finally got the answer i've been waiting for! :D
but before that was something which i hate to find out.
why cant everything be settled once and for all?
these things are driving me crazy...

stayed over at cindy's place on saturday night
cuz next morning had to report very early for marshaling for Adventure Race.
her dad fetched us, taiwei and johnson to the place.
anyway we had gals talk! hee.
found out about alot of things, happy things... :)

marshaling was pretty boring cuz i was split up, did duty alone.
but it was quite fun watching...
was very shagged after that, both physically and emotionally...

but i guess things will be better from now on?
maybe i'm worrying too much.

i knew i was over the moon last night.
and i guess i was still smiling happily to myself today.
if not reginBA wont have asked!
aiya i shouldnt have asked her those questions, too obvious huh.
but i didnt intend to hide anything also.

ah BA seems to be happier than me la, so excited, lol.
must be feeling happy for me right? haha.
i thought everyone will still think OP is better, what they said on friday made me ponder.
yea i know he's perfect, all rounder, good in academic, sports, music, leadership, blah blah blah.
typical ideal one.
but i just...
terbaboom, stop making me feel guilty!
i'm not going to regret my choice.
ah BA, u can have OP if u want. need my help? :p
or u want ABC? wahaha.
i'm just afraid that... is it true that i'm not harsh enough?
haiz. whatever. like what the rest said, he's not in the picture at all.
my eyes are only for XYZ! lol.

i'm too high during hcl lesson today.
cuz i was presenting 'hong lou meng' chap29.
got the part about 'bao yu' and 'dai yu' 's love.
so sweet la, but very sad at the same time.
they like each other but can never say out due to the culture at that point of time.
'ai de so xin ku'.
but their declaration of love for each other is so sweet,
cursed themselves to die for the sake of the other party.
in another word (quoted from tianyi) is "u die, i die". lol.
i was screaming that their love is SO SWEET.
though they kept quarreling and there's a 3rd party involved.
'bao chai' sux big time!
without her, 'bao yu' and 'dai yu' 's ending wouldnt be such a bad one.

while i'm crazy over the sweetness of their love,
i guess i neglected jing chao's feeling.
dont know how is she and her bf now.
looking at how sad she's, i can feel the ache too.
didnt know relationship problem can cause such a great impact.
sorry but this better dont happen on me, i dont wanna experience it!
i just hope everything will be fine for her.
maybe we should stop talking about love and 3rd party's issue.
but that's what 'hou lou meng' story is about now!
everytime these issue is raised up, tianyi and i will freeze cuz we knew it'll hurt jing chao.
haiz.
going through a relationship seems to be a hard task.
nvm, i shall think of ways to cheer her up!

so shagged today.
went lulut's house after school(3.30pm) to rest for a while then went for tuition.
rushed back to school to attend maths night lesson at 7pm.
rush here and there, 'learned' so many things.
BRAIN DEAD!
now every tuesday night mrs kwang is giving extra maths lesson.
it's optional but i guess i should go since i'm so lousy.
but i've mr ho's tuition too!
dont tell me i've to rush like that every tuesday.
i'll go mad!
:(