everything was on the right path today.
at least nothing much went wrong.
my pimpled-face was covered up nicely with make-up,
my lion hair was amazingly much straighter and nicer today.
but too bad i didnt get to see the right person on the right day.
today is our 3rd month.
but it's his mum's bday too.
so well...
we didnt get to see each other,
and i realise we never had any celebrations before...
well, at least i feel more comfortable today,
with make-up and in my feminine clothes.
if i'm out with him, i'll have to dress more causal and dont put on make-up.
cuz he dont like me in make-up or dress too feminine.
weird huh.
but i dont think i'm giving in again.
not when we are going town.
i guess i've the rights to be myself.

i still feel bad towards him.
especially when we hang out together.
he's just so nice, at least from what i see.
and i feel guilty because until now i've yet to tell him about...
maybe he already knew, just that he didnt ask.
i just didnt dare and dont know how to pop the issue out.
i guess there's no need for him to know too.
i act blur, he act blur.
and we just continue to play along......
as friends......