i'm not feeling good recently.
dunno why.
alot of things running through my mind.
want to rant out but some things just cant be said here.
shall write it in my private blog and lock it up.
if anybody want the password can get from me, that's if i'm willing to give.

i think i sux.
i'm petty, stingy, selfish...
i dunno why am i like that.
but nobody's perfect, right?
sorry, i'm not a perfect person...
sometimes i just hate myself so much.
i dont understand why am i existing for.
my life is a cycle, always revolve around the same usual things.
so boring.
but i've no goal, no plans...
i dunno what i want, dunno what i'm thinking...
even i myself dont understand myself...

i'm not blind, i can see.
i'm not heartless, i can feel.
i know what's going on around me.
but sometimes i just choose to ignore, pretend i dunno anything, act blur.
i'm sorry.
i know who's good to me, who's not.
but we may not have the same thinking.
dont be too nice to me, i dont wanna fall for it again...

had always been wondering,
does love really exist in this world?
i thought i knew what is love.
but i was so wrong.
what is happiness?
i guess i dunno either.

i dont think i was wrong for choosing that path.
although it's kind of adnormal.
i never regret.
but i didnt say i wont turn back.
it's just that my dreams were smashed everytime i thought...
i swear i'll not be so passive again.
dont wanna get hurt.

must girls really be the passive ones?
why cant we be the ones taking the initiative?
this is the 21st centuary, men and women are equal.

my god, i seriously dunno what the hell i'm typing.
i must be mad.
insane after the stress from promos.
sorry.