i must say i was disappointed.
his character is just too 'heck care', not serious at all.
maybe he is worried and concern also, maybe.
at least he called right after he ended lesson.
but disappeared after that.

couldnt get him when i decided to go home.
called so many times but...
and guess what, saw him playing bball at the bball!
faints.
he didnt even say anything when i said i'm going home.
best.

before that the girls were still betting whether he will offer to send me home or not.
only siying bet that he will.
so the rest look down on him.
well, when siying told me about the bet,
deep in my heart i knew the outcome already.
he just proved me and the rest right.
haiz.
maybe he assumed that the girls will send me back.
but what if they dont?
he didnt even care how am i going home la.
arrgh.
if melissa is sick, i'm sure aaron will send her back.
the other time soomei took cab and sent jean all the way home and cab back to school again la.
ok i'm not suppose to compare with others.

lucky he called, like 30mins later!
well, if he called soon after i walked away maybe i wont be so pissed.
at least ask how i'm going home what!
but i guess bball is more important.
whatever.

siying says i'm thinking too much,
i should learn to be contented.
but...
it's like nothing has change at all.
beside the fact that i've accompany to school every morning...
but so far we didnt go out at all, not even once.
maybe it's my fault that i'm so busy.
i just dont want to take initiative anymore.

it's like there's no difference to my life,
with or without the status.
i dont really feel like i'm in love.
perhaps it's better this way...

maybe felicia was right, i'm really that type of person...
maybe jeanie was right, people never get contented...
maybe 'boi boi' was right, her curse will come true...

maybe i was wrong...

of course there are still times when it can be so sweet and nice...
i just hope we are not trying too hard.

fine,
i'm just asking too much.

sorry, forget about what i just wrote.