个人，
因为我知道他不会出现在我面前。
但现在他最好不要出现在我面前，
因为我最不想见到他...

如果他连朋友都不要做，
我没话说。
相识一场，
still wanna wish him all the best...

虽然少了一个朋友，
但我知道我还有很多要去珍惜的人...