fairyland

2011-05-04T04:42:00.002+08:00

moving out of this place/blog very soon.

didn't have much chance to blog in university days. might be a good thing as well since i don't remember much happy memories...

i really really need to START MY LIFE ANEW after graduation.

2010-10-17T19:53:00.002+08:00

看到自己之前的几个posts就很想笑。
突然觉得自己好笨，还笨了两年。

就因为两年前的错过，让我执着的守着那所谓的“梦”守了两年。
执着的当儿又错过了另一个错过...
这次的错过，应该会比两年前的来得更加遗憾吧...

所以这个错过又会造成另一次的执着？

哈，这种事还真是个恶性循环...

2010-10-17T18:55:00.002+08:00

has not been here for damn long!
seems like now with facebook and twitter, it seems so much easier to post about life on the go.

but i still have so much to let out, to dunno where.
maybe i should turn back toblogging, so i won't be so depressed about my life.
MAYBE.
cuz i always say i want go back into blogging,but end up i still don't have the time.
haiz.

2010-08-28T00:55:00.002+08:00

6 hours ago, my heart was racing like mad...
No one knows I caught a glimpse of you.

over the moon.

2010-07-30T21:32:00.003+08:00

Movies watched this month:

1) 《第36个故事》preview
thanks to ying sheng that i get to watch it free! preview somemore! he's still always winning things. *envy*

2) Despicable Me in 3D
watched it yesterday with meow meow during our monthly sisters date!
wanted to watch Inception with her but she chose to watch cartoon instead cuz she said "cute people like me must watch cute movie ma."
LOL.

Upcoming movies to catch:

1) Inception
gonna watch it tomorrow with bestie!

2) 《一页台北》
very very sad that i did not make it to the 首映礼 with ying sheng. he won tickets and invited me again but i gotta work. haiz.
now must spend money to watch it.

3) Avatar: Special Edition in 3D
since i did not catch the 'normal' one, i shall watch this 'special' one.

recently quite a number of Chinese movies showing up, but i usually dont go watch them unless got free tickets cuz SCV or Mediacorp will show them quite soon.
but for taiwan films i will definitely go watch!
they are usually not that 商业化，more 写意 and 触动人心.
a pity that i didn't manage to catch 《艋舺》, but that film is more commericalise i guess.

希望台湾电影的市场会越来越好，打进本地那我才有机会观看。
至少近年台湾电影的水准比本地电影的好得多了。

by the way, 《第36个故事》真的不错，虽然未必每个人都看得懂，但不同人可以有不同的解读，就像文学一样。电影本来就是一个文学文本。哈哈，我上了电影研究课，中了毒了。oops.
相信《一页台北》也会一样好看。虽然还没去过台湾，但我是（要做）台湾迷！

can't wait for my taiwan grad trip next year!!!
:DDD

2010-07-29T23:11:00.002+08:00

missing the days 2 months ago...
beer peanuts laughter nonsense randomness... and you.

2010-07-27T02:28:00.002+08:00

Gastric attack plus quarrel & cold war with sis plus feeling the pain of wisdom tooth growing out from left side of mouth,
How bad can the night be?
:(

2010-07-12T02:44:00.000+08:00

World Cup Finals 2010!!!

GO SPAIN!!!

2010-06-27T02:48:00.002+08:00

shan is BUSY...

handling customers at work;
handling family stuff at home;
handling tuition kids on off days.

THIS IS MY LIFE for the past whole month.

but when will i get the chance to handle myself and my own life?

2010-06-06T23:40:00.002+08:00

shan is forever so busy.
she still loves to make her schedule so packed that she cant breathe.
then she will grumble and grumble and grumble.
but thats how she lives her life.

never work today. supposed to have a good rest, unpack my stuff (yes i haven done that though i move back for a month already) and enjoy my online session.
ended up only had a good rest cuz i'm just plain lazy.

finally had a chance when 一家人可以坐在一起吃饭，but everything is spoilt when dad said that 4 words again. the whole night was so screwed up cuz he keeps saying it and jumping around.
FUCK.
cant i have some peace during my off day.

finish my week of PM shift this week.
mostly morning shifts for the rest of the months.
morning shifts means i can go out more often after work but also means i will be more tired.
and seriously PM shifts are more peaceful.
morning shifts are like super hectic.

anyway, really more and more cant stand the job.
customers are getting worse (i should really learn from them).
PLEASE, 客户服务员也是人，give us some RESPECT can.

plus really cant stand some of my colleagues. haiz.
more bitching to come when i have the time.

2010-05-30T22:12:00.002+08:00

long weekend + getaway trip to desaru with fivers.
just cycled 5hours plus this morning with just only 3hours of sleep last night.
damn freaking shagged now.
cant believe i'm still working AM1 tomorrow plus giving tuition at jurong after that.
oh my tian, will i break into pieces? LOL.

not many highlights during this trip.
besides cycling it's just the beach, go-kart and fireflies viewing.
but then, it's the company that matters.
i'm glad i was LUCKY.
:)

anything with you around is good enough for me i guess.

2010-05-23T01:50:00.000+08:00

so much to say yet so lazy...

2010-05-17T00:57:00.003+08:00

attended 姑姑's engagement dinner on Saturday and her ROM on Sunday morning.
at the age of 36, she's finally getting married.
她和叔叔一直都没有谈过恋爱，我们以为他们永远都不会成家了。
想不到姑姑现在竟然要嫁去台湾。i was quite surprised when i found out.

but then, 是通过教会的相亲才认识的。
这也是我看过最可笑的婚姻注册仪式。
it's so obvious that 他们没有谈过恋爱，cuz when the officer asked the groom to kiss my aunt, he was so taken back that he actually stepped back! 还是我姑姑叫他亲她的脸。oh my 天。
更荒谬的是，我的姑丈根本就从来没正式向我姑姑求婚！
ROM后还是我姑姑的同学朋友逼他向我姑姑求婚，因为下午他就要飞回台湾了。
我听了都不知道是要笑还是要哭。只有一个字，faints.

那个男的比我姑姑还要矮，不过人看起来很老实，应该是可以托付终身的人。
姑姑，祝福你了！
他们的正式婚礼八月份在台湾举行，全家人除了我以外应该都会出席吧。

其实姑姑蛮可怜的啦，一大把年纪了还没谈过恋爱。一生为了教会付出了这么多，可是新加坡的教友却没有一个要她，最后靠教会安排相亲还得嫁给外国的教友。自己的父亲和二哥又不赞同她嫁去国外，大哥又精神失常到差点连她的定婚宴和注册仪式都不想出席。haiz，真是可悲。

而我这个可恶的侄女还一直在背后笑她。
以前许多何家的亲戚总是喜欢说我长得像我姑姑，我总是会很生气，然后complain给mummy，说我是她和daddy生的孩子，为什么会像姑姑。
因为我总觉得自己长得比姑姑漂亮，又不想像她一样变成老姑婆，所以很讨厌亲戚说我像她。

星期六去定婚宴的途中，我还和家人笑说我才不会像姑姑一样，我很自信的说：“by the age of 35, i would be a mother of 3.”
家人顿时哄然大笑，说我现在连男朋友都没有还敢说大话。
mummy说我‘八’字都还没有一撇，meow meow说她‘拭目以待’。
没有半个人支持我，真扫兴。
不过it's quite true, haha.

我也只能做着我的白日梦……

2010-05-16T23:37:00.002+08:00

考完第一张试卷后就没什么心情读书了，“思想史”真的让人“是想死”。
也不知道自己怎么熬过考试那几个礼拜，只知道自己日夜颠倒，又常头痛胃痛的，不过还是过去了，只求这次的股票继续上升不要下滑！

考完试后并没有松懈下来的快乐，因为一心想要搬回家，不然没有放假的感觉。
每个人看到我的房间都说我会“take a thousand years to pack”，而我果然pack了好几天。
每年搬回家时都说明年不要带那么多东西进来，结果每年还是一样把hall room弄成第二个家，几乎应有尽有，什么都不缺，搬回家时就每年都一样头痛。

终于搬回家了，但还要继续头痛，因为不知道要怎么unpack。
住在学校三年了，家里也似乎没有我的容身之处，没有什么地方可以accomodate我的东西。
haiz，看来真的需要早点嫁出去。LOL。

本来说好今天下午要开始unpack的，结果……
太累了，睡着了，然后下雨，天气太好，一觉不醒。LOL。
其实真的还蛮懒的，可是家里真的很乱（本来就已经很乱，家人都不爱收拾），有时看了还真不想住下去。

明天开始会忙着做工赚钱了，希望还能抽出时间整理东西。

我要开始我的新人生！！！
ok this is so random.

2010-05-14T23:31:00.002+08:00

post-exam week is super BUSY and HECTIC.
faints.

Monday: cleared hall room (was actually back on Sunday night!) and gave tuition.
Tuesday: worked (and ran home)
Wednesday: watched 《初恋红豆冰》 with ah ba and sheng; gave tuition; celebrated sis's birthday
Thursday: final clearing of hall and moved back home; manicure&pedicure @fiona's
Friday (today): attended mum's convocation
Saturday (tomorrow): 姑姑's wedding
Sunday: 姑姑's ROM

Then next week onwards will be starting WORK.
oh well i'm STILL at the same job though i said i wanna quit like a thousand times.
but nah, shan's a lazy bum. haha.
really needs to earn a lot in May and June.
just hope that i wont be busy until i suffocate again.
JIAYOU go go!

2010-04-22T18:16:00.003+08:00

oh yea my blog really need a revamp soon, and a NEW LIFE.
always so tempted to start blogging again.
it's not like you can say everything on facebook.
haiz.

but 1st, must get over this sem!
23 APR: HC302 (killer CORE paper!)
27 APR: HC312 (creative writing)
29 APR: HC341 (open book :D)
07 MAY: COM204 (30% weightage and test your english writing skill)

oh well, i think i can relax a bit after tomorrow's paper! cuz the rest of the papers is not as tedious.
so please please please let me survive tonight till noon the next day...

2010-01-15T21:50:00.002+08:00

COME ON, GET A LIFE!
STOP EMO-ING WHEN YOU ARE A GUY!
I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!!

and stop saying until like i owe you everything.
I DONT OWE YOU ANYTHING!
blame yourself for being a coward.

2009-11-23T08:21:00.003+08:00

I REALLY REALLY FEEL LIKE CRYING :"(

but i know it wont help in anyway.
but what else can i do?

so HELPLESS!
and nobody can help me...

2009-11-18T19:41:00.003+08:00

1st paper starting tomorrow.
and i'm so NOT PREPARED. (and i wonder where is my sense of urgency)
this is the MOST HORRIBLE SEMESTER cuz i totally dunno what i'm supposed to have learnt. (and i wonder what i've been doing for the past 3 months)
SUCKS BIG TIME!!!

19 NOV 1300hours: HC303 EXAM
23 NOV 1700hours: HC805 EXAM and HC440 report (minimum 4000words; 0words now) DUE
26 NOV 0900hours: HC413 EXAM
26 NOV 1300hours: HC440 EXAM
01 NOV 1300hours: HC314 EXAM
07 NOV 0900hours: HC360 EXAM

cant wait for the next 3 weeks to be over.

2009-10-08T22:20:00.000+08:00

HELL WEEK IS NOT OVER YET!!!
:( :( :( :( :(

2009-09-09T19:41:00.002+08:00

it has been 5 weeks into school and i didnt blog even once.
seems like busy school life really cant allows me to use the internet as i like.
boo.
but i'm not going to give up!
anyway, i should be a little more free soon.
stepping down in like 2weeks time.
FINALLY!

had HAVOC camp before school starts.
was an OGL for the group NUOVA.
wanted to be OGL last year already but due to dad's illness the committee decided not to put me in cuz i could not attend senior camp.
it's quite wrong to be OGL this year cuz i'm the only year 3 OGL la, old auntie, cant really click in with freshies.
haiz.
but weird thing is, i'm like closer to some of my OG freshies only after the camp.
so ya, the clicking thing is not so bad now.

the only regretful part being an OGL is cuz of my president status, i've to be an OGL and a president at the same time, it's so hard to see things from 2 different points of view.
and bad things just need to happen.
grrrr. shall not talk about unhappy stuff.

should look forward into the future!
which is going to be filled with both good and bad things.

1) stepping down as president :)
2) setting up and forming of cheerleading committee
3) 90fus chalet during recess week! :D
4) driving practical test!
5) lots and lots of reports due! :(

i hope i'm making right decisions and choosing the correct path...

2009-07-29T00:53:00.002+08:00

DRIVING IS SO FUN!!!

but it is very scary too.
haha.
cuz driving a manual car is super troublesome!
so many things to do and look out for!
每次我都手忙脚乱。

on average i'll stall 4-5 times each lesson.
but i stalled engine like 10 times today!
and i was stuck at a traffic light for 5mins, watching the traffic light changed colour for 3 times!
cuz my car was on a slope and i could not get it moving up.
LOL.
it's not like i never learn before, just dunno what happened to me :x

started to go to circuit.
at a very u-lu place there's this private circuit for learners.
but that place is super small, cannot accomodate a lot of cars.
so each turn must be very careful if not will bang into another car.
the road are not very smooth also.
must drive at very slow speed.
but i thought it was quite cool and fun!
i kept laughing when i almost bump into things.
LOL.
my instructor must be thinking that i'm mad.
wahaha.

oh ya, i'm like super scared when comes to driving.
it's like so hard to control the big machine.
whatever that my instructor ask me to do,
i always keep asking him, "really ah?"
but he's always so nice, or rather so reaction-less.
he never gets angry or too shocked.
i guess he's immune to all the learners' funny actions.

i've took my Traffic Police Test date already.
on the 8th of October.
about 2 months away only, so must chiong for lessons already.
when school starts, must squeeze in 2-3 driving lessons each week.
hohoho.
i think i'll become superwoman then.
but i'll HANG ON!

getting a driving liscence is my 1st short term goal now.
pray that i can pass on 1st test. at most 2 by end of the year.
if not my PDL going to expire!

朝目标前进！

2009-07-29T00:27:00.001+08:00

some pictures to brighten things up!

taken during the NAEF job in early this month, inside Shangri La Hotel's toilet!
i had a hard time thinking what to wear those 5 days.
cuz i dont have much office (formal) attire.
wonder if i should invest on them...

MISS SUNSHINE!

given to me by my dearest best friend some time ago.
she never fails to cheer me up with little stuffs.
using the right ways at the right time.

it's really time to look forward, be positive and be happy!

2009-07-15T21:56:00.003+08:00

my mood is better today!
cuz today is my last day of 'freedom', last day to slack and do whatever i want, so i must feel good then can enjoy what i'm doing!
but next 4 days will be working.
although still gotta do a lot of house chores today like hand washing some of my clothes and iron mine and my mum's clothes, i'm still quite happy.
how i wish i can have such positive thinking everyday!

a good news to share,
and a VERY BIG SPECIAL THANKS to my dearest monkey.
last friday was my subject registration day but i was working,
so nice monkey helped me to register again and she had to click on 2 computers at the same time.
as NTU system is faster fingers 1st, she was putting herself at risk too.
so i really owe her a lot!
but her fingers and her reaction are really FAST cuz she managed to snatch all the modules that both of us wanted!
HOORAY!
:D

下个学期我将修的课程：
HC303 东南亚华人
HC314 中台港电影的文化研究
HC413 中国文学与性别研究
HC440 台湾海峡两岸关系
HC252 语言与社会

all of then are 4 AUs each! so it's gonna be tough.
at least i already safeguard 20 AUs now.
left with 1 last elective, depending on allocation.
hopefully my luck is good enough to get my 1st choice of 《现代中文歌词导读》 by 梁文福!
if not 2nd choice of Japanese level 1 would be good too.
worse come to worse is to test my fingers and my patience during the 2 weeks of add-drop period when school starts.

set some goals for myself for the next semester.
did some calculation, if i manage to get a minimum of grade B for all my modules, i'll obtain a GPA of 3.5. if i manage to get a minimum of grade B+ for all my modules, i'll obtain a GPA of 4.0.
but i'm not so greedy, my aim would be a GPA of 3.8!
so i must score a mixtures of grade Bs and B+s or even better.

何佩珊，加油！ :)

2009-07-14T03:06:00.002+08:00

dont really feel like blogging these days...
rather watch shows online.
hmmm just no mood, no feel...

been super busy whole of last week.
worked under tricom events team for the Nomura Asia Equity Forum @ Shangri La Hotel.
got to wake up at like 5am everyday!
SOOO not used.
although during school term i also sleep about 5hours a day, but i'm a night owl, i sleep at 3am or 4am then wake at 9am.
not sleep at 12midnight and wake up at 5am!

and dunno if it's due to the bad economy, the job from last year's $8/hour, become this year's $80/day.
the working hours is about 10-12hours a day with lunch provided.
i only had 1 day of 10hours work, the rest were all more than that.
haiz.
but come to think of it, 5 days straight of work, i earned $400.
no matter what it's slightly better than paragon although it's really tiring.
just that i got to sacrifice my tuition and driving lessons.
so 1 week is enough!

shall go back to my NORMAL LIFE!
but seriously, what's my normal life?
what's even life?
do i have one?

*sigh*

sorry.
i'm typing nonsense.
my mind's not thinking.

2009-07-01T23:55:00.001+08:00

finally had my wart removal surgery done on Monday!
what a super long wait.

for those people who think that it doesnt sound/look serious
(cuz i'm still walking around like usual, just that with more limping as it grew bigger and hurts more),
this was how it look like just before i did the surgery:

the whole thing became yellow and it was bulging out.
no blood was flowing through that area already.
it's actually a big corn with warts growing inside.
warts are bacteria growing in your skin tissues.

ok now for the surgery.
i went to my school's clinic private branch at Raffles place area to do it.
they have a proper surgery room there.
i was freaking nervous i would say.
the nurse gave me a metal rod to grab (which i dunno why) and i just grabbed it super tightly.

yes i was given an anesthetic jab but this was the worst thing ever!
the doctor did say that it will be very pain and asked me to take a deep breathe and not let it out.
the nurse was pressing my leg down.
and... YES IT WAS FREAKING GOD DAMN IT PAIN!!!
when the jab went in, it was like your nerves/muscles were tearing/splitting apart! (as described by the nurse, thanks ah, for saying out all the desciptions when i can feel it exactly, it's not helping me feel better at all!)
i was like gasping for breathe and the doctor still scold me cuz he asked me to hold back my breathe, but how when it's so hell pain!
i wanted to faint during that few seconds.
haiz.

lucky after that i dont feel anything anymore.
i think the doctor burnt my skin and cut out the bacteria infested part.
the process was about 15mins.
much faster than i expected.
the nurse showed me those warts that were cut out, yellow yellow red red stuff...
*disgusting*
so my foot was being bandaged up.

had my 1st change of dressing today.
also saw my wound for the 1st time.
CAUTION: please DONT continue to read if you are eating now!
never expect my wound to be quite BIG and DEEP.
as shown below (already not that clear):

actually if look more closely, can even see the skin tissues and flesh...

*super disgesting*

i was really shock......

i really dunno how is it going to heal man.

somemore while i was on train returning home,

all the inconsiderate people didnt even bother about me.

nobody offer me a seat!

so i stood half the journey and end up had to snatch seats with others.

haiz.

when i walked home, i realised my wound was bleeding.

got to change dressing again, but it's still bleeding on&off now.

suck man.

please please RECOVER ASAP!

2009-06-18T22:35:00.002+08:00

今天又陪爸爸到医院去复诊了。
但这次不仅仅是复诊，还办了住院手续。
是第三次住院了吧...

没有特别特别的难过，因为心里已有了准备。
上个星期复诊时医生已经提出住院观察的建议，只是我们都不知如何决定...

爸爸的状况最近一个月来都不是很好。
怪怪的动作和声音又回来了，有时还说要杀人，谁惹到他就杀谁。
有时候他的上司要他做东西，他就说要杀了他的上司；有时候妹妹捉弄他到比较过分，他也说要杀了妹妹！
害得妈妈整天提心吊胆。
他的口头禅是“i'm veri miserable” 和“我要自杀”。
又不知道他只是说说而已还是什么，我们都快受不了了。

其实这一年多来，他的病都没真的好过吧，一直反反复复、反反复复。
我们一家人都被折腾得好累......

上个星期爸爸说他的上司给了他口头上的警告，说如果他再不把工作做好就不要他了。
我想他学校的人也已经失去耐心了吧。
自从爸爸有了病后就变得好懒好懒，整天只想睡觉，什么都不想做。
在家是这样，在学校也一定好不到哪里去
他简直是废人一个了。

我知道他已经不想做工了，总是问我几时毕业，想必是希望我可以养他和这个家。
哈。我才几岁。他才几岁。
坦白说，现在的他真的让我不忒不讨厌他。
为什么我的爸爸会变得那么没出息？
不，应该说他更本不是我的爸爸了！

有时候真得越想越气，其他的病患在服药后大多数都能像正常人一样，为什么他就是不行？
他一直把自己关在那个世界里，认为自己有病就很可怜。
很可怜那就快点告诉自己要好起来啊！
我们都劝他劝到口烂了他也听不进去。
我真的想放弃了...
反正这个爸爸有还是没有，也已经没什么分别了...

但今天看到他不想住院的样子，还真是有点心酸。
再一次把自己的爸爸送进精神病院，真的很不好受...
不过我们知道是为了他好，而他呢？只是觉得我们故意把他送去关起来。
但我们也要生活啊！妈妈得工作赚钱，我不是得读书就是得工作，妹妹今年还要考A levels，
我们真的没有全世界的时间来哄他、照顾他。
我们也需要过我们的生活......

这几天应该会很忙很忙吧，得帮忙处理爸爸工作上的事，得工作，得到医院看爸爸etc，希望hall不要在这个时候出什么麻烦。
我的头已经很大了......

2009-06-18T14:52:00.004+08:00

did my manicure at fiona's place last night!
eh this is another fiona, not my working colleague.
haha.
anyway this is a home based nail services shop.
recommended by jeanie last year.
i think i did my nails there for 3 or 4 times.
of cuz the prices are cheaper than outside and most important the quality is good!
i would say fiona is very pro!
hee.
venue is at her house which is at ang mo kio, very near my secondary school st. nicholas!
she has a partner called wendy to help out so you and your friend can do nails together.
log on to her blog to see more pictures and details!
services strictly by appointment only.
wahaha i'm like helping her to advertise.
but she's pretty busy with her main job recently.

MY PRETTY PRETTY NAILS!

chose a light colour this time round cuz feels like getting away from my usual dark colours (dark = dull, so my life and mood is dull?)
did 3D nail art for the 1st time!
the ribbons (i've 1 more on my left thumb!) are super cute and the details are very define!
i hope i can carefully maintain this manicure for longer period this time round!

although i spent more money also, but i feel HAPPY!
and at least i know my recent low mood/depressed level is not as bad as the previous time when i dont feel happy at all after doing my nails and even teared for spending the money and time.

i know i have to LOOK ON THE POSITIVE SIDE.

2009-06-16T22:45:00.003+08:00

bought a new pair of slippers last week.
cuz the sole of my new bling bling sandals is a bit hard for my stupid wart under my foot,
so it's quite pain when i walk.

my stupid wart is growing bigger day by day under the flesh.
it's can be freaking pain sometimes.
and guess what,
during my 4th treatment of freezing,
the nurse said that it's better for me to do the surgery cuz the wart is multiplying and she has to dig quite deep but she cannot stop the bleeding.
WTF!
during my 1st treatment you said do about 4-5times will recover,
make me bear the pain for 4 treatments then tell me need do surgery!
cheat my feelings!
ROARS!
lucky the surgery is a proper one.
will have anethestic and proper bandages.

but due to my work i can only put my surgery at end of the month cuz after that i cant move around much for like 1 week?
and since June work roster is already fixed, i dont wanna be bad and cause a lot of changes.
so put at end of June, at least can block out 1st week of July for recovery.
haiz.
but i dunno if it's a right thing to do cuz the pain is getting more and more unbearable.
:(

cant wait for 29th June to come.
though i'm quite scared of the surgery too but at least i know my foot will be better after that.
thanks to my wart i haven been doing sports for months!
never exercise at all, so unhealthy can!

I WANT MY FOOT TO QUICKLY RECOVER!

2009-06-11T23:44:00.003+08:00

shan IS HAPPY TODAY!
finally after weeks of low mood...
BECAUSE SHE PASSED HER FINAL THEORY TEST!!!

it's quite a miracle cuz i didnt really study much and i didnt take any trial test!
i only finish reading the whole textbook for the 1st time on Tuesday night and this morning then i managed to finish trying the 400 FTT questions book that monkey lent me.

almost wanted to give up hope already cuz last night kept hearing very negative comments from friends, like: FTT is not very easy to pass (zairong failed his 1st test!), trial test is very important (monkey failed her 1st trial so went to buy 400questions book) etc.
and i was so tired from my revision and trying the questions until i got headache.
i could not wake up early this morning to continue, even after i woke up, i slept on the sofa while revising.
super no mood to take the test, dont even bother to prepare myself early so end up was a bit rush if i taking public transport so in the end i chose to cab down to SSDC.
LOL. so horrible right.

when i was doing the test, i knew i've some questions which i totally no confidence.
i counted during checking and it was a total of 5 questions! just nice to pass. but that also means that the other questions that i'm very confidence of or at least a bit confidence of must be all correct.
was super nervous when i click the 'SUBMIT' button.
so delighted when i saw the 'PASSED'. and i stared at it for a few more seconds to ensure that my eyes did not see wrongly.
:DDD

my results slips:

queued for 1.5hrs to apply for my PDL!

i decided to learn under private instructor so gotta passed all theory tests before i can start learning driving.
1st official driving lesson starts next Thursday!
weeeee~~ so looking forward! :)

2009-06-05T22:59:00.003+08:00

最近的心情真的很不好...
却总是得假装开心、扮演坚强...
我真的累了，快受不了了...
好多事情要烦，自己爱胡思乱想的毛病也又犯了...

前天晚上看了一个committee member发的email后，被气得一触即发，
眼泪终于掉了下来......
或许那晚生气多过难过，小哭了一场后，发了一则骂回那个人的email后，就不感觉怎么样。

到了昨晚，才发生了真正的“火山爆发”。
那个人当然回复email来骂我，虽然我已经早有准备，但难免会把它放在心上，就一直想啊想啊......
临睡之前完全睡不着，想着想着，竟然崩溃了......
一直不停的哭、不停的哭，停下来喘口气后又继续哭。
不敢吵醒妹妹也不敢告诉任何人，就只是想把心里的难过一次过发泄出来，好让自己不再那么难受...

上了大学以后我似乎没有开心过，也似乎没有什么好事发生在我身上过。
一直以来我都只是在装开心。
但我又能怨谁？
除了爸爸的病是我不能控制的以外，其他的事不都是我自己的决定吗？

但爸爸的病，始终是问题一直无法解决的原因。
真的不明白，为什么他的病就是一直无法好转？
不是都有看医生有吃药吗？
为什么老天爷就不能对我们好一点？
为什么一定要我们一家人承受那么大的压力？

我知道妈妈承受的压力最大，我却帮不了什么忙。
自己又有别的责任在身，更让我烦上加烦。
大学暑假已经放了一个月，我却根本没有休息到，JCRC 的东西永远都做不完，现在还要受属下的气。
不过这个属下说的或许有道理，我真的不是一个好president，或许我根本就不配做...

当初可能作了错误的决定，但已经没有回头路，我只想完成我的职责。
但原来这点小心愿只会让自己更委屈......

我真的真的真的真的真的很努力学着坚强，但事实并不允许我如此......
我也不过是个脆弱的女人......

2009-06-04T02:37:00.009+08:00

应该开心的...
cuz i have been shopping for the past 2 days.
但就是因为心情不好，所以选择retail therapy.

买了很多东西，花了很多钱，
但开心也是一刹那，烦人的问题依然存在......

购物战利品！！！

bought 2 bags. both quite vintage looking.
hee vintage style is IN now!
the brown one is from miss selfridge and black one is from far east, $23 only!

3 elastic belts for $10 from far east.

2 basic sleeveless tangs tops for $27 and a IPzone high waist demin shorts for only $13.90!

a new pair of sandals to replace the old one which is gonna spoil soon.

this is from Anna Nucci.

love the gorgeous BLINGS! :)

more SHOPPING LISTS:
-- good mascara
-- black/grey eye shadow
-- nice & suitable shades
-- short/normal size wallet
-- golden flip flops
-- big jewellery box

that's all i can think of now.
WAHAHA.
money shall fall from the sky.
an order from shan.
:p

2009-06-02T01:55:00.004+08:00

5月22日

上个学期的成绩揭晓了。
4个学期以来，GPA从3.78掉到3.47掉到3.36，
幸好这次终于如我所愿，升到3.50，不然真的要撞墙死掉！

还以为成绩有了进步，会对面试有帮助，但是......

5月26日

一大早就到报馆面试，是SPH Lim Kim San Memorial Scholarship Award 的遴选。
这个奖学金是给修读语文科目的贫穷大学生。
以前我从来不会去看什么奖学金、助学金之类的申请，但自从老爸得了病后，才发现钱真的很重要......

很高兴有机会参加面试，但也很紧张。
听说一年他们只选4、5个奖学金得主，更觉得我没希望。
而且一到那里就看到跟我同一届的同系同学 qi wei，她曾经是妈妈的学生，我们也是补习班的同学，小学时我们俩的成绩几乎不相上下，但我往往最后都差她一分。
这次看到她也来面试，我的第一个反应是：完蛋了！

我的面试表现也不是很好，太紧张了吧，觉得自己没有好好的发挥。
那天我穿着我的“幸运”套装去面试，那是我两年前到NIE面试读老师课程和到NTU面试中文系时所穿的衣服，结果两个都录取我了。所以是我的lucky interview clothes。
但这次还会那么幸运吗？
只能听天由命了。

5月30日

终于去看了《Angels&Demons》，幸好最后没有又在放jun hao鸽子。
刚好jun hao认识edmund（我的小学同学），所以约好一起看电影。
edmund还带了一个缅甸朋友，起初我以为她是华人还跟她讲华语呢！

可能是对电影有太大的期望，看了后并没有十分“WOW” 的感觉。
反而觉得《Da Vinci code》比较好看。
但还是觉得Dan Brown好厉害！
竟然知道那么多关于宗教的历史，还能写成推理小说，了不起！

next movie (already asked sis to watch together): transformers 2!!!

2009-06-02T01:04:00.004+08:00

a gift from freddy a couple of weeks ago.

he dropped by my work place to pass them to me.

he bought them from Taiwan when he was on a NS training trip.

a box of Japanese Mochi (amazed that it is produced in Taiwan!) and 2 chinese novels.

this is the 1st time i receive gifts from a guy friend who just returned from overseas NS training.

so thoughful!

THANKS! :D

2009-06-02T00:41:00.002+08:00

haven been updating so frequently due to all the hectic WORK.
WORK meaning the literal job at paragon and all my president's duties stuff.
been busy with Hall Recommedation Lists the past 2 weeks.
still thought can rest already since everything is submitted but just release still have a lot of loose end to tie.
haiz.

just ended my 6th consecutive day of work.
haven work so much in a row for very very long so a bit cant take it.
well i've all my tuesdays and thursdays and sundays off from now on!
should really plan a break for myself and spend time with my family especially my dad.
his condition is not very well again...

I REALLY NEED A GOOD BREAK.

2009-05-22T00:46:00.001+08:00

成绩终于不再破新低了！

我应该满足了......

2009-05-20T01:10:00.002+08:00

忙！忙！忙！

这两个星期都会很忙！

可是为什么老天总是要在我最忙的时候加重我的负担！
又让家里出事！
又要耍我！

2009-05-14T02:35:00.006+08:00

dunno why i've been really suay for the past few weeks.

1st it was the wart growing under my left feet.
a wart is something like a corn but it has bacteria growing inside.
i didnt know until i seen the doctor.

i guess it has been there for quite some time, at least the recent 2 months.
it started off with a thick layer of dead skin about half a year ago,
then naughty me and my itchy hands kept plucking and cutting it once it re-grow, i guess it was then the bacteria enter my exposed skin and start growing inside.
damn.

and it hurts a lot in the recent month even when doing normal walking thus i decided to see the doctor then found out that it was a wart and i've to undergo liquid nitrogen treatment.
so i had my 1st treatment after i came back from malaysia.
the treatment is really WOW!

1) the nurse cleaned my wart area
2) took out a blade (like a small pen knife)
3) and start scraping off my skin/flesh/wart without giving me any anesthetic!
4) the area will bleed but she will still have to continue scraping and then she will spray the liquid nitrogen at the wound to freeze the growth

doesnt sound professional?
but it is suppose to be done this way.
*OUCH!!!!!*

the nurse still say i can really tolerate and some guys are worst than me.
but what can i do? want to shout also cannot, want to cry also cannot.
too pain until i kick the nurse? then my feet will also be gone cuz she has a blade in her hands. lol.
the only glad thing is i did the treatment in school's medical clinic, 1 treatment is only $16.05.
jeanie told me she did it at a private clinic for $100!

the sad thing is it wont heal after just 1 treatment! have to do a few times, once per week.
so i did the 2nd one yesterday morning.
it was f***ing pain man!
so much worst than the 1st one.
cuz the nurse scrape deeper.
she let me take a look at it before she seal the wound.
I SAW A BIG HOLE!
*faints*
and it bleeded a lot.

picture of my wrapped up feet with cotton!

the cotton is already very think but still can see the small red patch, it's the blood that sipped through! :(
i'm having diffculties to walk now.
at least for the next few days too.
and the next treatment is next wednesday :"(

2nd i broke my right thumb nail while bowling last thursday!
i was holding the ball, preparing to bowl then the ball slipped off my hand before i fully released.
then i realised my nail cracked and broke.
but i heard from behind my friends were shouting "OMG peishan you strike!"
i wasnt happy at all cuz this strike 是付了很大的代价得来的！
it broke at the part where it could almost bleed la :(((

poor nail:

the most angry thing is 1 of my toes nail broke a few days ago too!
dunno what's wrong with my nails, they either chip off or break, so ugly!
want do manicure or pedicure also cannot.
ROARS.

3rd i fell down on saturday morning while walking to my tuition kid's house.
and is that kind of fall that 四肢着地！
i tripped over a metal drain cover and 'flew' in front.
on my tian, when i landed on the floor i almost wanted to cry.
the impact was so strong that i could not pull myself up immediately.
i dunno i should be glad that there was no one around to see or i should be sad that there was no one around to help me up.
i actually lied on the ground for a while before i could get up myself.
how ma-lu! *hides*

i used my palms to support my fall to prevent my face from 'kissing' the floor so my hands had some abrasions.
lucky i was wearing jeans if not my legs will definitely bleed.
though they were 'protected' by my jeans,
but look at those blue-blacks after a few days!

how wonderful right...
*shakes head*

i dont wanna be so suay anymore!
please get all my unluckiness away!
i cant be so suay anymore!

i need to be LUCKY!
i'm sitting for my Basic Theory Test later in the afternoon and
25th i'm going for a scholarship interview!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I NEED MY LUCK BACK!

2009-05-12T00:56:00.007+08:00

7th May 2009, Thursday

met up with monkey earlier to shop for her mothers' day present.
follow up was 9ofus gathering!
it was a farewell for ming na cuz she will be going to US for work&travel for 3 months.
but 9ofus missed out yiting and angel that night as they had to give tuition.
we ate japanese food for dinner, at suntec's ichiban boshi.

next's up was bowling at marina square!
haha i can say all of us are definitely not frequent bowlers, cuz our bowling skills suck!
i guess that day wasn't my bowling day too cuz i broke my thumb nail and i never had such lousy score for so long! :(

looking at others' bowl:

me bowling!

7/9ofus! :)

Have fun at US na jie!

2009-05-11T23:56:00.002+08:00

had been super BUSY the past few days!
my schedule is very packed for this month.
still gonna be BUSY at least till the week ends!

7th May: 90fus gathering
8th May: work AM shift and watch 《狂女日记》舞台剧 at night
9th May: give tuition in the morning then work till 11pm
10th May: had lunch and watch 《天冷就回来》音乐剧 with ying sheng
11th May (today): sakura international buffet lunch with family then give tuition

and much more to come!!!

12th May: give tuition in the afternoon and celebrate piggy sis's birthday at night
13th May: wart treatment in school in the morning and work in the evening
14th May: BTT in the afternoon and give tuition at night
15th May: SGH check up in the afternoon and top5 meeting at night
16th, 17th & 18th May: work in the evenings

so my 1st rest/slack day should be 19th May BUT...
that day is hall application results release date.
which means i'll be busy settling recommendation lists stuff and people will start looking for me!
shan shall run and hide at some place!
:(

but i should be glad that i'm busy,
this means i still have things to do,
better than rotting away i guess.
bleh.

I NEED MORE GOALS IN LIFE!
rather than just doing what i'm SUPPOSED TO DO.

2009-05-07T00:40:00.006+08:00

back from hall 5 1st SPEDIX expedition!
went to Malaysia's Cameron highland and Gopeng town.

set off on 1st May night and reached back on 4th night.

but in fact we only played for 2 days.

2nd May was at Cameron highland:

visited tea plantation, honey bee farm, strawberry farm, cactus valley and a chinese temple in the morning.

afternoon was free and easy, had steamboat dinner in the evening and night market shopping after that.

was a bit sad, i wanted to visit butterfly farm but my butterfly became bee; i wanted to visit rose farm but my roses became cactus :(

a funny thing that happened outside the chinese temple:

there were roadside stalls selling things and one uncle selling souvenirs, small gifts etc was trying to promote to me.

he: 来小姐过来看看，送一个给你男朋友他一定感动到流泪！

me: (laughs) huh uncle, 我没有男朋友，你先找一个给我再说咯。

he: 那就买一个来骗表哥咯，表哥很容易骗的。

me: (哑口无言)......

by then everybody was already laughing like mad.

teasing me that “原来佩珊沦落到要去骗表哥，LOL!”

wow thanks ah uncle, 我有那么惨吗？！

3rd May morning travelled to Gopeng town:

went to my Gopeng resort which is where we staying and had all our activities for the day.

eh that place reminds me of OBS campsite! everything everywhere is just next to nature!

so of course the living condition isnt that fantastic, we are like paying money to torture ourselves.

haha 我好娇生惯养。

but the activities was really damn FUN and EXCITING!

we sat lorry in and out between the town area and the resort and the ride was EXCITING and slightly dangerous.

we did white water rafting in the afternoon and a waterfall trekking experience!

had BBQ at night.

white water rafting was super duper FUN yet very DANGEROUS!

it was everybody's 1st tme doing white water rafting.

as i cant swim and have water phobia, i was pretty nervous.

when i knew that we have to sit on top of the raft boat and not inside the boat, 我心里想：我死定了！

true enough, the boat i was in (with shang yi, nevin, yun sheng & cheng kun) was the most 'suay' one cuz we experienced so much more than others, but our 'suayness' also made our money more worth i guess. lol.

1st it was yun sheng who fell off the boat (cuz he was 1 of the 2 sitting in front) during the 1st rapid.

then during the 2nd rapid which has 2 in a row, all 5 of us fell off the boat (except for the guide, i wonder how he manage to balance)!

it was damn SCARY!!!

i couldnt even breathe and was sinking even though we had our life jacket on.

cuz 怕死的我 managed to grab on to the boat side rope and held it very tighly (which we were told not to cuz it could made the boat capsize but i couldnt care much at that point of time) so i was the 1st to be saved up.

thanks to that fall, i had a huge bump on my left elbow cuz i hit the rocks when i fell into the water i guess.

at the last rapid, our boat got stucked by rocks and we could not turn to the correct direction to move down the rapid so our guide guided us to use another route which nobody use.

and then, we were stucked right in the middle, halfway through the rapid cuz there was a BIG ROCK below when we moved down.

fast moving water kept rushing into our boat and soon it was fully submerged.

all of us looked at each other with a blank face.

our guide still have the guts to laugh. thanks for guiding us to that route man.

guess what, end up we had to climb out of the boat and slided down to stand beside the big rock IN THE MIDDLE OF THE RAPID!

quite a number of other guides came over to help us.

and we were pulled ACROSS THE RAPID with ropes.

i almost didnt want to do it but i know that was the only way out.

原来我一碰到水，就变成胆小鬼　:p

the waterfall experience was pretty cool, cuz it is slightly dangerous than those i had been to before.

this one we had to climb to the top using ropes.

of cuz the cooling splashing water was worth the scary wet climb.

but i had injuries again!

blur me couldnt see the rocks under the water and 踩空，stepped into a hole in between 2 rocks and now my right ankle is swelling slightly.

i'm really injuries prone, should be glad that i'm back in 1 piece!

4th May whole day was spent on train tarvelling back from Ipoh:

played cards, slept, watched show on itouch, ate tibits, the most fun thing was chatting and gossiping with fellow fivers.

it's really not easy for me have to such chats with them.

but spending 11hours on the train ride is really quite a waste of time :x

nevertheless, it was a good trip.

at least it is a good step towards a new hall activity which is bought in during my term of office.

may the fivers spirit continues!

picture at Cameron: tea planation

picture at Gopeng town: My Gopeng resort

SPOT ME! :)

2009-04-17T00:27:00.004+08:00

it's the EXAMS period again!!!

and i'm finally here to blog!
wah, seems like i only have the time to blog during exams?
how irony.
but i guess it's true.
exams period is the only time i'm more free.
with no committee commitments, meetings, proposals, emails etc to do;
have an excuse not to work (but still have to give tuition).

so i can stuck myself in my little room to STUDY!
and even have the time to watch shows online and play facebook!
sounds wonderful right.
but the feeling of last minute chiong-ing all my revision isn't good at all...

oh well i'm halfway through my battle,
3 more papers to go and
11 more days to freedom and end of misery!

ALL THE BEST to all who are having/gonna have exams!
:)

2008-10-02T02:54:00.004+08:00

i guess university life just doesnt allow me to blog.
ya.
and i'm pretty lazy about it.

it may seem to others that my life is only about school, hall, work, home.
it's true thou.
shan is becoming a no-life person after entering university.
perhaps i'm still sourcing my 'life'.

something which i'm busy with at the moment and the year ahead.

may this year term be good.

i dont wanna regret.

21st JCRC.

Strive in Unity for Excellence.

2008-07-22T03:38:00.003+08:00

ahhhhh......
cant believe i'm still online at this time.
it's sooooo early in the morning.
still trying to settle some DoC orientation thingy,
typing email to the freshies >.<

oh well i'm a GL for DoC orientation.
seems like i'm not doing anything much for JCRC now but more for DoC.
dunno why feel kind of drifted away from hall people......

gotta plan my schedule for august too, wendy is asking for it.
aha i dont even know if i still have time to go back to paragon to work.
though i quite keen on earning more money, it's the time problem.
heh.
but i cant even confirm my timetable!
this coming semester is really screwed.
most probably i wont be able to get all the subjects i want.
have to anyhow take one in the end.
can only pray hard......

school is reopening, a lot of activities is starting.
lucky this whole week only left with 1 day of work on saturday.
but wednesday i've JCRC duty then give tuition, thursday accompany dad for counselling then meet prudential guy and most prob movie at night with friend, friday have to go for sis's meet-the-parents session and give tuition again.

so actually this week only monday and tuesday is more free,
but i slept my whole yesterday away and today evening gotta give tution.
sianz ahhh...
next week onwards is like school starts already, with all the camps and stuff.
quite of dread it.
after such a long break, dont feel like studying :(
bleh.

so i should go get my piggy's sleep now......

2008-07-07T01:53:00.005+08:00

i'm FINALLY here to put some pictures!

my blog seem to be quite dull huh. so old blogskin, so little updates, no pictures/photos.
heh.
i just cant find nice blogskin and i dunno html for nuts (except those really basic ones) so i cant come up with my own blogskin.
any kind soul want to help me design?
i dont mind paying my friends who can help me la!
as long as it doesnt cost a bomb. haha.

as for updates and pictures,
i guess i'm just lazy.
OOPS. hee.
but sometimes i'm really shagged until no energy to turn on my lappy.
as i've updated my this month's schedule, it's REALLY PACKED.
and those still haven include my paragon's shifts and tuitions.
aha, i better survive through.

so i shall not be lazy and post some pictures now.
not of me of course.
bleh :p

today's issue:
few WISHLIST CLEARED!
:D

been wanting to talk about my NEW HANDPHONE!
ok it's not new at all now though, already 1 month plus to 2 months soon.
nokia N82 in BLACK!

it's not easy to get the black one cuz it's the latest colour and popular in demand.
chose this model mainly cuz of it's camera function: 5 megapixel with real xenon flash and carl zeiss optics. (cuz i've no spare money to get a new camera)
plus this phone has wifi and GPS maps!
i thought it's pretty cool.
well i love my handphone so far and will continue loving it.
must use for at least 2 years! (it's not a cheap phone >.<)

next up is ADIDAS JACKET!!!
i've been eye-ing for it for a couple of weeks since afer exams but 一直不舍得买。
last year i saw one similar one but cuz i kept dragging my decision to buy or not, it went out of stock.
this time round i was more lucky cuz some kind soul decided to buy it for me in may.
my size was almost out of stock.
i LOVE it so much can!
it's khaki green with gold strips.

look at the back!
it's my 最爱 la.
the gold logo is FREAKING NICE!
weeeee~~~
:DDD

lastly is something which i just got yesterday.
a retractable optical mouse.
i was so irritated with my old mouse with long messy wire.
then i saw this travel PAC crystal optical mouse which i think looks damn chio la!
it only comes in pink and red but the red isnt nice so i got the pink one.
although pink is never my colour but i guess it's fine to act sweet once in a while?
haha.

and it has swarovski clear crystal on it!
so pretty isnt it?
:)
dunno why i'm into jewels and blink blink stuff recently.
next time shall post a picture of my keyboard now.
it's filled with jewels and blink blink stuff all over the alphabets!
so my new optical mouse is to match my keyboard.
i'm becoming so vain-ish.
oopsy.

so happy to be able to get these wishes fulfilled.
:)))
well have to save more money to get other physical items on my wishlist.
still a long way......

2008-06-30T15:41:00.002+08:00

I'M SICK FOR THE 3RD TIME THIS MONTH!
ARRGH!
DAMN IT!
seriously hate it man.
why am i just so suay!

i'm half deaf now.
my left ear cannot hear.
this is not a joke at all.
i woke up with a super pain left ear yesterday morning.
it's really terribly PAIN i swear.
and my ear is blocked, cant hear things clearly.
actually this happened since my BIG flu 2 weeks ago.
my ear just feel kind of blocked.
but it was never so painful!

i kept whining and complaining then piggy kept scolding me.
i know she's irritated, i know screaming wont cure my pain but i just cant help it!
痛到我忍不住哭了几次。
sunday afternoon there's no clinic open at my neighbourhood so i went down to yishun 8am-11pm clinic again.
damn long queue.
doctor said it is internal ear infection due to my previous flu.
the phlem outflow from my nose air way to my ear canal, got stuck there and infected my ear.
DOTS >.<

i knew it was really a BAD FLU cuz it took almost 2 weeks to recover.
i even have to go phamacy to buy clarinase cuz my nose refuse to stop running.
my nose was often stuck with toilet paper during work.
it was hell week for me cuz i was either working or giving tuition everyday even though i was sick.
maybe i didnt get enough rest so the illness couldnt recover fast.
just when i thought i'm finally getting well, then this stupid infection came.
it's really 一波未平，一波又起。
haiz.

这几个礼拜一直这样忙下来，
我真的有种快要崩溃的感觉。
好像发钱荒似的，一直让自己不停的工作，也不知道究竟为了什么...
只知道自己好累，好累...
但这一切都是自己自找的，不是吗？
没人叫我一定要每天工作；
没人叫我放了工还出去；
没人叫我生病了还不好好休息...

我一直让自己很忙很忙，好像是想麻醉自己，想逃避一些什么...
有时候真的不想呆在家里，不想看到爸爸，不想面对妈妈...
我已经不知道该做什么、该说什么。
爸爸的病一点起色都没有，而且好像越来越懒，什么都不肯做。
妈妈一直complain她很辛苦，说要不是为了我们两个小的，她早就放弃，不支撑下去了。
我听了真的很心痛...
but i cant do anything to help...
每个人都撑得很辛苦，但再苦还是得熬过去，
只是不知道到底得熬多久；我们熬得过吗？

coming july will really be a hell month for me.
it's a super packed month.
with lots of things on.
1 week hotel job, senior camp II, hall FOC, plus my usual paragon job and tuition.
hope i dont break into pieces by the end of the month.

oh ya i need to apologise to jeanie dear.
sorry for not being able to meet up on that friday.
was really feeling unwell.
dunno when can we meet up again but please do take care.
we still have lots to catch up.
miss you!

2008-06-18T00:18:00.002+08:00

ARRGH i'm sick again!
:(
2nd time this month.
1st time was 2 saturdays ago and that time was some allergic reaction when my eyes area swell up like dunno what plus very bad sensitive nose.
got to go a clinic which opens until 11pm and got a jab cuz it was a saturday night.
this time round is super bad sore throat with terrible running nose.
waste so much money just on seeing doctor this month!
why am i still so vunerable to illness!!!

was still anticipating to this week cuz i've a lot of dates but stupidly must fall sick at this time.
already got to cancel KBox session cuz obviously i cant sing with this 'wonderful' voice of mine.
hopefully my body still can make it for the rest of the events.
looking forward to meet old friends!
:)

this month is a packed month.
but i rather it be this way than school reopens have to start studying again.
the more i study the more i lose confidence.
last semester's result is worse than 1st semester's one.
although i tried to console myself that maybe it's dued to so many unpleasant things happening around, i knew it's partly my fault too...
next semester's modules suck!
and all the modules that i'm interested in, either classes timing or exams dates clash!
so pissed off!
planning next semester's schedule is a headache!
plus i still have some JCRC sports stuff to settle.
another headache...
but i haven't been helping much with hall stuff this semester after my family got into this crisis.
feels quite bad...

well i know life still have to go on so i shall fully utilise my time and make it more meaningful.
as for now, i should go sleep, rest and hope that i can get well real soon!

2008-06-15T23:31:00.002+08:00

it's FATHERS' DAY today.

几天前我就征求妈妈的同意，今天一家人到泰国小食吃晚餐，想说我和妹妹请大家吃一顿。
但可惜这一顿父亲节晚餐似乎没有预料中吃得开心。
因为爸爸吃得不开心。
说这个没味道，那个不好吃...
其实我点的料都是我们平常点的，
只是得了病后的爸爸变得很fussy，很难侍候。
像他以前最喜欢吃的油浸鱼，他一定会把每一块鱼肉吃光，真的只剩下骨头。
但今天他却不敢吃，没什么吃到。
不知道是看到人多所以他紧张还是什么，脚一直在抖、在摇。
有时候在家他也会这样，这已经变成了他的一种坏习惯。

其他人应该没有注意到，吃饭时我掉了几滴眼泪。
因为想到这几个月来家里发生的事，忍不住...
我很清楚的知道，我已经失去了以前的那个爸爸，他不会再回来了...

或许真的是天意弄人吧！
今年二月爸爸被我们送进IMH，诊断后证实患上精神分裂症，从此我们一家的生活起了大改变...
原本以为事情有好转，但上个月他又二度进了医院。
我们再也不敢抱有任何希望了，更不用说什么乐观的想法。
每个人都叫我们要坚强，要往好的一面想，但事实已证明这是没有用的。
精神病不是一天两天就会好的，可能一辈子都不会好...

爸爸现在就像废人一个，做什么事都没有胆，
这个也怕，那个也怕。
这个不肯做，那个不敢做。
一点点就说很stressed.
也不知道他是真的怕还是懒惰，有时候真拿他没有办法。
他现在就像个难侍候的小孩子，常常还需要我们去哄。

这段日子下来，我才发现原来妈妈才是最坚强的那个。
她变了，从以前的那个不为他人着想的母老虎变成了会体谅人的好妻子。
虽然起初都有哭过，但这一路走来，她承受的最多，却也handle得最好。
不像我，受不了就崩溃、就哭。
有时候真觉得自己好没用...
最想不到的是，在爸爸开始病发时，我竟然主动去找学校的counsellor，接受了两个月的辅导。
那时候真的不知所措，大家都不知道该怎么做。
我又不想让妈妈知道我心里好难受，因为我知道她自己也不好受，所以我不可以给她更多负担。
妹妹又不够成熟，不能完全理解家里的改变而开始变得叛逆...

事情不发生都已经发生了，我也开始认命了。
开始对自己的人生麻木了。
maybe it's better to be numb than to feel the pain.
我知道我的人生已不能回到过去，只希望这个家不会散...

我真的好想念以前那个会和我们玩在一起、打闹在一起的爸爸；
那个最疼爱我、最关心我的爸爸...
爸爸，你会回来吗？
不管多久，我都会等你回来...

爸，父亲节快乐...

2008-06-09T19:31:00.003+08:00

i'm finally here to blog again...
while i'm working!

yes, working!
i'm back working at paragon since 24th last month.
well it's really good to be back.
i really love this job, this place, and of cuz the people here.
:)

so much things have happened, as usual.
just as i thought, or rather my family thought that things are getting better,
the cruel reality just have to crush on us.

at the beginning of may i was desperately looking for job.
looked through classified, went to a few job agencies,
but i just cant get any suitable jobs!
super irritated and pissed for being jobless cuz i wanted to earn my own income during the holisdays!
end up i decided to be thick skin and asked wendy if she needs more manpower for this GSS period.
she said she'll get back to me so i waited...
2 weeks, and no news from any company.

then 'suay' enough, dad was hospitalised again.
back in IMH for the 2nd time.
i guess my family is sort of getting numb,
with my dad's illness and all the concerning stuff.
shall talk about this some other time.

went to work as a PC promoter during the week dad was in hospital.
junjie introduced me and i dragged sharon along for that job.
it's a super sucky job!!!!
say PC promoter cum helper,
i think it's more of like 'sai-gang' event helper!
everything also must do, from preparation to set up to promoting.
thank goodness i quit if not i'll be doing delivery and telemarketing.
with just $6/hr and most of us only slept 4-5hrs a day,
this job is a torture.
if i wasnt desperate i really wont take up this offer,
cuz i hate promoting!
i'm just not cut for it.
although it's just selling PCs in primary & secondary schools,
i had a tough time.
i guess everybody else felt the same cuz the products are simply unsellable.
the PCs are lousy and expensive!
but i still have to go around bluffing all the aunties to buy for their children.
felt so sinful!

so right after all the roadshows i QUIT.
worse thing is until now, after 2 weeks plus,
none of us got our pay yet!!!
my 6 days for a pathetic $300+ still hanging somewhere,
dont even know if can get it back.
because the company is a home-based company -.-"
actaully i knew it on the 2nd day of work.
but i guess out of responsibility most of us chose to stay and continue working.
things just dont turn out good.
seems like the boss is really trying to drag or dont give us our pay.
he's a very unorganise person and his marketing skills really suck.
cant blame us that his sale is bad.
his products are the lousy ones.
even if his project fails, he should pay his employees!
ARRGH!
made all of us so pissed.
some of us already decided to file a report to MOM against him if he still refuse to pay us by this week.
once i got my pay, i'll announce to the whole world his HOME-BASED company name and make sure youngsters wont work and suffer under him.
his naggy and fussy mother and auntie can help him since they like to talk and complain about us so much.
i just want my hard earned money now!

ok, enough of ranting.
i'm glad that right after that PC promoter job wendy asked me back for work.
so now i'm happily working back at paragon as my CSO.
i love to serve customers when is they approach us,
unlike promoter is i've to approach people which i dont like.
oh i'm shy you know.
LOL.

i'm still giving one group of tuition now.
so my days will either be working or giving tuition,
and some of the days have to be home to look after dad.
what a life i've.
but i've so much things to do and so many people that i wanna meet!
i need more time more time!

HAIZ.

2008-05-11T00:45:00.002+08:00

这个semester发生太多事情了，
2008年对我来说一点都不好。
这半年来过得好辛苦，好累...

过去的事我不想再提，
未来的事我不敢去想。

只希望老天爷不要在整我们一家人了。
我们就快受不了了！
自从爸爸得病后，我们一家人就没好日子过。
接二连三的事不断发生，it's a never ending cycle.
到底要折腾我们到什么时候？

为了这个家，我们一直在装坚强。
为了这个家，我们不敢、不能崩溃。

但是我们都是人，人是有极限的！
rubber band 被拉得太紧的时候，
即使它再怎么想stretch下去，
总有一天也是会断的......

今天是母亲节，但我知道妈妈一点也不开心。
应该说是根本开心不起来。
我这个做女儿的也无能为力。
只想说：我们一定会一起熬过去的！

给全天下的妈妈们：
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

2008-05-11T00:08:00.002+08:00

my 'update soon' become 2 weeks later.
i'm just so lazy...... and no mood......
looking at my past blog entries,
realise my blogging habit is very periodic.
i wonder how long this time will last.
*laughs*

has been searching for nice blog skin over the past 6 months but haven't found any :(
was thinking the current blog skin looks a bit childish,
especially those information i put.
ah whatever, cant be bothered already.

i haven't been blogging much since i enter university.
i guess to me blogging is only meant for 吃饱没事干的时候？
ha.
大学一年级已过去，我都没有什么好好的掌握好时间。
就这样，一年就过去了。
好快，快到好像什么都不记得......

2008-04-29T00:44:00.001+08:00

重新“营业”！

and i shall UPDATE really really SOON...

2007-12-01T20:47:00.000+08:00

shan is lazy and doesnt have the mood to type out everything.
so i shall let photos do the 'talking' instead.

SUNDAY, NOVEMBER 18, 2007

yi gen 表哥's wedding dinner.
not as fun as expected.
maybe cuz 我们四个表姐妹，
生病的生病，
有考试的担心考试，
心情不好的心情不好...

唯一的好就是可以穿得美美、打扮得美美和大吃一顿好的。
当然，还有感受这对新人的喜悦和幸福的气息。
祝福他们！

2007-11-24T12:27:00.000+08:00

4 DOWN,
1 MORE TO GO!
cant wait for next tuesday 1130hr to come!
counting down,
3 more days to FREEDOM!

i didnt finish all my written papers as usual,
forever write too slow.
only manage to finish TCM paper which is 100 MCQs.
well well well, i dont expect myself to do well this semester
but i pray hard that i wont "打包"!
this term is being used by university students meaning that they failed their core module.
you're not supposed to cuz that's your CORE so have to retake that module next semester or next year.
so stupid right!
and i dont want to retake anything!
it's a torture! >.<

shall update more with photos about outings and stuff some other time.
现在的我应该很努力的在读书，
但不知道为什么就是没有动力......
:(

2007-11-16T21:13:00.000+08:00

STRESSED!!!!!

4 more papers to go.
but 我不想读了！我不想读了！我不想读了！
反正读也读不完，读了也没用。
我有自知之明...
~~我没救了！~~

:(

2007-11-10T00:50:00.000+08:00

ah my blog is half dead.

and 2 weeks ago, i was considering to pronounce it OFFICIALLY DEAD.
as in close it down.
cuz i thought it's kind of dumb to blog out your life for people to see.
and i dont have the spare time to do so.
sorry no offence to anybody but at that point of time i was still thinking: 我吃饱没那么有空 to blog.
ha maybe i was too annoyed by the piled up school work.

but this week, i've the sudden urge to reactivate my blog.
i guess it's cause i keep looking at other people's blogs.
like those of my new friends from NTU and some other old friends' blogs.
i thought it's quite nice and interesting to read my new friends' blogs
and it's a good way to 'keep in touch' with my old friends from their blogs.
at least i wont be totally cut off from their lives.
hmmm......
it's been really long since i actually take the effort to read friends' blogs and tag their boards.
so sorry......

ah i wanna let my blog 复活!
but currently dont have the time.
exams start next week, 1st paper is next thursday and i havent start revision at all!
was busy rushing term reports these few weeks.
just finish last assignment at 4plus on friday morning.
that's why i'm slacking now.
cant be bothered to start studying now.
i guess my this semester is gone already...

alright i shall find my interest and passion back for blogging.
most importantly is find the TIME!
perhaps after exams?
but i'll be busy with IHG trainings and the actual games.
haha.
i really wonder when i'll be FREE.
let's see how things go.

wish me good luck for exams.

2007-09-24T01:44:00.000+08:00

AHHAHHAHH!

OH YAY I FINALLY GOT THE TIME TO UPDATE MY BLOG!
or rather i had been 'guai' enough cuz i know i was busy and should not spend time on blogging.
haha.

anyway, i was REALLY REALLY SUPER DUPER BUSY!
to the point that i thought i'm dying,
almost gone bonkers!
so please pardon me for not updating.

i just completed my translation essay (it's a major assignment cuz it's 20% of my total grade!) at 2330 when it's due by 2359 on 23rd.
and i only started typing it yesterday morning.
i think i'm so daring la.
dots.

was so stressed over this assignment cuz i totally have no idea how to start and i didnt have much time with all the things i've to do.
am really really thankful to this new good buddy of mine who helped me so much this whole week!
thank you my pet monkey sharon! :)

i must admit that this time my time management really suck.
didnt plan my time well and balance my school and hall life.
promise to improve on it!
starting from this recess week!
must buck up already!

hmmm i've lots to update but i guess i should summarise what i had been busy with:

1st was hall pageant right after hall camp.
was selected to represent my OG.
apparently a lot of pretty girls were not sporting enough to join so i was asked to fill up the number.
haha.

had a fun and tiring training process.
made a lot of new friends from there.
was very glad that it's over but i never regret it.
it was a 'one in a lifetime experience'.
:)

shall update the preview bash and actual pageant dinner&dance night photos soon!

next up was nomination, rally, forum and election for hall5 20th JCRC.
JCRC stands for Junior Common Room Committee.
make it easier to understand, it means hall main committe.
i dunno why they call hostel - hall, then call hall - junior common room.
so messy huh.

whatever the case, i was elected into the 20th JCRC as assistant sports secretary!
yay congrats to me!
haha.
but this also means that i gonna be super busy again.
especially during the semester break, my whole december holiday will be burnt out cuz there's inter-hall games then and i've to be around everyday.
my aim is to make hall5 improve on its sports ranking!
must work hard together with my sports secretary BK!
jiayou fivers!

being in JCRC isnt an easy task i guess.
i just hope it wont affect my studies.
no no no, should say I WONT LET IT affect my studies.
anyway i've sort of officially quit my job, last day should be this coming saturday.
told wendy not to roster me anymore UNLESS they really have nobody at all.
cuz i dont think i can cope with studies, JCRC and work at the same time though i do need the money.
guess i can only try to save up bit by bit now.
when i'm more free next semester, i want to take up tuition jobs!
let's hope this semester will pass smoothly for me ba.

that's all for now.
shall update more about school life, my course and my course mates next time!
oh ya, ought to update my blog template soon too, it's so outdated already! ha.

2007-08-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

my goodness,
i FINALLY got a little bit of time to blog!!!
i haven't been updating for sooooo long and i've so much to say!

did anybody miss me?
haha.
i do miss some people.

now that i've moved into hostel,
i'm like at the other ulu part of singapore,
grace said boon lay is a 鸟不生蛋 place,
lol.
i totally agree!
it's so inconvenient to travel to other places!
and there's no portatble shower hose in hall5 :(
i'm so not use to showering in the restricted area of that small cubicle.
it's like taking a shower after a swim in the swimming complex.
i dont feel clean at all.
heh.
so i'm still going home on weekends.
i still love my home's bed and toilet! :p
anyway my room is not really fully done yet,
though all basic things are in already,
xingling and i still wanna get more things to 'fill' it up.
our cosy little 'house'!

people that i really wanna thanks big time:
piggy ah fat!!!
she helped me with the cleaning up of my room,
went all the way to boon lay with me twice,
despite her nearing prelims.
thanks darling!
and my dear daddy!!!
though he didnt help with the cleaning cuz he was digusted by the dirt,
he helped to block out the portion of holes under our windows.
he's so efficient cuz he did the measuring, cutting of plastic boards and fixing them up all in one day.
daddy's pro! *thumbs up*
not to forget, he always fetch me here and there.
thank you thank you!
hmmm maybe i should thank his 2nd wife (car) too, haha.

summary of what happened (those that i still remember) the past 2weeks:
had titan's 1st gathering; KBox session cum swensens dinner cum chilling session.
still busy with work as usual.
then had hall camp.

i got separated from xingling cuz they dont put room mates together in same OG.
but i was in same OG with kevin again!
from titan to INUGAMI!
hall camp was so much more 'xiong' than HSS FOC, it's like really can die kind.
but of cuz some parts were more fun than the HSS one.
just very sad that inugami is quite a 'dead and cold' group compared to titan.
people there not very enthu, all very slow in 'heating up' their enthu-ness.
plus i didnt have a good start of the camp cuz thanks to my big mouth and straight forward thinking brain, i said something really really wrong and offended the camp committee people even before the camp starts.
haiz.
i always never think boefore i speak, bad habit *shakes head*
i seem to be condemned every camp i go.
titan people commented that i was too fierce, then offend hall camp committee...
i'm pro in getting myself blacklisted man.
boo.

but i guess everything is rather ok now.
time will heel things!
and i already use my enthu-ness to repay most of my faults.
so please forgive me!
I'M REALLY VERY SORRY!!! :(

school just started last week with only lectures.
i took up 2 more elective modules: Traditional Chinese Medicine and translation 1st module.
ah i took up TCM just to clear part of my science section but i kind of regret.
cuz now i'm studying everything in chinese!
cant believe it man.
all my notes are in chinese, i've to take down notes in chinese,
when i haven't touch chinese for like 7months!
plus chinese is my worst subject......
it's just the 1st few lectures and i already dont quite understand what the lecturer is talking about.
T__T
and guess what,
there are a lot of malaysians in chinese course!
like so... zzZzZZz...
not that i dont like them, but...
just feel weird la.
they're very smart and clever, but they dont give you a chance to speak up when you actually know the answer much better than them (which means they try to act smart at times).
oh well...

eh i think my entry is getting a bit long.
but i really have a lot to say!!!
haiz.
and i'm suffering in hall without a laptop yet.
always have to go kevin's room to use his mac book pro.
so not user friendly cuz it's not windows :x
I WANT MY OWN LAPPY!!!

NTU's IT fair next week.
cant wait!!!

2007-07-23T22:13:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK I'M BACK!!!
:D

HSS FOC 2007 was a success i guess.
i wont say it's super fun or what but i did enjoy myself!
and yeah TITAN group rocks big time!
we won like 90% of the games during the whole camp so we emerged as the champion Orientation Group!
love my OG cuz there is nice freshies and seniors!
though somehow i feel that not everybody is bonded...

well i shouldnt go into details of the camp cuz that will be too long.
no matter what this camp is a very good experience with both the good and bad stuffs that happened.
just that i'm very tired and shagged out from it!
or rather i didnt have enough rest before and during the camp cuz we were all 'ill-treated' during the camp, haha.
and i'm super dark now!
dark not as in tan, but sun burnt!
i'm super 'chao-ta' please.
and my face skin is peeling, can see the patches here and there.
damn UGLY! :(
i want my even skin colour back!!!

looking forward to TITAN family outing soon!
:)

and ya, hall camp next week!
i can move into hostel then already!
got allocated to hall5 as xingling!
but we're all so busy, dunno when then we've the time to move our things in!
it's gonna be another headache thing!
:x

plus i'm still working this week.
my schedule is very packed!
cant even rest before school starts!
and i guess i cant meet up with some friends until i settle down with school stuff...
sorry people...

shan shall try to be a superwoman and cope with all the upcoming events!
加油！

2007-07-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

shouldnt be online now cuz i'm supposed to be sleeping early!
but i wanna blog about YESTERDAY!
a very great nice day!

thought it'll be my last day working then got 1week break for camp.
was a bit pissed cuz huiting cant come to work and she forgot to inform us!
only got to know about it last minute.
arrgh.
left me alone on a saturday morning again.
sianz.
thank goodness it wasnt that busy.
and yes i'm lucky and 'dua pai' enough to have an assistant manager (eileen) and executive (grace) to accompany me cuz grace was DM for the day and eileen is back to learn from grace on how to do set up for music performance.

some australian band was here to perform!
so nice!
i enjoyed the music!
and watching the very cute and cool drumer!
lol.

the band:

ah the drumer is so cool! and he's cute! ;p

went to watch "transformers" with piggy after work.

we did a little bit of shopping 1st then smuggled KFC into the cinema.

i must say we're very pro in doing it.

hee :p

anyway the movie was super nice!

i love it!

super cool.

and bumblebee rocks!

treated piggy to eat the creeps dessert at cine basement before heading home.

i really love to hang out with this darling pig sister of mine.

felt a bit sad cuz i know this gonna be my last outing with her before my school starts.

plus if i really staying in hostel, sure wont have much chance to spend time with her in future...

thinking abot that makes me feel sad :(

had been staring at her (she was already asleep) before i fall asleep these days.

i know this sounds a bit sick.

but we've always been SO CLOSE since young.

slept on the same queen size bed (though she takes 2/3 of it!), bathe together (yes even till now, i dont feel anything wrong), share secrets etc etc......

and now, i'm moving out and wont be living with her most of the time...

haiz.

I GONNA MISS HER for sure :(

last time she used to rely on me, now seem like i'm the one who rely on her, haha.

cuz she never fails to be there for me when i needed somebody.

and i know she never will...

but i guess this is a good chance for both of us to grow up!

my beloved darling piggy!

look at her dirty mouth with chocolate ice cream! :x

LOVE her to bits and pieces!

sisters forever! <3

___________________________________________________________________________

supposed to be on off TODAY to prepare for camp but went back to work half day.

cuz eleanor got acute appendicitis and was in hospital since yesterday!

she just did her operation today and will be on 3weeks MC.

plus next week i wont be around, counter sure very lack of manpower......

anyway GET WELL SOON mummy lhea!

i'll be away for HSS Freashmen Orientation Camp from tomorrow to next friday!

hope it's gonna be fun!

it better be!

time to meet new people and make new friends!

LALALA!

ok time to sleep.

have to reach boon lay at 8am tomorrow!

*screams*

2007-07-11T23:56:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh i'm so shagged and tired...
and i'm waiting for that cho xingling to come online cuz she asked me to.
aiyo why i so 听话, haha.
also dunno what time then she can use computer.
i'm falling asleep... zZzzZZz...

had shopping spree with her YESTERDAY and TODAY after our work!
2 days in a row, really can die.
cuz i'm so broke now!
was supposed to buy things for our camps but end up buying some other things too,
as usual la, girls what, haha.

she came town to meet me yesterday, we shop far east and tangs.
and i bought 2 dresses!
i'm like to into dresses these days.
act girly, haha.
ah ba joined us after her work at 9plus.
and we had swensens for our very late dinner cuz xling and i were super hungry.
eating at such late hour, fattening and sinful! :x

then today i went bugis to meet her.
i make sure i 忍 and dont go try any clothes, just quickly walk past, haha.
if not the hole in my pocket will get bigger!
but i still bought some small little stuff.
after these 2 days of spending plus the previous spending on body shop and clinique's products,
i'm super duper broke when it's only middle of the month!
:(

anyway, i think i havent announce that xling's gonna be my ROOM MATE!
provided that our application is successful and we are assigned together.
we did applied together and put each others name.
hopefully we'll get it.
but after much thinking, staying in hostel also seem to be quite troublesome.
like totally on your own, everything have to get yourself etc etc...
well, shall think about these after application result is out.

hmmm it's like xling and i are quite fated to be togther huh, haha.
back in yj, my register number is right after hers,
so during exam period, she's always sitting in front or behind me in exam hall.
and we're the only 2 girls who take physics and dont take econs.
so we're like together most of the lesson time.
and we were in the same group and we slept in the same tent during OBS in j1!
so ya, we both know how each other look like when we sleep.
no need to feel paiseh already, lol.
it's like both of us wanted to get into NUS intially, but we end up at NTU.
FATED.
so xling, are you honoured about it?
wahaha :p

out of the girls, only 2 of us are in NTU.
but we're in totally different faculty.
ah ba and lulut in NUS, same course.hopefully they'll still be close.
soomei, fel and siying the best.
all in SIM, same course, same class somemore!
damn lucky can!
so they're together most of the time!
well i guess mel is the most poor thing.
she's all alone, facing A level again.
hopefully she'll work hard and do well!
sorry that i cant help cuz the subjects we take are totally different.
it's not easy to contact her also...

talking about contact,
LULUT and SIYING gone missing too!
never visit me or contact for so long!
I MISS YOU GIRLS la!
especially that siying, come town also never come paragon find me!
hmph!
ah i'm missing everyone again.
the guys too.
our 133, 228......

i guess all these feelings came out because i know school is starting, i gonna start new life in new environment, meet new people......
i always dont mind meeting new people and making new friends,
but dunno why, i feel quite weird this time...
and i dont wish to lose contact with any of my friends!
no no no no no!
so friends, please please please, no matter how busy we're,
do keep in contact and update each other!
if possible, meet at once in a while!

all the best to everybody!

2007-07-08T23:54:00.000+08:00

went out with zhihao TODAY!
like finally, after dragging it for 1 whole month.
but it's really hard for us to meet up.
NS guy, plus he's down for NDP rehearsal every saturday.
so rare for us to have common free day.

we went marina square to play!
1st was pool.
i never play it at all this year!
well i still suck at it.
only won 2 out of the 5 games we played cuz the white ball went it with the black ball after he hit.
i never even had chance to hit the black ball, lol.
2nd was arcade!
just played some random games.
3rd was bowling!
but it was very packed so we put our names on the waiting list then go shop around.
saw a lot of things which i feel like buying to put in hostel!
hmmm but havent confirm if really staying or not...
after 1hour plus then we've lanes for bowling.
so you can imagine how good was their business.
we played 2games and i won both!
weeeee~~~

zhihao's backview when he's bowling...

the result:

after the 1st game; i'm B!
can u see the 2 strikes? haha.
it's like a 1000years since i got a strike! :D

almost the end of 2nd game; i'm still B!
2 strikes and 2 spares!
for the 1st time my result is more than 100 and i still have a last ball to throw.
final result: 109!
my luck was real good for bowling today.
and all of a sudden i think i love bowling.
lol :)

we walked all the way to arab street (must walked past suntec, bugis, north bridge road) to eat at zam zam.
zhihao says his friend recommend the murtabak there.
and yes it's very nice indeed.
we shared a chicken murtabak, a mutton murtabak and a mee goreng.
it was so filling cuz we counldnt finish everything.
maybe we've small stomach, haha.
anyway thanks for bringing me to eat nice food!

walked back to suntec and shop a bit.
their galleria was halfway through their revamp and there is this very cool looking water fountain thingy.
it's like water droplets hanging in the air and they can move back and forth!
i wonder how they did it.
here's the picture but i dont think it can be clearly seen.

do check it out the next time you go suntec!
maybe you'll be as amazed as me, hee.

nice day out!
:)

2007-07-08T23:36:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY was yi gen 表哥's ROM day!
the new couple purposely chose the date 070707.
so cool!
maybe i should try to get married on 121212! haha.
but i guess that's a bit impossible, heh.

anyway still congrats to yi gen and xiao rong this new couple!
they look so sweet!
this is the 1st time i view ROM ceremony!
took lots of photos! weeeee~
after that stayed back to chat with relatives.
cuz some rare ones actually turned up!
so must grab the chance to catch up with them.
then is the 4 cousins-sisters camera whoring session!
so rather is just the 3 girly us, piggy is forever 'camera shy'.
T_T

and the 4 of us had cousins outing!
so happy la!
it's so super rare that all 4 of us can go out together!
cuz usually only me and ying bother to meet up.
lucky ting's ivan not free, if not she sure go accompany boyfriend, lol.
oh yay we headed to town and went to sing karaoke!
wanted to go KBox but too expensive so went partyworld instead.
had 4hours of singing session but we were half dead after 2hours cuz we chose fast songs at 1st and screamed too much until we've no voice, haha.
sang the emo songs too!
nice nice! fun fun!
i love my wonderful cousins!
:D

then we went to the body shop.
i've one long order list from friends and colleagues to help them buy things.
anyway must really thanks stanley and his very nice colleague for the staff discount.
but i always feel so paiseh to go trouble them :x
really thanks! :)

alright photos time!

2007-07-07T00:41:00.000+08:00

i'm seriously damn VEXED and STRESSED OUT over the preparation of university,
planning for camps, work, my schedule for the next 1month and stuff...
i wanted some peace, some space and some time to myself,
but i was not given!

things just have to happened non-stop,
getting from bad to worse and more and more complicated.
i dont even understand why must i be involved and like stuck in the middle.
damn.
i really hate all these shit.

and i dont understand why do i always get friends of the same kind.
and they happened to be my close friends and best pals.
there are thing about them that i'm unhappy with and cant stand about,
yet i can do nothing about it.
some people may say you should accept your friends for who they're,
some people may say you should ask them to change for their own good.
the most funny thing is,
my friends do know the bad points they are having,
they can admit that they're brats, inmature, stubborn and selfish,
they do know the consequences of being like that but they just wont change.
so what can i say?

sometimes i'm already very used to them for being who they're.
and because i dont wanna lose a friend, whether they're worth it or not,
so i'll choose to tolerate and wont a fight with them cuz i hate to quarrel with friends.
when i'm in good mood, i dont mind lending out my big pair of ears to listen to people's sorrows.
cuz i know friends should be there for each other so i TRY my best to.
but when i'm moody myself,
i really dont have the mood and energy to entertain anybody!
i just want to be left alone.
i dont usually go around telling people my sadness and stuff cuz i dont like to affect others or spread the emo-ness around.
and i want to learn to be independent and settle things myself.

i just hope my friends can be more considerate.
i always believe in having more friends, enlarge your social circle.
dont rely and trust only 1 friend.
you will never know what is going to happen the next minute.
even a best friend can turn out to be your enemy.

i hope i'm making some sense here.

right now,
i just want some peace and time to myself......

2007-07-06T23:24:00.000+08:00

went to the ZOO on wednesday with char and per!!!
had our picnic date there!
so super duper happy cuz we had a great day out!
:D

char made potato salad, per made toast and i brought jelly, oreo & sweets.
we ate while watching the animals shows, haha.
and yes we watched a lot of animals shows!
one after another, walking and taking tram around the whole place.
we're like some kids or tourists.
LOL.
but it's like damn long since i've been to the zoo!
the last time i go was like in primary school?
haha.
this trip is definitely worth it, though the entrance fee cost $20 with tram rides! T_T

we took lots and lots of photos!
made funny and stupid poses!
i miss doing all the crazy things during the girls school days.
enjoyed myself totally!

went to amk hub to chill after that.
we were all quite tired and shagged but i'm sure we all love this trip.
and of cuz, i love you darlings!
thanks for the nice day out!
:)))

shall post photos when i get all of them successfully!
lalala!

2007-06-30T23:53:00.000+08:00

only managed to fall asleep at 3am this morning.
then have to wake up early to go OCBC bank to take up tuition loan for university.
waited for 1 whole hour la.
arrgh.

preparing for university is so troublesome can.
especially the money issue.
everything needs MONEY.
even going for the orientation camps have to pay quite a lot.
haiz.
and dad keeps on calculating, nagging and grumbling away.
he gimme a feeling that i'm giving my family a lot of trouble and adding burden to them by going into university.
then i dont further my studies la!
then in future i cant earn much to feed him!
ARRGH!
pissed me off.
seems like i'm not in good mood these few days.
vexed over the preparation for university!

accidentally poked ais's hand with a sharp ink pen during work.
I'M SO SO SO SORRY MY DEAREST LES PARTNER!
i really dont mean it.
i know it hurts cuz it caused a hole and bleed a bit.
:(
my heartache la.
*kiss kiss* for speedy recovery!

karwei and felicia dropped by paragon at 9plus.
i wanted to take a ride with them so they waited for me to end work.
karwei drove his family car out!
so yea they sent me home.
it was the 1st time i sit in a car driven by my friend of my age!
so cool to be able to drive!
but i got no money and time to learn :(
oh well i reached home safe and sound.
i guess karwei's driving skill is better now cuz felicia got so freaked out when she 1st sat on his car.
THANKS for the ride! :)

2007-06-30T23:43:00.000+08:00

changed shift with eleanor on wednesday so that i can work mid shift and end work earlier to meet the faithians.
cuz yinchi just came back to singapore from chigaco and leehau also juzt returned from her hometown.
but i thought it was just a gathering between the clit girls.
didnt know it was sort of a class gathering so some elit girls were there too.
oh well they didnt wait for me to have dinner.
by the time i met them they already finish eating.
we ended up at youth park watching some drumers had their rehearsal,
and i had to 打包 a packet of bee hoon and stood and eat.
they were having their fun camera whoring session as usual, especially the elit girls.
i wasnt very interested.
didnt have much chance to talk to them.
we all went our spilt ways after 30mins.
damn, so waste of my time.
i rather it's just a gathering between the clit girls.
at least we can talk more i guess.
i suppose different cliques still cant click.
felt so disappointed.
arrgh.

some of the very few pictures that those who bothered to send me:

took leave on thursday so that i can go for my medical check up at NTU.
oh well i'm glad that i applied for hostel cuz the travelling time i took there was about 1hour30mins.
waste time can, sianz.
the check up was a bit waste time also, the queue was so long!
and i got to know that i grow shorter and fatter!
i can understand the putting on weight part cuz i ate a lot and never exercise,
but i grew shorter by 2cm!
what the...... dont tell me yjc's height ruler got problem... T_T
the only cool thing was that NTU students can get cheaper spectacles and contact lens from a particular optical shop!
can save money! haha.
oh i got to know quite a few girls from my faculty.
seems like arts people are really quite...... studious and 乖...
looking forward to university life!
oh ya, and i took 1hour to reach town from NTU!
quite long la, i wonder if i can continue to work after school starts...

on friday, worked for late night shopping till 12midnight with ais this month.
but i totally got no mood to work after having our break.
dunno why i just feel unwell.
haiz.
lucky there was no crowd.
quite 冷清 in fact.
no mood no fun at all.
i only know i'm very tired but i couldnt fall asleep when i got home!
dunno why also :(

2007-06-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

i guess i forgot to blog about this.
my family is really damn 'sway' this year.
it's like one bad thing happended after another,
haiz.

dad had a little car accident last friday morning.
his car got hit by another car from the back.
but it wasnt his fault cuz he stopped to let a car turned out,
it just so 'sway' that the car behind him couldnt stop in time.
oh well it's an old woman who havent drive for quite some time.
i guess it's quite a big crash cuz the 'butt' of dad's car was quite badly damaged.
so his mood was kind of bad over the weekend.
his car is his 2nd wife ma, haiz...
it happened that the woman's husband is the boss of some car repair company so they offered to repair dad's car.
of cuz la, it's her fault! they ought to compensate us!
dad also didnt want to blow up the matter so left his car for them to repair.
then they gave him 1 of their cars to drive for the time being.
but the car has faulty brake!
what the hell can, they want my dad to get into real big accident is it!
haiyo!

so dad didnt really dare to drive that car.
he took mrt and bus to work these 2 days.
and guess what, it's his 1st time taking bus in the past 10years!
so he dunno how to take a bus, haha.
he knows it's similar like the mrt, must tap the ez link card after boarding the bus.
but he doesnt know where to tap!!!
so he asked the bus driver, "uncle, where to tap huh?"
the uncle laughed la, then pointed to the machine which is right in front of my dad.
lol.
if i'm the bus driver, i confirm will be thinking: this guy is from outer space is it. dont even know how to take bus!
wahaha.
and dad actually called mum to ask if he also have to tap when he alight the bus.
*faints*
YES DADDY YOU MUST!
haha.

i cant help but laughing like mad when i heard about it.
piggy and i kept teasing him about this, haha.
my dad is oh so...... cute.
LOL.

2007-06-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

finally i get to have some rest and time for myself today and tomorrow!
cuz i dont have any plans and not intending to have any.
i'm already damn shagged from all the playing and meeting up with friends.
but my am shift days are my only chances to meet up with old friends.
so no matter how tired i'm, i'll still arrange for a meet up.

met up with sufyan after my work on last friday.
he was late again, quite late somemore.
he was late the previous time we meet up!
hmmm.
one advise, guys shouldnt be late when they meet up with girls :p
anyway we went to the hawker centre beside meridian hotel to eat and chat.

thanks to this stupid guy, after chatting with him, i'm more confused about my future.
i spent so much time trying to convince myself that i'll be ok to study chinese.
but he was like saying chinese is not something which i want afterall, ask me to change course in year2.
easier to say than done.
and he made it sounds like study chinese can only be chinese teacher.
hey that's stereotyped thinking ok!
but he's quite true about chinese is not the thing i want in the 1st place,
i used to wish i dont get it.
the thing is i've no choice now!
i can only make the best out of what i'm given.
at least chinese is something which can lead me to the route i want, hopefully......

anyway, i got to hear more interesting NS stories.
hopefully all my friends in NS are doing well!
and ya, dont give up hope sufyan, you still have 1 more year to aplly for university.

met up with ying on saturday to watch 'Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End'.
cuz the movie was released for a month already so not many cinemas still showing it.
plus we've to find suitable time slots,
so we went all the way to vivocity to watch.
anyway it's my 1st time watching at vivo, but i dont like the seats! :x
oh i thought the the movie is not bad,
although most reviews and comments from people are that it isnt as nice as the previous two.
and elizabeth is so cool so 帅气!
but heard that she and william not acting in part4, sad :(
the only thing i dont like about long movies is that my bladder always feel like going to burst after the whole show! haha.
oh, i think ying doesnt look very good.
but we didnt have much chance to chat except during travelling on train to and back.
hmmm must have cousin talk soon!

met up with bekah on sunday.
finally our dinner date at our community centre's buddy hoagies cafe! :D
that's a special place for us cuz we used to study there for a few times.
ate and chat.
talk about a lot a lot of stuffs.
those days back in st nics...
we are not the typical girls school girls but yet we've the enthu-ness and craziness.
i miss the days!!!
and i realise this blur bekah dunno anything about her university,
never bother to find out or remember the important dates, haiyo!
by the way she smart ass la, got in SMU business!
congrats girl!
we chat for a few hours, all the way till the cafe closed, hee.
loves hanging out with this girl, 1 of my most treasured friend in st nics :)

2007-06-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

was a bit sick on tuesday,
got running nose all of a sudden.
water dripping from nose like a spoilt water tap.
hate it, arrgh!

but thank goodness i was much better on wednesday so i can go for my 'chalet'!
haha.
oh well that was my lie to my parents.
cuz ais took 2days leave and i changed my off day from friday to thursday.
so on wednesday night, ais, fiona and i decided to go clubbing after my work and stay over at ais's place after that.
these 2 are clubbing queens who club every week for the past 3weeks (if i'm not wrong).
we went velvet dragon (their usual clubbing place).
i didnt know that now clubs open till 5am.
i thought usually they start clearing the dance floor by 4am.
eh i never club for 3months plus, haha.
and the dance floor only started to get crowded after 1am.
so we were drinking while waiting for the dance floor to be more filled up.
they gave 4 drink coupons each but the choices are damn limited.
anyway i drank 3.5 cups, not high at all, i think the drinks are quite diluted :x
but they play quite good music, alternate between rock&pop and techno (of cuz techno sucks).

we danced from 1plus all the way to 4plus.
shiok!
and ais taught me the correct way to dance.
she says i used too much of my upper body especially my shoulders,
should move more of my lower body like the waist and butt instead, haha.
thanks for the enlightenment!

i was quite happy dancing away with them cuz there was no 'flies' irritating me.
all the 'flies' flew to our pretty fiona, haha.
whenever the guys approached her, ais and i will leave her to 'die'.
LOL.
she really damn attractive can, like more than 5people came to her!
but they're all too 'buang' :p

went back ais's house to bathe and sleep.
eh i was the 1st one to fall asleep :p
cuz fiona was helping ais to play her dear's maple account.
but by the time i slept i can already see the sunlight, it's like 7am?! :x

so the 3 of us squeeze on 1 queen size bed.
apparently i took up the most space, so sorry! hee.
i only know that when i 1st opened my eyes, my hands almost hit fiona. oops.
the 2nd time i opened my eyes, it was already 12.30pm on thursday!
fiona was already preparing to leave cuz she still have to work pm shift.
ais wasnt in the room cuz she felt too squeezy and went over to sleep in her mum's room.

our initial plan was to play at sentosa but we were too tired and ais was having body ache.
i ended up setting up my asiasoft and maple account at her house, had lunch then we headed to TPY cuz ais wanna buy comics at 天地漫画.
after that we went town to play maple at cine e2max!
i never ever thought i'll do such a thing can! haha.
but i'm damn slow and dumb in playing online games.
oh well i'll learn slowly when i've the time. bleh.
anyway thanks ais for teaching the slow lousy me!

went back ais's place to pick up my stuff and headed home.
luckily parents never ask or say much.
i just kept saying more lies to cover up my lies :x
but who cares, cuz my 'chalet' was a successful one.
:p

2007-06-19T01:34:00.000+08:00

oh yay i just done with the online application for hostel.
and yes my parents actually agreed to let me stay in hostel!
HAAAAAPPYYYYY!
:D
or rather i should say mum is the one who allowed so dad cant say anything.
all thanks to 舅舅, mum's colleague and her classmate.
they all told her that she should allow me to stay in hostel.
so she actually went to seek others' opinions even before she left for china.
i didnt even know la, haha.
thanks mum!

but the bad thing is,
i've to pay for my own hostel fee.
that's what i told parents.
cuz i know recently they've been very vexed over money issue.
our family really damn sway.
air-con spoiled last friday.
which needs about $2000 if we wanna fix it.
so dad was super pissed and threw temper at us.
in the end parents quarreled.
haiz.
i know they're worried about my university tuition fee too.
so i'm going to loan from bank.
but i dunno how and where to fork out the hostel money myself.
it's like almost $180 a month.
my savings can last me for how long......
money money money,
how i wish i've plenty of them.

anyway living in hostel means must take part heavily in a lot of activities.
though i can save a lot of travelling time,
must spend a lot of time on activities too.
and i'm thinking of continuing to work part-time at paragon.
plus my studies...
i wonder if i can cope.
but if i dont work,
where the extra money come from!?!?
haiz.
headache......
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had family movie outing just now (i meant yesterday; monday).
thanks ais for changing shift with me so i worked am.
went home and watched campus super star with piggy.
then dad drove us to amk hub for our movie!
the cathay there just opened over the weekend but can tell that a lot of things still not properly done yet.
anyway we watch 《鬼啊！鬼啊！》.
super lame and crap show.
i guess local production still have a long way to improve.
i do admit that it's a nice comedy whereby you can have a good laugh,
but i dont understand why must they have so much of the rubbish dialets and songs.
make the whole movie very low-class.
the show obviously has no story line, but some of the things they put in to 讽刺 certain issues is very good.
and i guess they're trying to portray the life of singaporeans and the society here.
i just didnt really like the way they put it.
overall, it's still quite a dumb movie.
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3rd thing that i'm going to blog about:
I GOT STALKED while i was on my way home on sunday night!
it's damn scary can!

i realised this ah beng looking guy kept staring at us when ais and i got in the train.
at 1st ais was standing between us.
when she left i've to move in so i stood right next to him.
and i could feel that he was looking at my every move!
from my action of taking out my ipod and using my handphone,
i could feel somebody staring at me......

i wanted to watch my show on ipod so i turn 180degrees to face the other direction and leaned on a railing,
and he turned 180degrees standing right behind me too!
ahhhhh!
i take it that he's interested in what i was watching.
but i'm quite freaked out already so i sms ais.
she asked me to step on his feet 'accidentally'.
lol.
so i pretend pretend and took a step back with my right leg.
but he moved back 1step at the same time!
he's like observing my every move can!
then i decided to turn 180degrees back since the train is reaching khatib.
and he turned with me again!
*faints*
when he walked towards the door before it opened at khatib,
i was like "shit, dont tell me he's alighting here too!"
and yes he did -.-"

he left the train 1st so he was in front,
i purposely walked damn slow to keep a distance behind him.
but he actually turned back to see where i was!
twice somemore! once before he got on the escalator and another while we were on escalator!
it's like when someone is in front of you and he turned back to see you, so obvious can!
then when he went out the gate 1st, he wont know which direction i'll be going cuz i'm behind.
so i supposed he purposely walked towards the top up machines and turned to see which direction i went.
AHHHAHHHAHHH!!!!!

i quickly called piggy to come and save me.
and she really 'flew' out.
she ran out damn fast from our house and i ran damn fast all the way across the over-head bridge.
but she said she didnt see any guy with a white shirt behind me.
*phew*
thanks my little hero for coming to my rescue, hee.
but mum and her both think that i'm oversensitive, say maybe it's someone i know,
perhaps my primary school mate or something.
eh sorry, i dont remember having an ah beng school mate.
arrgh.
oh ya dad ran out too, but he ran the wrong way and he was a bit too late cuz he still have to put on his shirt and his running shoes, lol.
anyway thanks.
i just hope that guy really wasnt a stalker and no more of such thing please.
i've a weak heart.
haha.

2007-06-14T23:51:00.000+08:00

my OFF day!
had a whole day outing with ah lao sheng!
a planned date since quite some time ago, finally got time out...

anyway shan is still very blur today.
rushed back to yj in the morning, wanted to collect my School Graduation Certificate.
at the security booth then realised i forgot to bring my IC out,
and i lent my ez-link card to fiona's friend for clubbing.
the indian security guard is nice enough to let me enter the school but the office clerks almost refused to let me take my SGC.
haiz, why am i so blur.
end up i've to take out all my cards like library card, whatever membership cards etc,
lucky my debit card has my name on it.
they even asked for any photo so i showed them the one i took with piggy which is inside my wallet.
1clerk found my name familiar, she looked at me then said "oh i think i know her."
*phew*
so i didnt waste my trip and got my nice SGC.
i better stop being so blur anymore!

anyway had Klunch with sheng at amk plaza.
with him then i get to sing a lot of male singers' songs.
if not girls usually sing female singers' songs.
so we had a nice 'yelling' session.
and he danced for me to see!
he learned from watching the music videos.
smart!
and it's like almost exactly the same, just that he's a bit slower.
oh yay my ah lao is pro! hee.

after that went Junction8 to get our free movie tickets (this lucky guy always win things! *envy*) but it was still very early so we stood outside poh kim and watched 'just follow law'.
a pity that i didnt have the time to watch it at the cinema that time.
went to look for xingling to chat and tried clinique's products before going for our movie.
watched 'legend of the sea'.
2nd animation by singapore.
sheng wanna watch it cuz the main character's voice is by JJ.
and he always support local production cuz it's his dream to do it one day.
eh but the show is...... so-so la.
if i've to pay for it, i'll think it's not worth.
since i dont have to pay for it then i shouldnt comment so much, haha.

and sheng brought me to eat prata at casuarina curry!
but we took train back to yishun then changed to bus169 to pierce reservoir.
a bit dumb la but we dunno how to go there from bishan.
now then i know casuarina curry is at pierce reservoir there, i actually pass by it before!
sheng's blog entries are so tempting so i insisted that he must bring me there.
and indeed they've nice prata!
had another wonderful but sinful meal, haha.

though i didnt get to rest again on my off day,
i enjoyed myself.
at least i did a lot of things, feels very fulfilling!
and i guess now sheng is the only guy that i feel comfortable going out with.
cuz i know he has no other motives or intentions beside just going out to do the things that we both like.
thank you sheng for the nice day out! :)

7days straight of pm shift from tomorrow onwards.
it's gonna be damn boring, especially when i'm alone for the last 2hours.
so people beware! cuz i'll start calling people to chat! haha.
but i guess i wont have time to meet up with people unless it's early in the morning before my work starts.

and it'll be the start of my dieting period!
at least for the next 1week i must be discipline!
eat lesser and do exercise!
i dont care!
shan must loss same weight!
:p

2007-06-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

WEDNESDAY, JUNE 13, 2007

worked in the office since early in the morning.
did all the shit jobs ('sai gang') again.
went around the mall with damon and assisted him in changing of the paragon junior posters.
then helped grace with admin stuff.
all the typing, calculation and tabulation.
arrgh, it really sucks.
i'm not that type of office kind of people.
cuz i dont really know how to use microsoft office!
very basic simple typing of cuz i know, but anything else more than that then...
go ahead and laugh at me like what grace did.
cuz i think i'm really idiot at it too.
haiz.
i should go for courses!!!
and i'm really a slow worker with office things.
couldnt finish all the assigned work.
so sorry grace :(
i'm like more of a trouble than help la, cuz a lot of things i dunno.
arrgh.
shan's so stupid!

and shan's very blur too!
i dunno what the hell am i thinking while i was waiting for bus to go thomson to meet yanni & jing.
i know bus162 and 167 go there.
bus167 is TIBS one.
i supposed i wasnt paying much attention cuz when bus171 came, i actually boarded it cuz it's also TIBS bus!
and i happily listen to my ipod, not even realising i got on the wrong bus until i passed by hwa chong JC.
i was like "eh why am i at HCJC and NJC here?"
then i remembered it was bus171 that i boarded!
i got freaked out la, plus my handphone battery was running low.
damn sway.
so i got off the bus at dunno where, very panicked as it was hard to get cab at that time.
and the bloody cab fare cost me $8.20!
i can eat 2meals with that! :(

anyway had dinner at this hongkong cafe near thomson prata house with yanni & jing.
the food there is cheap and nice!
a very good recommendation if you want go on budget :)
we chat and update each other.
and we're all very pissed with tianyi's irresponsible acts.
my blood boils whenever i think about it so shall not say.
by the way jing & i are studying the same course in NTU! :)
at least i'll see familiar faces, and chenghui too!
though i know quite a number of yjcians are going NTU.
but chinese course, i doubt so...

i missed yanni & jing!
so glad to be able to meet them finally.
though it's really tiring to still stay out after a day of working,
i really enjoy catching up with old friends.
hopefully i get more of am shifts so i can arrange to meet up with more old friends!
next up is char & per and bekah!
and of cuz i still owe people dates, like ying, zhihao, ......
ah shan's a busy woman.
oops.
hee.
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MONDAY, JUNE 11, 2007

met up with jeanie dear after work!
sort of a post celebration for her birthday.
had a wonderful and filling dinner at spageddies!
my treat to her, hope she likes it!
had our usual chatting and photo taking sessions!
loves you my jeanie dear! happy belated birthday too!
:D

we went heeren to shop for a while after that.
but it was already 9plus so a lot of shops started closing.
both of us bought things from basic beauty, hee.

took train to marina bay and bounced back.
and it's just so 'qiao' that i saw bekah on the same train!
i feel bad enough to cancel on our date the next day (supposed to meet her on tuesday night for dinner) due to the sudden change in my working roster cuz vouchers fully redeemed means promotion is over so wendy says back to 3people 3shifts a day.
so i'm very happy to meet bekah on train!
but sorry to jeanie cuz i knew she confirm felt a bit awkward.
anyway both bekah and i got off at khatib and chat for a while before we part for home.
i promise i'll make up for our date!

another tired but fulfilling day :)

2007-06-11T23:56:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY, JUNE 10, 2007

i thought finally i can have some time and peace for myself to rest.
cuz vouchers are all fully redeemed at 6pm today which means our promotion is over, much earlier than expected though.
didnt plan to meet anybody after work cuz i wanted to REST, already damn TIRED.

but it seems like i'm not fated to get some rest.
cuz my whole house had MAJOR electricity failure.
it just tripped and everything went out.
we tried to do something to both the electric box inside and outside the house but still no use.
called some numbers from yellow pages but every company keep pushing us to another company.
arrgh.
2men from MEC came up but they said our whole electric box inside our house is spoilt.
we must get our own contractor to fix it.
*faints*
it was already 9plus at night!
so we had to try calling a few other numbers to get people to come.
waited for damn long.
3hours without electricity, it was pitch dark and so warm!
had to use torch light and shine for dad to see when he tried to check the box.
and he was venting his anger at us.
haiz.
the repair work cost 100plus bucks.
our family damn sway this year.
so many things spoiled.
sofa, fan, water heater, kettle, PC, washing machine, vacuum cleaner...
all must change new ones,
which means a lot of money gone.
haiz.

i wonder if mum will still let me stay in hostel.
my dream seems to be getting further......
unless i think of ways to fork up the money myself.
money please fall from the sky!!!
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SATURDAY, JUNE 09, 2007

mum is back to singapore early in the morning.
so for the 1st time, the whole family is awake at 7plus.
received gifts from her, but her taste is still too different from mine :x
but amazingly the gifts she got for sis & dad (they got the same things) are nice!
seems like her taste for guys things are better, haha.
but anyway thanks mum and glad that you're back (to take back your 'position' at home)! :)

my plans after work turned out all screwed up.
1st plan was to meet up with zhihao cuz i actually saved the day for him to give him his treat and post celebrate his birthday.
but he meeting up with his secondary school friends and invited me along.
i dont wanna be extra so rejected but thanks for asking.
2nd plan was to celebrate jihan's birthday cuz zairong called me last week and informed me but until yesterday there was no news about it so i thought it was canceled.
3rd plan was to join piggy's friend's BBQ birthday party but i guess i'll be extra there too.
so i proceed to 4th plan which is to ask yanni & jing out since we wanna meet up.
but jing wanna spend time with her boyfriend so only yanni is free.

happily planned everything then zai suddenly called at noon to say jihan's celebration still on.
*faints*
so i've to cancel my date with yanni.
i know yanni was unhappy cuz i was the one who asked her out.
so sorry yanni :(

and ended up i was the one who messaged the rest when zai is supposed to be the 'organiser' but he booked out very late so he was very tired.
fahizul came to look for me after work cuz his date pangseh him.
i asked him to join us since he's free.
but we've 2hours to rot before the meeting time with the rest so we actually walked all the way down to raffles city from paragon!
did window shopping before meeting jihan, taiwei & zairong.

went to marina square, met sean there and he tagged along.
ate at swensens and johnson only came to join us after we finished our main courses.
anyway only half of us ate. had desserts too.
but i was really pissed about the billing part.
we're supposed to pay for our own share and forked out money for jihan's share.
like hello, she's the birthday girl!
but end up she and i had to pay the most cuz most of the guys only paid for their own share.
arrgh.
and ya, they were just happily chatting among themselves about their NS things.
yes i do understand that they've a lot to talk about NS but isnt the birthday girl the main character?
haiz.
i'm glad that at least i went so jihan and i just talked among ourselves too.
but i feel sorry for her too...
sorry missyG......
and sorry to fahizul.
everytime i asked him along for something, he always keeps quiet.
he cant join in the guys conversation cuz he's under civil defence.
i just hope he doesnt feel left out...

my conclusion is: guys are very bad organisers.
no offence, not pin-pointing at anybody.
personally i just felt that this gathering wasnt great......

2007-06-11T23:54:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY, JUNE 08, 2007

treat dad & piggy to sushi tei after work.
have to do it when mum's not around cuz she doesnt like japanese food and this is just between me, dad & sis.
cuz that time on A level result release day, dad treated us to jack's place so i promised to give him a treat too.
anyway we had a wonderful and super filling meal.
our stomachs can burst anytime!
haha :D
but there goes my diet plan :x
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THURSDAY, JUNE 07, 2007

my OFF day!!!
went tanning with piggy at sentosa.
like FINALLY i get to tan myself after half a year of 'hiding' in paragon!
i dont wanna be 白斩鸡!
so now i'm like 10% darker.
much more to go.
more tanning sessions please!!!
and ya i wore my bikini for the 2nd time.
since mum isnt in singapore so she wont find out, wahaha.
if not she'll screwed me up like last year. traditional thinking woman.

dont understand why piggy gets darker than me when i applied tanning oil and she stayed in the shelter most of the time!
she's afraid of getting roasted so we placed half the mat in shade and the other half in sunlight.
and of cuz i'm the one under the sun.
we played 2rounds of UNO (i won both) and 2rounds of number probability game (she won both).
oh well we're so lame :p

bathed and went to vivocity, had LJS for lunch and walked around.
took bus855 to queensway cuz piggy wanna get new shoes.
walked the whole of level1 and 2.
and for the 1st time she said that i'm pretty cuz she wanna make use of me to bargain for lower price with the shop keeper.
what the......
anyway cant believe i was actually so thick skin to keep slashing the price with the shop keepers -.-"
so piggy got her nike air zoom shoes at $94.
thanks me please! :p

long journey back home on bus855.
chat with her about our studies and future.
helped her to analyse her subjects and results.
had deeper understanding between us.
love this 妹妹 of mine to bits!
*muack*

DEAD TIRED after the long day...... zZzZZzZzz......

2007-06-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

Life without MUM:

mum has been away for 4 days.
cant really feel much of the difference since i'm usually not at home.
but now i've 2 more responsibilities.

1) be my sis's 'mum'
not a hard chore since i'm always the one who know every single thing about her life.
but now that mum is not at home,
i've to call home every few hours during work to make sure that pig isnt sleeping and nag her to do her revision.

2) be my dad's 'wife'
definitely not a nice chore.
cuz i've to chase him to sleep every night like what my mum does.
if not he'll just happily do his own nonsense stuff and refuses to go to bed.
but my scoldings dont seem to work cuz he still slept at 2am, haiz.
i guess he's only scared of my mum, haha.
have to make sure that he wakes up in time in the morning to go for work,
and make sure he doesnt go other places to play or fool around, wahaha.
but as i say, he's not afraid of me so when i scolded him, we ended up quarreling.
i dont like this job!
mum is still the best person for this position.

a very 肉麻 sms conversation between my parents which almost made piggy & i puke:
mum: 老公，我好想你噢！
dad: (asked my sis to reply for him) i miss you too! cant sleep properly without you.
mum: 今晚我不打电话回来了，你好好照顾两个女儿。给你一个吻！

OH MY GOD!
*pukes all over the floor*
my hair all stand can! haha.
but this shows that their 感情很好 which is good.
somemore this is the 1st time they're separated.
oh well, just counting down to the day mum will be back!
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I'm determined to go on diet and tan myself darker!
because of the negative comments i get from people these few days.

1st it was quincy wifey.
he walked past the counter on monday night but he just stared and frowned at me without saying hi so i sms him saying that he was 'dao'.
but his replies to me was all very hurtful, or maybe i should say he's very straightforward.

quoted from our sms conversation, these are some of the things he said:
1) you grown fat and white... the kind good to make soup... 白斩鸡...
2) your hair lah, what did you do to your hair! make you look so fat. PIGGY FAT!
3) by the way i couldnt recognise you just now, thought you were some malay minah...
4) a lot of malay girls like to be fair now, go observe and figure out yourself...

WHAT THE HELL!!! *faints totally*
i was so hurt can, and i feel insulted!
especially the part about malay minah.
i know i do look like ah lian when i've long straight hair,
but now when i've short fringe and much more layered hair,
i look like malay ah lian?!
isnt that worse?!
oh my tian.
damn damn damn SAD :( :( :( :( :(
so my attempt of looking younger, acting cute and sweet with my new hair style failed terribly.

and today when cass dropped by the counter to say hi,
she also say i've grown fatter.
and she was happily playing with the fats under my arms, saying that i dont have them last time.

FINE.
SHAN IS A FAT PIG NOW!
let me enjoy for another week more and finish giving treats to all those people i owe,
I'LL GO ON DIET FOR 1 WHOLE MONTH!
AND GO FOR TANNING SESSIONS!
arrgh.
shan is very pissed with herself.
i want the sunshine sporty shan back!

2007-06-03T23:53:00.000+08:00

TODAY

finally get to meet up with isaac!
i miss this study buddy of mine hell lots!
he like MIA for dunno how long.
hmph.
haha.
but at least he squeeze time out to meet up for breakfast, thanks!
it's really hard for me to meet up with guys friends in NS cuz i've to work on weekends :(
since i working pm shift today so can only meet up for breakfast at khatib mac.
chatting session!
it's good to hear from him again,
that he has walked out of his sad period and made plans for his future after NS.
GOOD!
wish him all the best! :)
oh ya i made him tell me ghost stories from tekong!
i'm still such a busybody about NS life, haha.
anyway he went home to change while i waited at mac
(but he took super fast, 20mins only! cuz now no need to style hair, no hair to style! :p)
then we took train together.
i went town for work and he went army market to get his stuff.

lalala.
shan is very happy today cuz firstly she got to meet up with an old friend.
and secondly, she had shopping spree!
but she's damn broke now, haha.
cant wait for my next pay to come!

finally bought the la senza pyjamas i wanted!
2sets somemore! cuz they having 50% discount, hee.
and naughty me actually started work at counter later cuz i went to shop 1st after punching in :p
then during break, ais and i went cine to shop and we both bought a lot of things in less than an hour!
we got the same pair of big shades, thanks to ais who kept 'sai-ko-ing' me to buy.
but now i like it a lot, weeeee.
she bought another 2tops.
i bought a bubble top with buttons & pockets and a pair of shorts from pandora's box.
now even my dress sense is changing!
i used to dress more matured, those 'cool' feminine type.
but now i like to act cute and sweet (dont ask me why cuz i've no idea myself!) especially after i cut my fringe to bangs!
*faints*
i still remember the girls said before that i'm not those cute cute sweet sweet type...
i hope i dont look disgusting now :x

anyway took alot of photos today!
:D

(during work) the CSO in shades:

(after work) another of the les partners crazy photo session:

EXCLUSIVE!!!

this picture is rated M18! or maybe have to be R21!

it looks super WRONG can!

ais was laughing like mad when she saw this.

looks as if she's licking me and i'm enjoying it.

OH MY TIAN!

and she says i look horny in the picture, can go be poster models for those porn shows.

-.-" *faints*

MY CURRENT OBSESSION:

acting cute and sweet.

if you puke after seeing this, please dont blame me.

haha :p

2007-06-03T13:40:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY

THANKS mrG for dropping by the counter to pass me spider-man2 vcd.
just watched the part1 a few days ago, borrowed it from ais.
i'm starting to feel the change in me... hmmm...
i'm never into those super heros kind of stuff,
but look at the list of movies i wanna watch!
guess i'm indulging myself in the 'unreal' world......

and a SUPER DUPER BIG THANK YOU to JEANIE DEAR for popping by!
she gave me this balloon with "I LOVE YOU" on it.
i was so shocked and surprised can!
thanks dear you're so sweet!
loves! <3
i'll squeeze time out to meet up with you! ;)

2007-06-01T23:20:00.000+08:00

couldnt sleep last night.
head keep spinning.
so confused, so vexed.
haiz.
lucky today is my off day,
if not i'll be a zombie at work.

sorry to freddy, junyi and his girlfriend sharon (she really dont look 7years older than him, hee) cuz i was super late.
met up with them to go PC show at suntec.
but junyi and sharon are sick and didnt look very well.
poor them still have to squeeze with the crowd.
i hope it's not my fault that they've to come!
anyway piggy joined us after 1hour cuz she still have holiday lessons in school.
we just walked around and collect flyers of laptops from different brands.
i cant wait to get my own laptop when school starts!

A BIG THANK YOU to junyi and sharon who still came although they're sick.
get well soon!
A SUPER BIG THANK YOU to freddy for letting me know more information about laptops.
and of cuz, for lending me more shows to watch! :D

went to window shop with piggy at marina square while waiting for parents to join us.
ah there is sale everywhere!
the shopping urge is back!!!
i wanna shop and i need money to shop! :(

we had dinner at 店小二.
so rare that 4 of us are all free to have dinner together!
and today's one is a very good and 'peaceful' (no quarrels at all!) one.
very glad that i'm free to have dinner with them.
(just that i'm damn broke now cuz it's my treat and it cost 100bucks! :x)
it's a early celebration for fathers' day as well as farewell for mum cuz she's flying off to beijing for her exchange programme tomorrow.
(just in case anybody dunno, my studious mum is doing part-time masters in chinese studies)
but i've to work so cant send her off :(
anyway, all the best for her trip!
this is her 1st time going overseas on her own, i bet she's nervous, haha.

hmmm the relationship between my mum and i seems to be better these days.
she sort of can understand how i feel, especially on university stuff.
i knew she'll be very happy if i'm going to study chinese.
but 1week ago when i told her that even if i'm going NTU i'll appeal to study maths,
she didnt even object and said she dont think i should study chinese too cuz my foundation is weak.
instead dad was the one who keep nagging me to accept NTU immediately cuz he thinks that no other courses will want me.
kind of grateful that mum actually supports what i like.
and to my surprise,
now she said that if NTU is really too far and if there's the need, i can stay in hostel!
so OMG can!
i never thought that she'll allow!
but wait for more details to be out then decide ba.
thanks mum :)

anyway i feel much better after a night of thinking through.
dont think i'll appeal to anywhere le.
i'm kind of lazy to do such thing.
just stick with NTU chinese ba.
maybe it's all fated.
and i found out that if my result for year1 is very very good,
i can actually do double major in year2!
chinese major together with mass com!
provided that i'm really hardworking enough to produce super good results.
if not i can also do minor in mass com.
so i guess now i've a goal to work towards to?
all the way shan!
:)

by the way NUS rejection letter finally came today.
haiz haiz.
but i received NIE acceptance letter!
i'm selected for the bachelor of arts in education programme in which i can teach chinese language in primary school after i graduate from the course.
and i'll be paid $1000 a month for my 1st 2years of studies and school fees will be paid by MOE.
sounds so good right, haha.
but there's bond to sign and i can only be a teacher after i graduate.
NO WAY!
still very happy that i got selected though i'm not interested.
cuz it means i didnt really screw up the interview, haha.
satisfied enough.

now should prepare myself for the new university life!
school starting in august.
shall start reading some chinese stuff, hee.
珊，加油！
:p

2007-06-01T02:11:00.000+08:00

so i finally get to know that i'm REJECTED by NUS through the online status.
NUS is so damn slow can, took SO LONG! till now no letter from them!
whatever. i'm still rejected.
super duper sad now :(
i dunno why am i so sad too.
i thought i'm already prepared for this outcome.
but still, the disappointment is there......

thanks to all those who tried to console me.
i'm trying to calm myself down already.

so i've no choice but to accept NTU's offer of chinese major.
received letter that they accepted me a few days after the interview which i thought i screwed it up badly.
cuz i was too nervous, even more nervous than the NIE one.
i keep avoiding their questions when they tried to ask me about ancient literature and history.
i told them frankly that my ancient literature is quite lousy and i prefer modern literature.
so they asked me more current issues like music, movies and politics which i think i answered quite well.
but chinese major is still mainly on ancient literature!
i guess they needed students badly so i was accepted ba.

but chinese!
i dont have confidence at all!
i flunked my 2years of higher chinese in JC,
and this is the most badly done subject for my A level.
now ask me to study another 4years of it,
can i make it?
i wonder.

i wanted to get into NUS FASS so badly cuz at least it has communication & media studies.
but i'm TOTALLY REJECTED from the school.
i guess my result is really lousy.
now i dont even have the mood to think if i should appeal.
haiz.

yes i know i've to accept the fact and i'm trying my best to.
so i'm looking and researching for information on NTU and the courses there.
like what others said, at least i got into a local university......

2007-05-29T21:14:00.000+08:00

失去的东西，
想要取回的东西，
无法复得的东西，
尽管如此却还是想要求的东西，
还有不满足的东西，
我想把他们全部都沉甸甸的抱在手里......

read these from a comic that ais lent me.
很喜欢，应该是感同身受吧......

但是事实是残酷的，
不是所有的东西你想要就能得到。
很遗憾的，有些东西早已不在我的双手能碰到的距离内......
尤其是那些失去的东西，
往往一去不复返......

或许我真的是身在福中不知福吧。
我知道我身边有很多关心我的人，
但是我却还不满足，不快乐。
我连我自己要什么都不知道......

很感谢那些关心我的人，
除了说谢谢，
我不知道还能说什么。
我只希望这些人是发自内心，真心的以朋友的角度来关心我，
而不是因为某些其他的原因。
当我知道有些朋友是以别的角度来关心我时，真的有点失望。
对不起，但是我只把每个人当朋友看待......

some times i really wonder if what piggy said about me was right.
that i'm a total bitch.
我是不是真的做错了什么？
我很怕是自己让别人误会了我。
如果真的是这样，
我真的很对不起......
对不起！

and sorry to those who ask me to watch "'Pirates of the Caribbean".
i'm sorry but i guess i wont go watch it with anybody.
cuz to me, this is a movie with special meaning.
less than a year ago,
i watched the part2 with the special someone of mine back then.
我曾经说过我们要一起看未来的每一部......
虽然现在我们不在一起了，这个约定也就不需要守了，
但目前的我，暂时不想让其他人取代这个特别的地位......
我并不是放不下过去，
只是不想现在的生活有任何不必要的改变，
也不想再让任何人有任何误会......
so i rather watch it myself or with my sister.

想告诉一个好朋友：
单纯的喜欢一个人并没有错。
但如果一直希望自己喜欢的人也喜欢回自己，
那就不怎么对了......
有些事情不一定要找到或知道答案，
知道了或许反而对自己没有好处。
像我一样，最喜欢act blur了，
什么都不要懂太多，不闻不问，
或许这样比较好吧。
自己喜欢的人喜不喜欢自己并不是很重要，
重要的是他/她过得幸福快乐，不是吗？
如果自己喜欢的人也喜欢自己，
那当然是个bonus.
但如果不是，你可能连现在的一切也会失去。
我觉得不值得。

所以我选择什么都不要知道，什么都不去问，
i rather live in my own fantasy,
cuz the reality is often cruel.
活在自己的幻想世界里，
应该会比较快乐吧......

sorry for this very very random entry.

2007-05-28T23:44:00.000+08:00

wasted my off day yesterday.
wanted to pack my wardrobe and monitor that pig to study,
but i end up sleeping most of the time -.-"
besides vacuuming the whole house, washing clothes and helping out with cooking of dinner,
i did nothing but sleeping and watching tv.
feel myself so useless and my life so meaningless......

dunno why i'm beginning to feel very emo again these few days.
vexed over a lot of things.
haiz......

spent my whole day with my les partner ais today.
worked am shift together.
went for lunch together and bought our movie tickets.
almost got into trouble together cuz ina saw us leaving paragon together and wendy wasnt happy when she found out that we went for break together :x
oh well lucky nothing happen and nobody scold us or what, bleh.

both ais and me are quite emo these days.
so we went a bit crazy after work.
i guess we were trying to let out.
went to walk around before our movie starts.
took neoprints!
like so OMG, so long never take already.
seems like neoprints is outdated.
now with camera handphones, who still wanna take the expensive neoprints!
and the machine we chose sucks big time.
the pictures turned out so funny and kind of ugly :(
maybe we dunno how to use ba.

went arcade too.
played the table hockey thing.
and we were like mad women.
our things were flying all over the place can, haha.
but it's damn FUN!
and ais played the skateboard thingy!
she looked so pro la!
and i took photos of her playing it!
wahaha :p

and we took a lot a lot of photos together!
so mad and crazy.
we just keep posing and smiling and taking photos with our handphones until our face cramp.
so vain but i like! hee.

we watched 'blades of glory'.
supposed to be a very nice comedy according to our friends
but we dont really find it that funny.
the funny parts are like so lame and dirty?
i dont understand why the guys sitting around us can still laugh until so damn loud.
the funny parts are like making fun of their body parts.
so i guess it's very funny to laugh at their own *ahem*?
whatever.
maybe my mood wasnt right to watch the movie.
or maybe i already tried too hard to be happy for the entire day so i'm worn-out to the extent that i cant enjoy the movie.

come to think of it,
i'm really really tired after all these while.
especially my mind.
things keep running through non-stop.
i feel like shutting it off right now......

thanks ais for your movie treat.
i love our crazy arcade and photo-taking sessions.
:)

and ya, ais has decided to resign and go back to sales line which is of higher pay.
so after 1 month i wont be working with her at paragon anymore :(
i respect her decision but i know i'll miss this lesbian partner of mine.
miss her talkative-ness and her scratching, haha.
this year paragon A&P turnover rate is so high can,
in just a few months time, wengster left, uncle neo left,
and now, even ais is leaving......
i think the management should do some reflection!
but i guess it's none of my business since i'm just a part-timer.
can foresee that wendy will defnitely hire a new full-timer soon.
for the sake of money, i shall work all the way till school starts!

numbing myself with work......

2007-05-26T11:42:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY

gordon and xueyun came to visit me during work!
was so surprised la!
especially when i saw xueyun!
like a 1000years never see her can!
they waited for me and i spent my break time with them at paragon's ah mei chatting away.
this time is really BK ex-crew reunion cuz we know each other through working at BK :)
i miss xueyun SO MUCH can!
got to know that she graduated from poly already and is currently undergoing training to be a personal trainer at california fitness club!
like so OMG can!!!
she doesnt look like that sort at all!
but can tell that she gained some muscles already.
female personal trainer, like WOW.
haha.
but she really matured a lot.
glad about that.
just that feel sad to know she and her boyfriend just broke up.
5years relationship, but when the passion is no longer there and their goals are different...
i'm sure she has her own reasons :)
i'm very grateful that she taught me a lot of things through this chatting session.
it's like everytime i meet up with ex-colleagues from BK,
i always learn things about life from them, views from different angles.
her words set me thinking again......
have a lot to catch up with her!
must meet up again soon!

after work went marina bay to eat steamnboat with yingsheng, wenyi, xingling, siying and yang laoshi.
it's supposed to be a farewell dinner for yang laoshi cuz he's leaving for hongkong to teach while his wife is going to further her studies.
though he didnt really teach me during my JC years,
i learned a lot from him and thanks to him that i'm exposed to more things beside just studying.
ALL THE BEST to him and his family in hongkong!

didnt eat much of steamboat.
dunno why.
i dont have the mood and the atmosphere wasnt good.
i just feel awkward.
yang laoshi left early and the we just practically 'stone' the rest of our time.
went home straight with sheng and wenyi while xling and siying dropped off at orchard for late night shopping.
i hardly go home so early when i've outing!
kind of regret not joining the girls, sorry...
perhaps i was too tired......

_________________________________________________________________

TODAY

went to piggy's school in the morning.
Parent-Teacher Conference.
so i'm her 'guardian', haha.
oh well mum is always not free and dad is never interested in this type of thing.
and since i know piggy the most, i'm the best person to go! :p
this pig is getting more and more lazy,
results de-proving.
quite worried for her cuz she tends to be like me.
crucial year then starting to escape...
she failed her english and humanities quite badly,
the rest still not bad, almost all 'A's except for bio.
but english and humans are the most important ones!
arrgh i dunno how to help her can.
she used to be so hardworking and discipline, so much better than me.
but now, she is either watching tv or sleeping.
PIG!
scold her also not much use. haiz.
i dont want her to end up like me!

went to amk hub to walk walk and treat that pig to pepper lunch.
i dont feel like eating so just watched.
i really love hanging out with her, feels the best...
guess i should really squeeze out more time for this pig of mine.
especially monitor her studies!
haha.

work is super busy.
promotion and great singapore sale starts plus it's a saturday.
you see crowds of people everywhere!
and i'm so sick of this scene!
something bad happened to huiting during work, hope nothing serious will happen to her and the rest of us wont be affected.
only good thing, my dear fiona is back to work at the counter!
cuz she having school holidays now.
so i'll get to see her more often :)
i hate it when it's boring at work,
but i also hate it when it's too busy at work.
arrgh.

thanks ais for giving me the four leaf clover handphone chain for me to 转运.
hopefully my luck will be better!
love you my les partner :)

thanks zhihao for accompanying me during my break today :)

2007-05-24T23:14:00.000+08:00

so i guess i'm still having bad luck.
cuz liverpool lost! :(

thanks gordon for his first hand information,
though i'm already fast asleep, hee.

piggy and i were trying to watch the match online cuz we dont have sports channel and cant possibly go to coffee shop to watch at that hour but couldnt find a website which telecast it live.
in the end have to watch the 'mosaic' section from SCV.
look at how small the screen is!

1page is showing 16 different channels at the same time.
the yellow frame grid is the one that we were STARING at.
so pathetic can!

the stupid pig even tried to use binoculars to enlarge her view.
i was laughing like mad can.
lol.

we watched from that tiny screen until we both fell asleep la,
until AC milan scored a goal near to half time.
it's too hard to concentrate with that tiny view so we gave up and decided to go sleep.
in the morning then saw gordon's message on the result.

oh my, we're really too crazy about soccer these days.
lucky the season is ending,
if not i think i'll have to give more treats, haha.
so now i've to treat that pig to pepper lunch!
and i still owe zhihao a treat.
must save more money already :x

oh well, today is the last day of slacking at the counter.
cuz promotion starts tomorrow.
bet we'll be damn busy for the next whole month cuz this time round we've a lot of things to do.
and i only have 4 off days in june.
nvm more work means more income.
can go shopping!
it's the Great Singapore Sale!
so people,
it's time for SHOPPING SPREE!
if i can have some sponsors,
i'll be more than happy :p
but i know i'm just dreaming, haha.

for those who have the money, enjoy this GSS!
:)

2007-05-23T23:58:00.000+08:00

this week started off badly for me with a super BAD MONDAY!
3 MAJOR bad things happened to me within just the first half of the day.
i dont wish to talk about them anymore
but cant believe that i'm really so unlucky and 'sway' recently!
can somebody please tell me what can i do to 转运?
haiz :(

glad that things seem to be getting slightly better today.
hopefully this will carry on.
my bad luck quickly go away!

worked mid shift today but stayed back to accompany ais till 10pm cuz she is sick and she didnt want to work alone.
i realise this lesbian partner of mine falls sick easily, haiyo.
please dont play maple so much and rest more!
cuz i stayed back to 'work' for free so she promised to treat me to movie.
keep your promise hor!
hee.

anyway i went to punch out at my supposed end work time and when i returned to the counter,
i saw this HUGE bear (half the size of me perhaps) sitting on 1 of our counter chairs.
was so shocked can, wondering why is that thing doing at our counter.
then ais said it belongs to a guy who is waiting for his girlfriend to end work.
he wanted to surprise her so ask if we can 'keep' for him first.
well we're not suppose to help people keep anything at the counter just in case they put bomb (-.-")
but ais made an exception for him.
the girlfriend works at make up store.
when they walked past counter we returned him the bear.
can tell that the girlfriend was surprised and she said something like "so paiseh".
but it's so sweet can.
*envy envy*
i guess this type of thing will only happen to me inside my own fantasy, haha.

oh ya i'm praying that liverpool will win by 90mins in the champions league finals later!
if not at least a draw so that i wont have to give that pig a treat!
haha.
GO LIVERPOOL!

2007-05-20T23:38:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY

my off day.
finally get to do facial after almost half a year.
went to auntie yap's house in morning.
two and a half hours of facial plus massage,
SHIOK! :D

and i finally get to meet up with junyi & freddy after one and a half years!
miss these friends i made from working at Burger King 4years back.
though freddy wasnt a BK crew but he always popped up at our kitchen!
haha.
kind of miss the days...
still remember these guys went through with me my toughest part of life back in secondary school days.
especially when i was hospitalised, they visited me a few times!
:)

went bugis.
sat at BK and chat for quite long until we felt paiseh cuz a lot of people were waiting for seats.
walked around bugis junction and chat at the same time before going to some nearby hawker centre to sit down and chat again.
so it's just chatting chatting and more chatting!

basically they didnt change much.
junyi is in his 2nd year of poly and happily with his girlfriend of 7years older than him!
i was damn shocked when i heard this, the gap is even bigger than my parents!
but i guess age doesnt matter cuz love have no boundaries, haha.
freddy just graduated from ITE and waiting for his enlistment in july.
so he's a show king now, very free to watch a lot of shows.
and thanks to him, now i've a lot of shows to watch!
no need to wait for the slow youtube to load, hee.
THANKS!

i guess i really learn a lot through chatting with them.
hear things which i've never heard before and totally dont understand.

junyi 说那是因为我和他们是不同‘世界’的人。
或许是吧......
有点不明白，为什么在地球这个世界上，还有分不同的‘世界’......

我的‘世界’似乎很‘完美’，‘走’的‘路’是大人们的理想‘道路’，
小学 (传统的6年) --> 中学 (传统的4年) --> JC (传统的2年) --> 大学 --> 出来社会工作

他们的‘世界’或许不是最完美的，走的或许不是最理想的路，
可能需要绕一大圈，可能少走一些。
他们的课业成绩或许不是很好，但他们不是坏学生；
他们曾经做过很疯狂的事情，但他们不是流氓。
他们不抽烟，不去club，
只是过着他们想要过的生活，
不去在乎所谓的‘理所当然’或是别人的眼光。
感觉上他们的生活似乎精彩得多，
至少比我的快乐得多吧......

我已经开始厌倦自己所活在的‘世界’......

2007-05-20T23:20:00.000+08:00

SAD SAD SAD!
cuz man-u lost the FA cup :(

rushed home to change after going out yesterday night
then met up with piggy who went coffee shop to 'chop' seats earlier.
we were like so 'uncle' la,
watching soccer match at coffee shop with all the uncles.
i'm never so mad about soccer can,
dunno what leads to the sudden interest...

quite an exciting long match,
but haiz...
both piggy & i lost money cuz we buy man-u will win in 90mins.
and i lost my bet to zhihao cuz chelsea won in extra time!
so it will be my treat next time we meet up.
eh which will be next month ok?
cuz i'm too broke now, haha.

but stupid piggy wanna bet with me for champions league.
another treat.
she says she takes AC milan, i take liverpool.
loser treat pepper lunch, if draw then go dutch.
what the hell.
though i support liverpool, i dont have much confidence in them, haha.

i think betting on treats is worse than buying from singapore pools!
cuz more money is 'lost', lol.
and i'm on bad luck these days!
:(

oh no shan is so soccer crazy recently.
:x

2007-05-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

been having mood swings lately.
i cant eat well, cant sleep well.
keep worrying about university stuffs.
i think i'm too stressed up over it.
that's why i broke down today.
i feel so terrible and stuffy with things bottled up inside me.
the day when i 'burst'......

i really dont have the mood to do anything,
no mood to talk to people or listen to people.
i can feel irritated easily.
so please,
LEAVE ME ALONE!
thank you for your understanding.

and i'm already super broke.
so dont ask me out to play, shop, Kbox, whatever.
unless it's under one of my to-do list or you're willing to pay for all my expenses.
haha.
sorry people,
let me isolate myself for a while......

Runaway; Avril Lavigne

Got up on the wrong side of life today yeah
Crashed the car and I'm gonna be really late
My phone doesn't work cause it's out of range
Looks like it's just one of those kind of days

You can't kick me down I'm already on the ground
No you can't cause you couldn't catch me anyhow
Blue skies but the sun isn't coming out no
Today it's like I'm under a heavy cloud

And (But) I feel so ~~alive~~
I can't help myself, don't you realize

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and runaway, yeah
I just want to fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and runaway, yeah

So so is how I'm doing if you're wondering
I'm in a fight with the world but I'm ~~winning~~
Stay there come closer it's at your own risk
Yeah you know how it is life can be a bitch

Runaway, runaway...
Runaway, runaway...
Runaway, runaway...
Runaway, run, run away...
Runaway, runaway...
Runaway, run, run away...

2007-05-16T22:20:00.000+08:00

the very wrong thing i did today was to go back yj.
saw keith son last week at work so he invited me back to see odac.
they had interview for new exco members today.

but yj just simply suck to the core.
i mean their stupid rules and procedure.
i still love my friends there.

the security guard (fat malay uncle) doesnt allow me to go in.
1st he said about my attire.
he always like to find trouble with it.
hello i'm already wearing long pants and shoes according to what he said the previous time!
then he asked me why am i back so i told him i came to see my cca and teacher.
but he said i must get teacher to inform the OM who will then inform him.
if he didnt receive instructions from the OM then i cant go in.
what the hell!
i keep grumbling about ex-students so unwelcome back.

the next thing i know is angie and her friend are allow to enter the school.
my batch that ANGIE!
like hello, how come she can go in and i cant?!
so i asked the guard.

he: you dont come and question me. their case and your case different.
me: for what reason they can come back and i cant?
he: you dont argue with me, i can chase you out anytime!
me: what! ~#!^%&*=+1234567!

sheng came out to find me cuz i told him i'm coming back.
dunno why the moment i saw him,
i started crying.
it's like i feel touched when i finally see somebody familiar.
but i know i already made a scene out of myself at the security post.

keith came out to find me cuz i called to say that i'm not allow to come in.
end up he had to call ms lim to call the OM who called the security then i can enter.
troublesome.
but i knew the security already called OM to complain about me before ms lim called the OM.

and the 1st thing ms lim asked me when she saw me was "what you said to the security?"
"maybe the way you approach the guard is wrong. fahizul they all had no problems when they come in the previous times."
so end up it's my fault.
fine, i'm rude to the security guard.
so sorry can!
arrgh.
the guards want students to respect them,
but did they respect us in the 1st place?
and the other guard couldnt find my ez link card when i was leaving the school.
stupid can.
so their counter is so unorganise.
he only found it after i walked some distance away from the school.
so tomorrow have to trouble mrG to get my card for me.
haiz.

fuck up bloody school.
dont welcome ex-students back.
what kind of school is this?!
i swear i'll never go back again unless is to take my A level cert.
arrgh.

but it was nice to be together with odac people again.
the interview was quite fun!
i missed out last year's one cuz was busy with chinese drama.
can see some potential in the juniors.
hopefully yj odac can be better and stronger!
went for dinner with some of them (though i didnt eat) and hear more funny things.
i really feel better seeing these familiar faces.

i miss odac,
i miss the fun and fond memories we had together...

to sheng: thanks, for what i also dunno. but i just feel better when i see you. at least you're the 1st familiar face i saw in school today. and sorry that the only thing i did when i saw you was to cry and grumble. you must be damn paiseh. sorry...

to mrG: thanks for your spider-man toy! it cheer me up! you must have ate a lot of BK these days, haha. THANKS. and sorry to trouble you to get my ez link card for me tomorrow.

2007-05-13T22:35:00.000+08:00

SATURDAY, MAY 12, 2007

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY to my darling sister!

it's piggy's birthday and i'm so happy that i was rostered off!
so i can celebrate it with her.
GREAT!

but i slept till quite late,
until yenru called me saying that she and sihui already reached our block,
then i realised that it was already past noon!
they messaged me a few days ago telling me that they are coming my house to surprise that pig.
oh well, it's really good to know your sibling's friends.
cuz last year we planned a surprise together for that pig too.
piggy is so lucky to have wonderful sis and friends!
haha.

so yup, they pressed my door bell (after i called them) and i made piggy to open the door.
they surprised her with their home-made cupcakes with candles.
so sweet can.
as sweet as their cupcakes, weeeee......

went town with piggy in the afternoon.
isetan scotts, tangs, heeren...
there's so many things to buy at isetan!
if i've the money......
piggy bought a new wallet and belt (i paid for this),
and i bought her a small electri fan from action city.
cuz she complained that the weather these days is too hot.
she got caught using her notes to fan herself during asembly some days back,
her DM called out her name in front of the whole school so she was quite paiseh, wahaha.

and we ate at fish&co. again!
the glass house branch is definitely my favourite!
somemore there is live band on saturday.
but too bad we were arranged to sit all the way inside after 15mins of waiting,
right outside of the toilet -.-"
no choice, we didnt book in advance and it was full house then.
had a very good and filling meal!
oh it's my treat to her.
so i'm super broke now, haha.
but it's ok cuz i love fish&co.!
next time can try their other new dishes and desserts!
cant wait for the paragon branch to open!

a super duper great day out with my darling piggy! :D
(just that my legs hurt like shit walking on the super high heels! haha.)

2007-05-11T23:50:00.000+08:00

arrgh.
i totally screwed up my NIE interview today.

i worked half day and took cab down to MOE headquarters.
lucky i was very early.
firstly, i went to the wrong counter which is damn ma-lu,
secondly, at my counter then i realise i overlook the letter.
i brought all my certificates and stuffs,
not knowing that i must photocopy them!
how blur can i get.
then must go down to the office to photocopy,
and i dont have enough loose coins...

the interview is like damn scary.
sitting so near to 3 interviewers!
2 spoke to me in english and 1 in chinese.
i dunno how to answer their questions la.
crapped my way through then keep repeating myself...
and the guy who spoke to me in chinese even asked me about chinese literature stuff!
OMG la, i almost forgot everything can!
so i just said everything which comes to my mind which was quite blank at that point of time.
and i honestly told them that NUS is my priority, followed by NTU then NIE.
they asked me what, so i just tell the truth lo.
and they commented that i can speak chinese very fluently but when comes to english,
i didnt speak clearly and my words seem to get stuck at my throat.
they say if i'm going to be a teacher, i must learn to speak with my stomach,
if not after 2years of teaching, my voice will be totally gone.
aiya whatever la.
and i didnt know know i'm suppose to take english proficiency test!
they say only B3 and above is exempted.
-.-"
the test is not very cheap can.
arrgh.
i dont like bothering about this course,
not as if i really wanted it...

and yes i got a call for interview from NTU chinese faculty this morning!
though it's chinese, at least it's something.
but i didnt receive the email which the person said she'll sent me...
please dont prank on me!
i shall go read up on my chinese notes in case they ask me about related stuffs again, haha.
_______________________________________________________

met up with zhihao at city hall after the interview.
ate at new york new york!
it's our 1st time there!
quite sua-ku la, haha.
their ribs are real nice! and it's super big portion!
the freeze drink is thick enough also.
but their calamari CMI la....
we ate until damn full,
and i actually ate much more than him, haha.
anyway it's his treat again cuz he lost the soccer bet.
but i feel a bit bad la, cuz it's not very cheap...
so i promise when i got accepted by any university course,
i'll give hima treat!

we were very full so hang out around esplanade area.
there is a lot of construction work going on, spoil the scenery...
went to the roof terrace then walked to merlion park.
i just keep staring into the space, into the sky...
so vexed and worried these days...
i hope i didnt grumble too much to zhihao unknowingly.
if i did, so sorry!

anyway, it's a nice night out.
at least i can 透透气.
i'm worried enough myself, at home my dad still keep rubbing in.
he really dunno how to 看风使舵,
if not must be he purposely want disturb me & piggy.
super irritating can!
arrgh.

KINDLY LEAVE ME ALONE for the next few days.
sorry.

2007-05-10T21:31:00.000+08:00

i must be real mad cuz i went to change my hair style.
as in major changes.
thought my mood was bad, wanted to change my mood so went to change hair style...

met up with xingling after work on tuesday.
shopped around for a while then went to centre point's hair inn to cut hair.
they having promotion, 20bucks for wash & cut...
both of us cut our hair, but of cuz xingling only TRIM a little.
but me...

had some disputes with my hair stylist at 1st.
cuz he didnt wanna cut the slope i requested,
he said nobody cut hair that way.
but besides that i dunno what styleto cut!
he didnt wanna cut the way i want, i couldnt make up my mind how to cut,
so we quite pek cek with each other.

but after some time we chat and even joke with each other,
i just told him to cut whatever he thinks suit me.
since i wanted some changes...

so my long hair became much shorter,
damn layered.
can be styled up and i'll look very punk!
but i dont really know how to style la, ha.
then when i pull everything down, it looks like coconut head, lol.
the most obvious is my fringe,
SHORT!
i remembered saying that i'll never cut this type of fringe,
but i dunno what got into me this time...

kind of regret cutting this hair style especially after waking up yesterday.
piggy says i look like nerd (cuz of my fringe),
dad says i look more ah lian now (cuz the back is very layered).
ais was quite shocked when she saw me and she said my fringe looks 'buang'.
damon says go cut hair when mood is bad is a very bad choice cuz usually you'll make wrong decision.
*faints*
i think i look damn act cute now la, haha.

but as what xingling says, it's a good change and i just need time to get use to it.
i agree with what zishen said, what done is already done.
and eleanor says i look quite good.
so i shall just make do with it!
anyway hair will always grow back.
i'll start to like my hair and learn to style it nicely!
hee.

this is how my fringe looks now.
please dont scream the next time you see me!

oh ya after cutting hair that night,
we went heeren's vila'ge to eat and chat.
we shared rosti and waffle!
so yummy, but sinful too, haha.
we havent had such long nice chat for so long.
happy happy :)

2007-05-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

the negative feeling of working at the counter is getting stronger and stronger.
i dunno why.

there is roster issue again.
i thought after that bitch left, we wont have such problems,
but i was wrong.
though this time is not a conflict thing,
somehow i just hate this type of situation.
yes there is unfairness.
but i dont think it is something which we counter girls can resolve by ourselves.
i know all the changes to the roster doesnt affect me,
i just dont like the feeling of being caught in the middle.
they're all our friends and colleagues but how many can we help?
if we help one, what about the rest?
what about those who need to sacrifice in order to help others?
say i'm selfish or whatever.
not that i dont pity or wanna help those who only get to work a couple of days this month,
but how many times can we help them?
it's not up to us.
they can always find wendy and fight for their rights.
i just dont understand why wendy needs so many part timers.
anyway if i never remember wrongly,
that time when joann and felicia join in,
they say they'll only work one or two months?
but this is already their...
i know everybody wanna work more to earn more money,
who doesnt want?
so shall i quit and let the rest take my place?
haiz.

now i'm wondering why didnt i change jobs a few months ago.
say i get an office job, 9am-6pm, monday-friday,
at night i can give tuition, weekends can work other part time jobs,
maybe i could have earn much more.
but it's too late now, left with 2 more months.
i dont feel like changing jobs now,
neither do i feel like working at the counter.

am i just feeling tired?
or am i just having mood swing?
somehow i just feel terrible.
and all these are adding on to my headaches......

2007-05-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

recent obsession:

SOCCER!

haha.
after world cup last year i never care anything about soccer already.
dunno why recently suddenly became interested in champion league and EPL when they gonna end soon.
maybe cuz people around me keep talking about it? ha.
gordon, zhihao and even my sis keep giving me information about the matches.
i'm so amazed that piggy actually know so much!
yesterday night we were so mad that we even went to coffee shop to watch the 1st half of the match of chelsea vs arsenal!

oh yay chelsea and arsenal draw so man united is the champion of EPL!
wahaha.
and i won my bet with zhihao!
can have a free meal, bleh :p

zhihao is a big fan of chelsea.
but sorry arh, i support man-u and liverpool.
and i always hope that chelsea loses though i like some of the players.
hee.
gordon, piggy and i are man-u and liverpool fans!
was happy when liverpool won chelsea for champion league semi-final.
but was so sad when man-u lost badly to AC milan.
hmmm i dont think liverpool can win AC milan though that's what i hope...

piggy says next year europe cup she wants to subscribe the sports channel and i must share the cost with her.
wow, that pig, never ask me then is a 'MUST' already.
haha.
next year is like how many hundreds days away......

2007-05-07T21:58:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY, MAY 06, 2007

today is a great happy spidy day!!!
watch spider-man 3 with mrG!
wanted to watch it at vivocity but it was fully booked the previous evening.
so sad.
end up i've to book online cuz the tickets are running out very fast everywhere!
now i know, next time dont watch this type of popular movie during it's first 2weeks of release!

we had lunch at PS burger king.
cuz i wanna collect spider-man card and the toy!
but this time i got the sand man toy.
i want the spider-man one!
so must eat more burger king!
haha.
walked to the cathay to catch our movie.
my legs almost got cramped after 2hours plus of sitting down, lol.

the movie is a bit draggy as what some people said.
but it is funny and touching too!
like some of the sentences inside.
if i never remember wrongly...

"a man must be understanding, always putting his wife before himself."

wow, i wonder when i'll find that man of mine, lol.

"we always have a choice, we're made of the choices we chose and we can always choose to make the right choice."

oh well, i always hate to choose from choices cuz i cant tell which is right...

went back PS to play arcade.
didnt have much to play, only played daytona and the mario go-kart.
i prefer marina bay's arcade la.
rushed back home cuz i-weekly and 8days magazines gave wrong information by stating tonight channel5 showing spider-man 1.
i never watch part1 and 2 before ma.
but end up kanna cheated, it's not tonight la.

so went to the playground near my block to play with mrG's little brother.
he's only 16months old!
accident baby!
he's so cute!!!
but he doesnt seem to like me.
wanted to carry him, he kept saying "不要！不要！".
*faints*
i'm so scary meh?
haha.
he's super active la, keep running here and there.
i bet zishen must had hard time taking care of him, ha.
i love kids!
hmmm, 10years down the road,
i'll have some cute ones of my own too! :p

photos time: with mrG!

the super cute little zipeng!

he refused to take photo with me and keep moving!
sad :(

2007-05-04T11:48:00.000+08:00

today is a pamper myself day!
spent money on my 'grooming'.
:x

worked half day only,
i did not special request but it's rostered like that.
so i've the time to myself.
went paragon make up store to trim and shape my eyebrow.
the lady is pretty nice, she taught me how to draw my eyebrow too!
now my eyebrow is lesser, i feel a bit weird but everybody say it's neater.
so i guess i dont regret, hee.

but i regret doing manicure and pedicure at nailz story inside fling of heeren.
i thought their happy hours promotion looks attractive so gave it a try.
but everything suck except for the massaging part.
2 ladies served me, 1 did my fingers and the other did my toes.
they didnt even bother to make my nails length equal until i told them!
their cutting, shaping and colouring skills all suck, everything is not equal can, haiyo.
i think ah ba or mummy lhea can do a much better job than them la.
just that i dont wanna bother them and i'm too lazy and not skillful enough to do it myself.
bleh.

my nails!

i'm in love with purple these days!
that's why my finger nails are painted milky purple and my toe nails are dark purple, hee.

shop around heeren, walked down to PS and shop alone after doing my nails.
bought a whilte blouse from dorothy perkins for my NIE interview next week.
ying says it's better to wear something slightly formal so i must spend money again cuz i dont have formal clothings.
i'm super broke since last month!
have been eating maggie mee quite often until mum also screams at me.
ais says i gonna drop a lot of hair, haha.
but what to do...
:p

meet up with the girls for dinner!!!
sakae dinner buffet at park mall!
though some of us are not really hungry, we still try to eat as much.
i didnt dare to eat too much after the previous time which i vomitted.
it's a bit not worth it cuz this dinner cost us 25bucks each!

it's 7 out of 8 girls without lulut as usual.
her job is quite tedious with long hours and very few off days.
i havent seen her for quite some while...
miss you lulut!

but we've jean with us today!
so it's still 8 girls, yay!
eat, chat and laugh away.
so nice.
havent had such good time with the girls already.
but some of them didnt talk much, i guess they're all tired from work.
anyway i really enjoy this dinner gathering.
it's great to catch up with each other once in a while.
thanks girls!
:)

2007-05-03T23:53:00.000+08:00

had been having bad nights with insonmia since sunday.
dunno what's wrong.
even with cool rainy weather,
i still have to flip and row on the bed for 2hours then can finally fall asleep.
and i had nightmares!
dreamt about people humiliating me in public,
and the worse,
some people whom i know came to tell me that that's no way i can get into local university and that all the while they are just being nice by consoling me!
*faints*
i know they're just dreams, but it still freak me out and i always woke up in cold sweat.
haiz.

oh ya, window vista sucks!
it's security is TOO good can.
block this block that.
cant support so many programmes.
was trying to download maple with ais's help,
but after trying so many times and different ways and solutions,
it still cant be installed.
arrgh.
lucky i still manage to install my programmes for nokia and ipod.
so i finally can upload photos again!
uploaded a lot of photos at my imagestation.
better store my photos online in case anything happens to the PC again!
but *choy* la, haha.

picture time:

my cute mini vitasoy (125ml only!) with penguins cartoon characters on it!

2007-04-29T23:33:00.000+08:00

just finish ironing piggy's uniform.
i'm feeling so TIRED!!!
it has been a tiring week...
but i feel weird to sleep so early especially tomorrrow i'm working pm shift,
can sleep longer so i guess it's ok to come online for a while?
haha.

worked am shift today.
didnt have plans after work initially until jihan messaged me at noon to ask if can meet up.
the guys who are enlisted in april have their 1st book out this weekend.

so after work went down to one fullerton's startbucks to meet them.
but only johnson, jihan and adeline were there.
taiwei is sick, hantan has family thingy and fahizul has to book in tonight cuz he's under civil defence.
zairong came very very late cuz he had another date...
so 2guys 3girls.
and i guess we didnt interact much as a whole.
it's more of like guys talk among them and girls talk among ourselves.
weird.
jihan and ade dont seem to be interested in the guys' NS life.
so i feel weird to be sort of the only one wanting to listen...

hmmm dunno why i always like to hear stories about NS life.
last time can only hear from gordon, now have zhihao.
and of cuz my batch's NS guys.
just that most of them aint as crappy as johnson, zairong and their clique.
but today's atmosphere seems weird...
hmmm.
still got to hear some funny stuffs though.

maybe next time should meet up if my class guys!
i miss fahizul, uncle pan, bin bin and shy zul!

I MISS THE GIRLS TOO!
we sort of like lost contact.
or rather too busy to contact each other.
beside seeing fel at work sometimes and chatting with siying on phone yesterday,
i dont even know how are the rest doing.
haiz.
hope they're doing fine.
anyway fel, siying and i are planning to go hongkong in late june or early july!
the girls said we wanna go on trip together since last december,
but i guess now not all can make it.
well i do hope this can work out and most of us can join!
i want something more fun and meaningful before school starts!

2007-04-28T23:54:00.000+08:00

did late night shopping with ais YESTERDAY.
whole A&P was involved too.
wendy, adrian (though he came late and he looked so ill), grace and damon.
grace and damon are opening up, becoming closer to us.
they're quite jokers.
hope our future working life together will be good.
but i still think adrian is really leaving us, sad...

this time's promotion was same as february's one.
so we were very familiar with it.
but the customers were getting from bad to worse.
when there are freebies, greedy singaporeans will just 'chiong' for it.
arrgh.
and they take their own sweet time to choose.
please la, the stone pendants are so freaking ugly.
gimme for free i also dont want!
but we still must SMILE at them,
haiz.

at least this late night shopping was a fun working day!
but a tiring one too, worked till 12.40am, got home at 1plus...

had a very fun day TODAY!
hang out with ying.
she just finished her term exams.
went amk plaza for Klunch.
3hours of singing isnt enough!
we want more!!!
shall go again next time!

then is shopping spree in town!
wisma, ngee ann city, paragon, far east...
new favourite shopping place: isetan!
they've a lot of nice clothes,
the previous times i bought my clothes are also from there.
but this time i didnt buy la, no money already, hee.
ying bought a lot though! haha.
eh i only bought my peep-toe stiletos from far east mondo,
and it's kind of high.
maybe more than 2 inches? haha.
now my collection of shoes is complete! hee.

oh ya we ate at the canele at paragon! my treat to her.
they've nice food nice cakes!
the main courses aint expensive but the deserts are quite expensive.
the place is a bit too small too.
but it's still worth it.
thumbs up!

enjoyed myself today.
hope for more of such days!
:)

another thing:
after envying others for receiving letters to interviews,
i received one too.
it's NIE one.
cuz i chose it as my last choice for NTU.
i dont know whether i should be happy or sad,
but being a teacher is my last resort...
i'll still go for the interview and do my best though...

heard that some people received confirmation letters from SIM, SMU & NTU.
congrats to them.
while i'm still waiting......

2007-04-28T23:32:00.000+08:00

finally got new PC!
after going through sooooo much...

WEDNESDAY the delivery man came with the PC.
he seem a bit unsure of how to fix it the correct way.
then he said he doesnt know how to fix our wireless set up cuz he only know the basic type.
so according to him, ours is special case.
dad says he has all the details like IP address, password and stuff,
we just require him to key them into the correct place in the PC.
he said he doesnt know how.
at 1st we believed him.
but we were pissed that the PC company didnt send someone who know how to do it to deliver our PC cuz my parents actually specially requested for wireless set up and they agreed.
it's stated in black and white.
so we told him nvm, we'll call the company the next day to ask for someone who know to set up the wireless for us.
then he said even if somebody else is gonna come down,
they'll charge us $80 to do it as they dont do it for free.
and he called somebody in his company to discuss about our problem.
we overheard the conversation and it's so obvious that he knows how to do it can!
it's just that he wants us to pay him extra!
cunning man!
but we didnt say it out and decided to stick to the plan of calling the company the next day.
dad didnt wanna pay the full balance amount as he was afraid that the company wont entertain us after that.
so that stupid delivery man said no way, if we dont pay full amount, he'll take back the PC.
we thought he was in the wrong as it's stated in black and white that they'll set up our wireless for us so we said fine.
there goes our PC.
it's so sad to see the PC come... then go.

after i checked out with ais, who called her IT pro god-brother to find out for us,
then i know that there's really such thing called basic wireless and special wireless.
our router is security locked so it's under special.
whatever la.
who wont locked their router right.
if not whoever can just use it!
so we were kind of at wrong too.
but we're IT idiots what, how do we know!
and the salesman didnt even say they only do for basic wireless!
haiz.

end up i called the salesman who sold PC to us on THURSDAY.
couldnt really scold him cuz i guess both sides were at wrong.
i just said there was misunderstanding on both sides and voiced out our displeasure.
lucky he was nice enough and agreed to deliver our PC personally to our house and try to fix it for us.
heard from dad that his in-charge came together with him.
the lady in-charge looked kind of angry.
the salesman took 2hours plus to fix the whole thing.
when i got home everything was already done.
finally.

after so much problems and trouble with the old and new PC,
i'm so tired with these PC stuffs.
not excited about this new PC anymore.
somemore i just realise windows vista doesnt support a lot of things!
troublesome.
haiz.
right now, i just need a PC to go online, can connect my ipod and handphone.
i'm not going to care about the rest of the functions.
TIRED ALREADY!