my heart hurts today.
cuz my darling sister cried.
was waiting for her call to tell me her O level chinese result.
in the end got woken up by her good friend's call saying that she's crying very badly and asked me quickly speak to her.
but she got an A2!
it's actually good enough but she's still very upset.
upset until she hung up my call.
arrgh.
but my heart really hurts.
cuz she kept crying,
saying that most of her friends got A1
and that she has let my mum down.
well, i guess i understand how she feels.
our mum teaches chinese, it's natural that we think our chinese is good.
and mum always have high expectations from us.
but this time mum wasnt angry at all!
she says my sis's chinese standard is lower then mine,
so cannot compared.
and i hope that my sis isnt comparing her result with mine.
cuz stupid dad say it's my fault cuz i got A1 for chinese that time.
wow like that also my fault???
ridiculous.
anyway my sis is so much smarter and more discipline then me can.
her maths and science is like ace all the way.
in triple science class now and is top 20 students.
i'm so proud of her and i believe she'll do well in O level!
but her chinese and english language...
guess i must try to help her when i'm free...
i cried with her over the phone when i called her the 3rd time.
really cant bear to hear this darling of mine to cry so bitterly.
she asked me to go out and meet her cuz she dont feel like going home yet.
of cuz i quickly went out to meet her.
if anything happens to her, i wont forgive myself.
i can afford to lose anybody but just not her.
nobody can replace her position!
i simply love her :)
i just hope she dont stress herself too much.
it's her important year this year.
hope she'll study hard and do well.
i've confidence in her!
cuz she'll always finish her work before going to play or what.
at least she knows what she's doing.
unlike me...
seeing her reaction,
i'm very worried too.
i'm afraid that i'll cry like her or even worse when i get back A level result.
which will be like about 2weeks away?
*sigh*
it's like waiting for death now.
what am i going to do if i flunk my A's?
