i drank to numb myself.

was sad that i couldnt join the odac camp.
no, i wasnt allow to join.
i wasnt given a choice.
they didnt even ask me whether i'm ok with not going cuz there's not enough place.
they were saying since i've pai ju in the day so might as well dont go.
oh well, what can i still say.
didnt even dare to tell anyone about my displeasure.

it's his 1st time camping la,
but i couldnt be there to be part of the fun.
haiz.

maybe it's a good thing also,
at least i dont have to see things which i may not wish to see.
feels that i'm drifting from odac.
perhaps i've been too busy with drama recently.
or maybe it is just my personal problem,
didnt want to get involve with odac stuff because i dont want to see...

i should learn from siying, everything also close one eye.
i know i'm thinking too much again.
i just cant help it.
although it's the past, it's still a fact that cant be changed or denied.

too bad the alcohol is not strong enough.

jealousyistheword.